2020

 My mum calling my name and looking for something while making coffee. Then she said she cannot find the coffee cover while staring at all the bottles. She said she forgot where she put it. It took me a while to figure out the cover was on top of another bottle. Camouflaged. I thought it fell somewhere. I takeaway food for my mum at home. While closing my eyes, my mum was looking for something again. She was having her breakfast and suddenly couldn’t find it. I bought a small sling over bag for her and passed it to her while she was eating. Then after a while her food disappeared. I helped her looked everywhere from the coffee table and in front of tv and also her bedroom. She went in to take things to put in the new bag. I couldn’t find it too. Kitchen also cannot find. The wantan just disappeared. Did dog came in and took it? In the end, she found it herself. She did her prayer at the small altar and took the food along with it. She places it at the table with the candles…. haha ...

 There were worried you are doing well so always find things to make troubles but all these years who has been the one taking and using the resources? Rent free, Utilities free, got workers to ask to do things for them. Wait, why you joined our family, all your problems become ours. Everytime got problem, we must understand you but I am sorry, most of the time when I was your age, I have to solve them myself. I also remember every year, both make new problems for us. Why when I was home, never complain I washed your whole family dish. Oh, is it because that time I didn’t make myself sick? Then pretend that I cannot work anymore like you did. So many acts. Why the money my Dad earned and what we all done need to let you spend. Yet, what you have earned, none go to us. Our parents’ money. Asked us to save, to work but to let you reap them? Please work harder like both of them lah until 65 years old like my mum then I didn’t want to hear your complains. At that time, someone complaine...

 Brought my mum to emart. Initially to find my Dad his newspaper. It was like 8pm and who still sell newspaper this late. Been everywhere but cannot find. We found they were selling Anlene Gold 5x. They give bone checking for calcium level. I have the highest and pretty good. The guy said everyone just borderline. I didn’t tell him I have been drinking Anlene or Coffee with Fresh Milk from McD usually. Or coffee with packaged milk. Anyway, mine was like green area with reading 1. Max is 2. Borderline is -1 but still good. Mum is medium. Yellow area. Maybe age. Dad has been tested low on Calcium as I suspected. Mum went for tooth extraction and they said that will cause calcium loss in some article. That’s when I started to buy milk but Dad also lactose intolerant. He is also having some med that I knew nothing about because he has been taking them himself. Only when he sick I started to ask and researched more when he went to emergency for a swollen arm. Pretty big one that the doc...

 It is how you treat a person when you have everything. I saw that part thankfully. Otherwise I will still be a fool in your eyes because you knew it quite well. What you are doing is coming to you. Be worried if there were more.

 Every time got problem asked me to sacrifice considered kind? What is try their best for you? meaning? when someone tried their best on you and you trampled those kindness, what does that make of you? When you tried your best for others, does it involve any advantage? if yes, that is not kindness. That is a transaction. I don’t see any try their best for you. Can you list out an example? I listed so many. Then you listed boiling water. Look down on my Mum to want to stop working at 65. Come on, what have you really done apart from the 3 meals, even now no need to cook for them, you still cooking leh. All these years my mum’s pocket money gone to the shop too. Make sure you wash your own plates in your old age. Wash your own laundry too. Make sure you keep your place clean. Make sure you don’t faint. If you can say a fake faint, I bet you have been faking it too or faking so many other things. If you did give more, then may God bless you. If you have taken more than you give, may G...

 I am still usable so they have been kind. Then after using done, they changed face. Just when their kid graduated, this person acted differently. I also reciprocated but still leave room for misunderstanding if there is any. Well, that time only the woman acted that way. Time passed, I still saw her reaction every time somebody like my Aunt or my Dad’s friend mentioned me. So don’t blame me if I gave you that face too. Cause I didn’t do it. I think you imagined that too.  After all those remarks to undermine me then after taking the advantage of us going back home, to say how much work was done for us to be home. The room I left them was in a fine condition. The room after they use like wreckage here and there. The only thing I never add to the room was curtain rail. Because that is expensive. That time we were saving money to buy the house and pay the loan. Everyone after moving in, can add air cond, add curtain and so on. Is it their own money? or borne from the company?...