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 结果钱又飞了。其实有病没病人都会死的。我最快乐的那一天就会是离开这世界的那一天。我会把钱花光。没有钱最多就在赚,要不然最多就死而已嘛。又不是什么大事。这是我想要一个人的理由。我不希望我的孩子来到这世上。你善良会被欺负。你坏会被这世界吞没。这世界也越来越变态。来到这世界也就为了活着。然后呢。我最不快乐的那一天是我来到这个世界的那一天。每个人来到这世界上,都是从哭开始的。应为可以哭,你才能呼吸。可是为什么不是笑呢?如果是大笑的baby。应该会吓坏所有医生和护士还有父母吧。你会怀疑他或她是神经病吧。有什么好笑的。为什么哭就是default。才是正常呢。

我曾经打算离开。离开所有人。包括我的家人。也是最想离开的是他们。最想留下的也是他们。我只是随便的就到了这个世界上。我一直都是透明的。就是魔术变出来的。你看不到我,可是我一直在。父母也许都会被我排在第一位。可是不管我的付出有多少,我只是一个工具。我不是儿子,没有得到儿子该有的待遇却为你们做了那么多。也为你们承受了很多。到最后却还是把所有都给了什么都不做只会要钱的儿子。而到最后我只有我自己。看起来我拥有了很多,其实什么都没有的是我。穷到连自己都看不到自己。永远都不会是谁的第一名。唯一的第一名就是最后。有的时候连最后一名都要和我抢的人,你还有脸吗。连名次都没有。可是也是这样让我更不在乎名次。但尊重还是要有的。每个人都为了利益在做事。

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