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 The world isn’t the same anymore. The beauty of things. 



I wonder, aren’t what I know just basic. I mean there were more advance things that I haven’t learnt and I kept on circling the basic… I found a better way to do things though. I don’t think right while in a rush. When I read my code done last year, I almost vomit blood… Why have I thought like that and why haven’t I thought what I think now. It was so much easier to adjust the UI that way. Although it is still not the best way and rooms of improvements are everywhere, but not now. I guess I will leave that for later.


While I was rethinking about my career, hm, I saw Starbucks looking for software developer. I was a bit interested because I have a bad experience with them. Yet, I don’t have the courage to press that button. What if the person who is hiring was the one I complained to. hahaha… Anyway, that time I wasn’t a developer and it has been few years back. I got a gift card from my friend. I wanted to login to their app. Never received any message, or no matter how hard I try, reset and changed, I cannot login at all. I am not sure if I emailed and finally with my last burst of fire, I complained on the App. Well, still no news. Too bad. Then probably they don’t even care and why should I. I just reduced my time going to starbucks. I liked their Cheesecakes though. It wasn’t their coffee that I liked last time. I think it tasted bland but the Cheesecakes must go with some deinks. Probably why. Another was the space. Anyway, don’t see the ad anymore. Maybe next time. Let’s see if fate will bring us together. There is a saying, you will end up doing things you used to hate. 


If it’s mine, then it is. If it’s not, it will never be. I think this is the only thing that I am good at. Letting go easily. It is not that it doesn’t bother me but there are a lot more things that is worth more of your time than spending time on something that will never be yours. It is called a wise choice of you me time. SO, I definitely cannot understand why people in a movie or whatsoever show like to hang on to just one guy. Ain’t he just a man… or if it’s a girl, Ain’t she just a girl. Well, not the trouble I would have but I don’t understand why a show must have a relationship thing going on. When it’s coding or chasing bad guys or killing one another, then scenes of kissing just always around the corner. Can’t they think of something new. I felt like it is not worth my time to see the kissing part. It is a scene with no content. Every movie, every show. argh.

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