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Can see how much he tried to hide. He lied. Anyway, I dunno how effective but when it comes to kiosk, always skip and I never even heard them talking much about kiosk and pop, there is kiosk. Magic. Then when you ask questions, it could take months before you get reply. Say don't need, then need. Say need then don't need. It is always the last thing. Like, the thing got 3 months. More than 2 months thinking want or don't want. After do then don't want. If you haven't do, they want. Even set up also lo. More like putting obstacles in front of me.

Then put it like I dragged. Enough liao. The more I think, the more I felt something is wrong. The kiosk was running for almost a year without user manual which i thought was submitted during launch. My bad... I never checked. When asked, I realised release note all there except for manual... Actually, should I do like my last job. Just skip everything in between if there is too much to communicate or for the communicator to handle. Then skip through everyone and just do everything myself. Don't care fail or pass or procedure since lack of resources. After done, just go away for good. I don't feel safe at all here. It feels something is off but you cannot tell where. You can hear the time ticking off that sooner or later you will realise, there is a time bomb. 1 sec or 1 hr. I preferred 1s because I don't want to wait for so long before I die. The feeling of wanting to go away getting stronger every second. Shall i hold back or shall I just straightaway submit so there is no time for me to make other decision. 

Well, the person who replied actually checked the grammar. When I rushed, I don't normally check. Anyway, my grammar is just as good as grammar checker. Grammar checker passed then it passed. Think I should go for a grammar course. My grammar like stock market. Sometimes I know the exact sentense but sometimes forming a sentence seems like a hard task. I wonder why. Like my teacher can praise me one time and then the other time marked my paper all red. I think I have multiple personalities. One good at English and one just sucks. But the question is to follow the design or shall I do my own again. I have been translating most stuff myself. Because I know waiting for them could take months. Do you know if I have to come back to my code and fill in what they never gave took how long? It's like you fly to America and never bring luggage. You cannot buy there but you can fly back to take your clothes one by one everyday. Back and fro. It is always the last to give. Just asking the gate direction already took more than a month. I would say, I should have left long long time ago. This is not going anywhere near where I imagined. I am not going to go into the schemes created.

So much so, I felt like I am in the same situation. I guess there are plenty no matter where I go just as shown on Extraordinary Attorney Woo. I am tired. Actually talking to people is quite taxing for me. I felt like the more I tried, the worst I get. I don't really have craving for food. All I ever wanted is just McDonald's McSpicy or Double cheese burger, coffee, Chicken rice and fried carrot cake. Economy rice will always be brinjal, broccoli, gulurou, potato. Mainly those 4. Kimchi fried rice or ramen. Chocolate other than Kinder Bueno, no other special cravings. M&M maybe which my mum banned from our house because of the colourings. Anyway, half of the things were banned from home but maybe that's why I liked them more. Apart from that, everything is a blank. It's all about job or watching a show which I don't have any preference. Too long, I worried too much to finish. Best is short story. I think I am the most boring person on earth. I am bored. Guitar. Computer. Eat. Sleep. Go toilet. Read about other people. Find their biodata and what they did in life and look at myself. That is my life. QUIT. Everyday being with people yet I am not that good with that. Why bother? 

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