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No need to fix if it’s broken

 From the moment I stepped in, there is something unspeakable. Not sure what’s that feeling and everyday this feeling grew stronger and stronger. I realised why fix if nobody wants to. Anything, just point at each other. Targeting each other. It seems people forget what they did or what others did. Yet, they hanged on to something worst of each other. To me, if it is no longer a family, why bother to make up the front. Anyway, few things already targetted at me. More than I can say. From borrowing money to macbook pro. Somebody is saying something definitely. Screwing things from the truth. Who borrowed money from who? For that, I cannot help, if you like to believe what was not even the truth or fact. People preached but never do what they say. As for the truth, I am not sure what was. Did you took the money? hm. I can’t say when I wasn’t there but you can’t know the same about me without being there. The only reason I brought things up was when the unspeakable thing struck again. If people take a step back, it was more than launching at you continuously. We won’t know what it is like to be at your position but same to me. If you were to be me, based on what you have shown, you cannot even be half of me. Yet, there is no point for you to be me. I am out of it. I shouldn’t even let it be. Everyone be strangers from long ago is so much better. 

It all began when it was all targeted at me without doing anything. Just live like this and whatever I want. Don’t do too much good because nobody will remember. They will only nitpick you. 

I believed it was this person again.

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