Truthful

 Some things I definitely knew. Anyway, hope they are truthful too. For now, I cannot say a thing. Either I continue my business in Malaysia or continue but wait till a later stage to decide. I can see what Dad’s worry but I do know there is some stuff he is hiding. I knew he wasn’t well for a long time but what did I did to solve that? Love or hate? Mainly, now I wanted to save up for them. At least, they don’t have to worry about nobody wants them. Just hope my younger brother wakes up and stop giving troubles. Although, that was just part of the problem. My plan did not include him. Mainly because of my parents. At least by then, he won’t have to struggle with rents, electric/water bill, food bills, phone bills, supplier’s bill, workers bill, taxes, petrols, cars bill, medical bills, and the most gruesome, court case of 13 years. As to the hidden cost to my younger bro was not known, I hope it was not as gruesome as court case. If he stopped his business, and didn’t have to pay for all that, it was just normal spending that matters. Lots to list but will greatly reduced. I think rm 1-1.5k on average is actually good living expenses for elderly. Food wise, a family of 3 probably the most is rm 30 / day if cook at home. Let’s put it at 1k for food. 500 for Electricity, Internet, Phone and Water. TV with Netflix. Extra entertainment maybe 500 a month for enjoying dinner or whatever outings to buy things. like RM 2k. Not spending a lot but not saving a lot. If have car, maybe needed another 800-1k per month. Else grab since we won’t be going out often. Maybe set up something they can do at home and if need a walk, hope there is a park somewhere nearby to go out weekly for a walk when I am not working. If JB, can travel to sg for fun. If KL, i think also there are places to travel without going abroad. I don’t think they can stand long distance flight. Sigh… Lesson learnt. Don’t have too many kids or too many lands. They weren’t the best if you cannot live as peaceful and as simple as others. Just plainly enjoying peace and life. RM 3k is needed. I guess they should have done so. Selling one land actually enough to cover all their expenses instead of spending it on business. Invest house, probably can earn from rentals… sigh… I wished I could have done something more so he wouldn’t have ended up this way. Do you think my Mum totally at fault? Partly. 

At least helped him with the lawyer. When he was home, why did he fell down? Water on the floor. I think my niece helped a lot at home. After she left home, all these started i guess. I remembered he said his hip was painful one cny before covid. It was only one side. Then it ultimately becomes 2 sides. Out of choices, he took chinese medication given by friends. It contained steroid… Sigh… If I have stayed back and taken him to hospital, probably he wouldn’t have suffered for the past few years. Your two sides hip bone were dead… living like that for a few years and not few days… When we suffered pain, we thought it will go away… drag and drag without realising it was something that is serious. When something not serious, we then exaggerate… humans… I couldn’t have done more… Where have we all gone wrong, we couldn’t say much. With self-employed, at least I can do things according to my own schedules. Hope I can maximise my time with them without sacrificing my work time too. At least can give pocket money is better than giving large sums to things I wasn’t even responsible for. Hope when he is better he can live at least 10 more years and not fussed about anything else but enjoy life. Not about what to eat or drink. Maybe play games with me or anyone he liked. Play taichi. Mum can also do what he liked. I think I will try to earn more and invest on a dishwashing machine. Not having thoughts that they are old and spending money on them was a waste. They spent money on you before too. Of all the bad, I saw all the good things gotten from them too. Sometimes the bad won. Life. I guess it was also right that I left home. At least I know how much I missed out on. At least I have the chance to fall down and get up. 3 pax dishes should be easy for me to handle. Laundry for 3 pax also easier. With robots everywhere now and smart home devices, hopefully I can set it up too. If they both don’t work or go planting, they would change less clothes. If they fight, maybe I should borrow them microphone and amplified it. But without my younger brother around causing issues and not missing things, it will be a bright day.

Anyway, they tried not to quarrel in front of me. At least, I heard them quarrelling even from outside of the car but when I got on, they quiet down… Not sure what that was all about but must be that person again. Since that day, he called them. The day before too. Everything was calm before those calls. God, if you are there, please tell him to start finding his solution for his life. He is in the UK. Amen.

Talking about food, me and mum probably have same taste. Dad a bit more worrying because he eats anything whether salty or not. Now at least we knew he was allergic to seafood and dust related stuff. Same for me. It would be considered as murder attempt if you knew someone was allergic to some food and still serve them. Just to say this so everyone is aware.

He ate bittergourd so this part I can always make. He like vege so that’s a good one. I guess light food is best. Truthfully speaking, I ate more vege at home than outside. Outside food after eating surely gets diarrhoea. Home food won’t though… I guess can look around youtube to cook food best for Diabetics/Weak Kidneys/Allergies… so many thing… sigh… it is best to have a good body to begin with. However, I can take out a lot of choices and only cook those few? Probably at my old age, I will suffer the same. I already did at a young age for Allergies. 

If I knew you had medical condition and ignored that, the reason is the same. I went home to help. Not as free labour as usual. More to see my parents as I haven’t seen them in about 3-4 years. If I am working, I cannot take leaves like others since I am in the front service sector. Now that I am on my own. I can do that. Everything was running at positive conditions for you. People offering helps. Before that, who offered their hands? Not even the one whom you have helped so often.