2020

  so true… I should go for Java next…

 What if we all already had Covid virus in us but when in low amount not detectable? I remember an instant few year ago before my niece going to England. That time I haven’t start work and it was about August-September 2019 before Covid becomes hot around Feb 2020 when all the quarantine started. I brought my niece to KL for about 2 weeks to deal with her visa for The UK. That time she felt sick and had fever. I brought her to the nearby clinic. I was quite worried but thinking back, the doctor words sounded as if they knew what was going on. Apart from asking about my niece and I told her the fever kept on coming back after subside. She said it is ok. It is the season and quite a lot of people got it nowadays but then withheld as in she knew something. Well, the season was before COVID. Now even with quarantine, covid still spread like maniac. What if this covid has been around longer than Dec without any curbs on travelling, undetected and everytime you were outside it feels like...

 咖啡起了两毛 炒米粉 五毛 世界都变了。我都meiyiu

 Actually the office apart from all the crap like using own  wifi, is the best place to work. Cause water and electricity bill increased at home. If work, should spend the company’s one mah. Why let my Aunty pay for it right? Crap is have to iron my shirt. Well, if I stayed home I also have to do laundry so should really charge the company.  

 Aunty came back from the clinic shortly after I reached home. She brought back MC hahaha, hidden behind the notice letter and ask who to submit the MC to. The doc gave her MC. Once back, she cooked for Uncle and herself. Even sick, women have no MC even if she got it officially hahaha. I can cook but normally not up to her standard la. It will just be vege and rice. Then Egg. Maybe can borrow the MC from her hehehe but truly just officially off while working. After she tested positive, I came back home. Testing myself, I am negative. After testing, my nose always get uncomfortable, and now recovering from my triggered series of sneezing and tearing. I guess either the pfizer worked well in our blood or 3 pfizer has higher immunity.  Or just simply stay home is always the safest. Or we have to wait. Thing is, if u got covid now and recovered, meaning you can travel without any quarantine or pcr test later on. Still got a few of us need to get it but worrying about getting it…?...

 我覺得，我有點被騙到的感覺。 😵

 I found this too late. Hope it is good. New toy. For my portable monitor but it was like very strong, I guess it could stand my 2++kg laptop.

 My laptop asked me to update to Windows 11 during startup… Wa, if I accidentally pressed ok, then I would have Windows 11 now. I read through the document, actually it was recommended with Windows 10 and below. I think this document is pretty old so Windows 11 wasn’t in yetIf I have changed, it would not run then I die better. Better than going back to the work laptop.

 Sigh. Life is work and work is life balance. Imagine I went to the interview and the interviewer ask. What was the biggest challenge you faced at your previous job? Imagine if I said sending an Email. If your previous employee or the previous has no work life balance, it means, this job has no work life balance. If everybody kept in saying you must have work life balance, then I will keep on changing job until I find one that has that balance. Not my problem. I like work but I don’t like sacrificing my time to do something trivial. Just as everybody does.

 The only thing that my laptop can do is Email. Now, it cannot email as well. After bringing it to IT, changed whatever… reformat my C drive, up new GP version, install new cert and again… I think seriously, nothing is working. Should everyone just keep on going to IT and update every single week? Next time, shall I add the man days of possible delays because my laptop cannot send email or whatever due to whatever issues… that I have to spend the time to get it fix and it can only last a few weeks before the problem comes back. I can only do so much. All I can do now is rush out the sg payment. I don’t want to spend anymore time on this. 

 Kiosk actually has more function required for payment terminal… 🙄😵‍💫🥴😵

 Hm.. I realised although the doc is short actually there isn’t much coding. Doesn’t require you to know it. Maybe that is why one day enough. Just their function only as in calling Api and handling their response mainly. Similar to the rest of the equipments leh…  I fed up. The email doesn’t work on my laptop. Now my laptop doesn’t have anything so it was considerably faster. Well, should I waste time installing everything back? or I will just have to bear with it until I am done… The other one although more information, is actually lower level coding. I found out that they also had one library. Not sure to use or not to use.

 Need this music

 After reading the payment terminal documentation, I realized, the other bank has given very little information… There is actually much more. Day 1 of reading documentation and trying to make the source code, which is given by the provider, to work. Another is a sample code done by another project previously… hm. It might actually be easier than I thought for the terminal to work but harder to implement into my code than I thought.

 感觉这部剧在抄我的话。anyway，成功的把自己的电线都贴上标签了。 插头都用3M Tape 粘在墙上，这样比较好收拾也让地上少了一点东西。如果没掉，就在买多几个粘一粘。还有两个Extension还没有粘。一包里只有四个。5 块多。怕买了又不能用所以买了一包试先。昨天粘的。今天Day 1。房间也打扫了一下。把新买的收一收，把要回收的也收了。可是有点舍不得。一直没有时间。

I gained weight back to 70 after eating Lamb Chop…. which came along with waffle fries… hm… I bought one to celebrate. hm… I gained weight fast! Hm… thought of cooking soup but didn’t want to use the stove. 

 We went to Nakhon at Sengkang to eat Thai food. The last time I ate Red Ruby was like a few years back. The taste or texture wasn’t nice, not clear Ruby Red and too sweet. Well, so I have been looking around for that especially in Thai Retaurant. Before that, it was probably 10 years ago (considering my first job). The most food I ate were pretty simple but the Red Ruby stayed in my mind. The cup that time was small and we shared considering the amount of ice.  Nakhon had an outlet at Vivo and we used to dabao or eat there. It has the tom yam soup taste to my liking and Olive fried rice which were the only two that I usually takeaway or eat there. I think if such a good restaurant, should be good with their traditional Thai Desserts. My sis said it was not nice. Knowing my sis, I decided to order one. It came with 6 pieces of rubies on top of the shaved ice…. I was disappointed, why so little with so much ice.  I tried one of the Ruby, ah ha, it’s nice. The texture, the ...

 有的時候越聊就越心酸。聊到最後結果還是一樣。其實我是不是就該省下聊天的時間。 應為我真的不知道在聊什麼。If it is just a shallow chat, it would be meaningless. If it is something more, it would get uncomfortable. The point just lost somewhere and why spend time on it. Maybe I shouldn’t be just polite and replying. Probably if it gets awkward, I should be responsible to ends it. Actually it is already kind of weird… Well, just see what a stranger wants in chatting… 

 如果最后第一名都比不过，那为什么要浪费时间呢。坐下来看别人比赛不就好了吗？如果连看赛的资格都没有。那就不看也可以嘛。人生又不是只有比赛。也有人觉得沙滩一点都不好玩的。也有人不喜欢玩。也有人把工作当游戏。也有人把游戏当工作。输了退场赢了又有什么呢。就是下一次不能输的压力。输了就随便。所以输赢只是为了让人更努力。努力的跑。可是终点在原地。

 结果钱又飞了。其实有病没病人都会死的。我最快乐的那一天就会是离开这世界的那一天。我会把钱花光。没有钱最多就在赚，要不然最多就死而已嘛。又不是什么大事。这是我想要一个人的理由。我不希望我的孩子来到这世上。你善良会被欺负。你坏会被这世界吞没。这世界也越来越变态。来到这世界也就为了活着。然后呢。我最不快乐的那一天是我来到这个世界的那一天。每个人来到这世界上，都是从哭开始的。应为可以哭，你才能呼吸。可是为什么不是笑呢？如果是大笑的baby。应该会吓坏所有医生和护士还有父母吧。你会怀疑他或她是神经病吧。有什么好笑的。为什么哭就是default。才是正常呢。 我曾经打算离开。离开所有人。包括我的家人。也是最想离开的是他们。最想留下的也是他们。我只是随便的就到了这个世界上。我一直都是透明的。就是魔术变出来的。你看不到我，可是我一直在。父母也许都会被我排在第一位。可是不管我的付出有多少，我只是一个工具。我不是儿子，没有得到儿子该有的待遇却为你们做了那么多。也为你们承受了很多。到最后却还是把所有都给了什么都不做只会要钱的儿子。而到最后我只有我自己。看起来我拥有了很多，其实什么都没有的是我。穷到连自己都看不到自己。永远都不会是谁的第一名。唯一的第一名就是最后。有的时候连最后一名都要和我抢的人，你还有脸吗。连名次都没有。可是也是这样让我更不在乎名次。但尊重还是要有的。每个人都为了利益在做事。

 sigh。刚刚发现一个错误。我讨厌这种错误。sigh 其实还有很多没有测试完。我希望能够完整。可是越做越多面。我越改越乱。有些本来想改好。不改还好。越改就要从新测试。 and I found my loophole… Anyway, wondering why…. Although it is ux design. The backend siao.  我的体重 68.7 了。 sigh，这是没有运动但是减少晚餐， 还有早餐。我现在很饿。晚餐吃了两碗冬瓜汤和饭。我今天没有碰到肉。前天早上吃两粒蛋， 下午吃了炒萝卜糕，晚上我忘了。会不会是麦当劳。我只吃了一次这个星期。 昨天阿姨有煮鸡翅膀。我吃了两个还有米粉。晚上好像没有吃。哦黑糯米和两小块蛋糕。

  5 mins will be like this. 

 My dad’s court case has finalized today. I think it somehow affected all our mood in a way or two. It has been going on for more than 10 years. My dad wanted to sell his shop in Malaysia for us to study. That was when I was still in Uni. It was the most stressful time of my life because we had so much trouble with the tuition fee. Dad sold his shop to a 无赖. Just the night of handover, a fire breakout. The shop has been rented to the buyer for many years. That was why Dad give them the priority to buy first while other Buyer who already has the amount in cash was declined. The person who rent gave a deposit and the contract has gone through except for handover officially although the person was already in charge.  The day before that was done, the fire broke out mysteriously. The person bought insurance for his goods and didn’t buy for the shop which during the process my Dad asked him to buy but he didn’t. The previous insurance was halted because of the purchase. Also why Da...

 Yesterday, I have done up to a part around 2am. I worry if want to undo then cannot once I close the application. I continued on to test, just to make sure no error before closing… maybe I should use git too but I considered the code is not exactly my property even though I have written it. That’s why so far I have not. These few weeks working from home. I have been eating only 2 eggs every morning. Here is what I have learnt. After the water boils, put in the eggs. If you want half boil, 4 mins. If you want the egg white more cook but still soft and egg yolk soft yet not runny, 5 mins. If you want, egg white cooked, egg yolk soft but not harden, 6 mins.  If you boil for more than that, can throw at people. 

 Based on their reply, we are actually testing what. hahaha. ok. …..

 hm.. my boss called. Actually the hardest part is you are new to these things and the whole team is also new to these things too… jus a matter of methods used and trial and error out things. Most code done, I cannot reuse and until now, they still have progress in changing… request of changes here and there… small change still ok but totally different concept of what was built was like why not just throw away the whole thing and do again… I mean if they really wanted to do that, Kiosk can throw away. Then repeat the procedure…   huh?… a running timeline with running deadlines…. I can only reuse those concept like save to db things. Whatever on application level still need to smooth things out… It’s not like a program they already have these remedy or improvements or new features. It actually is a development in production. It’s really actually still building and ironing. I had fun doing these but the changes sometimes felt a bit annoying especially only after it’s done. Thing...

 Work time again. Today a bit lazy. So start work now. sigh…. sigh… still need to use voucher…. sigh…. 9pm to 5am… 

  The origin of 120 dollars. Aunty bought the number when somebody shared this to her. hahahha

 The police in The UK deserved the highest commendation.  I slept at around 5. My pattern’s a bit weird. Woke up around 8am. Do work from around 9 am til 7:30 or 8pm. Dinner/Slept 1-2 hrs. 11 pm to 5 am….  I liked Friday because I can do that. I slept at 4 am the prveious night. I already worked 4 hrs before the work day started. Almost half a work day. But it’s the most efficient time. Felt like ordering food and ice cream around 11pm because I suddenly felt hungry and my ulcer is making my head hurt. Normally on the top lips were the most unbearable because my front teeth was uneven. McDonald not open so I made myself Ice Coffee. I only have coffee…  Breaking the cursed life of Programmer. “Bugged”. Maybe they should just change the name to bugger. Sometimes felt really suay, when the bug cannot be found. U r not sure whether it is your bug or Microsoft’s. I would just prove it wasn’t my bug. The suayness is you cannot prove Microsoft’s bug right? Most suay one is ...

 Could it be the log failed? Then what do we do if Log failed. Will it get stuck? I was thinking maybe MethodBase.GetCurrentMethod failed???? Maybe…. Anyway, I thought could get the name dynamically instead of creating a variable. Maybe it might take more resources. It might not be able to deal with this.GetType()… But then it is usually fine…. If it cannot be used, surely will fail 100% of the time.

 Sigh, so the position is actually tied to the experience you had with that language. I have been using C#. They wanted the experience with Golang so it is not applicable lo. I think the recruiter will send the JD with the highest pay. Then you will submit your information. Thereafter, discuss anything other than the JD based on your experience. Maybe just a hook la. I think I will stick to do startup so I can finally use Go. Envy those people who do mobile app. Imagine if I do mobile, my screen will be much smaller. Things I need to carry are lesser

 In life, you learned. As I have gone through a lot, and I know most things the worst way possible. From the things I see and do. There were many parts which I wished I hadn’t done or could be done in a better way but life is, there is no going back. Probably, if you lived again, you’ll still choose the same. I grew up in a foreign country. I was a foreigner and that’s how my friends and teachers saw it. I am and, still, more like a foreigner in the country I was born. I went on to work in another country. Never in my life, I wasn’t foreign. If human has no country, wouldn’t it be home anywhere? What’s separating a human from another human regardless of our skin, our blood and our hair. We breathe the same air and drink the same water. Food wise you can choose beef, chicken, fish, pork, lamb and many more.  Malays preferred beef and chicken. Fried chicken. Rendang beef. No pork. If you grew up with Malays, you cannot not eat the beef they made. Indians can be vegetarian and cu...

The bug bugs me.... I am officially "hanging by a thread". 

I found API record before the hangs 10:07. I saw API record at 10:03. The record not received by the app. The earliest log from the log file was 10:07.  It was sent. There is a catch but since no record for that API call, left three possibilities.  One, the UI failed to load and not the API Anyway, I purposely put the api call there. For that button, only one so I can tell whether there is network or not. If there is, it should just redirect after receiving. The data will not be in use to load the page. It will be used several page after.  Second, there is an image update and my app cannot find the image and hanged. Cannot be, the image was not lived. It was a menu page so nothing needed to load it except for the static link and text.  Third, losing network just in time, i.e. before receiving the response from API. In 200 ms response that was a rare encounter but starting the first, it could be about 1 s. More chance. Hard to reproduce also. I need to turn off wifi o...

*whisper* it's a ghost...

App hanged but I closed it normally which took a while and then restart the application without window.. There is no History in the Security and Maintenance also. What else to check for this. I hate bugs. Argh...

  Perks of working from home. I have been saying my spending was a lot ever since I work on site. Although not  entirely work from home, that’s the difference. Imagine I have been spending so much before that.  If someone offer you a job, about 2.5 times your current salary but your current boss is nice, will you move? It was the greatest pull factor. I wonder maybe that’s why people keep on leaving. The pull factor is really large… JD wise not so sure if it will be intensive. They will be using a different technology and developing different things so you will not be in your comfort zone. But then with the same amount of time and the pay is 2.5 times more and you still get to enjoy coding… why no right? I just worry the boss sucks. I cannot tell if I will fit in. I haven’t touch Golang, Node.js and React.js for the past one plus year. Worst still, I haven’t touch Postgres even longer. Somemore, Postgres normally I queries through command line. I will have to fish out all...

 I have been checking in now and then. If it was idle for sometimes, the button took a bit longer to respond and if there is a connection, it will be directing to that page. However if there is no connection, it will show network error… Or I shall leave it there idling for 3 days then click? hm… Or it lost wifi connection…. ahhh. but I can remote in… if lost wifi… hm… ya. I haven’t try that. It does take longer with wifi but there will be pop up. I cannot test remotely though. Once I turned off wifi meaning I can’t enter anymore… argh… next week bah. If it is pc suddenly not enough resources, it could be. Event viewer showed Cross Process Window Is Idle. It says it stopped interacting with Windows and was closed. That was when I tried to close it. It then hanged the Windows for a while. … Asked to check problem history in the Security and Maintenance control panel… Not allowed to check but error thrown because of some update and group policy issues… I think .NET wasn’t windows frie...

 The reason behind no pop up. The pop up caused the freeze… Hahahaha. Will never have this issue on browser. The pop up never failed. Ah. I hate pop up anyway. I got tonnes of them. Spam the user. Maybe I should just do one page, then the rest all pop up.

 I realised the pop up error message was the culprit…. 

 So yesterday whole day test terminal… Got do the ui a bit but really shitty to have different design for different product purchase. What the hell were they thinking. Whatever la. The test terminal I fed up liao. So I just dump everything in their document into the Kiosk. Otherwise like constipation. Everytime, don’t know what they communicated. Then suka suka add here change there. Really don’t know what these people were up to. Since I am leaving, I will just update as to my understanding. Wrong or not just directly ask the bank. Later do too much, say don’t or do too little say didn’t do. Or anyhow come back ask you to add back or change. A bit here and there then start dragging time…  The laptop, anyone who will take over, don’t say I never say anything about it. God bless the person who will take that laptop. Anyway, I think the price of my laptop really worth it. Connect to so many things, can edit photos, can open 2-3 excel, Sql, 2-3 Visual Studio, Folders, Remote, etc...

Voucher… Ok. excluding the time I was thinking what to reply to my boss, the plan goes by 80%. I was planning two days but seems like data cannot totally be the same to be reuse so…. Sell voucher and Buy voucher suppose to finish today. Tmr do redeem. Sigh… Guess Buy will take 1 more day. I have no time to explain to my boss. I really have no idea what to reply la… 曲终人散的时候。只是曲还没终人就散了。 Haiya! What to reply? sigh… Tmr done buying.. Then probably 2-3 more days to do redeem. I wonder how shopee deal with their vouchers. After done, do sg terminal. If I smart enough, maybe a week or less.. Not how it works though that affects the progress. How to implement together into the flow was the problem so I asked for two weeks. I have two terminals for two different countries. One wants two languages and another wants three. If only 1 language probably won’t be an issue. All dialog box all messages need chinese… The code is ugly… Agly… bery agly…  I got two pages to deal with it… Who the hell k...

 Looks decent.  Received…. I realised this can be used for business. It auto adjust the label when clicked shut. Brilliant. 

 Rachel is so SAD. Never mind. Forget it. I don’t really know but I am tired. Get someone super to do the job. Maybe he/she can miraculously turned everything around… I need to explore the world. Do technology that is trending if it does exist. I don’t want to waste time on administrative stuff… Sigh… Well, I forgot my main point. I should have focus on the pull and not push factor. sigh…. aiya… work first… My voucher still waiting….

 I ate dinner. 😭 Aunty asked me if I want McD. I immediately shamelessly ordered…  One whole day. Looking at the nonsensical database. Managed to make one main query. Based on the data I needed, that part was missing somewhere… Then I think, it could be hard coded… Sigh… Anyway, I hate to always depends on App config. But everytime ask me to start from app config. When I go before I can change to db, it will be like that forever liao… I think the only thing I realised is app config which I seldom use at all when developing websites. Most of the time I set it in Db…  I am tired of this db. It is awful. Sigh. to change to db… plenty of stuff. Cannot expect anything actually since this was totally done without planning. It is amazing already if it runs. But, they do have to consider one thing. Right now, we only have a few datas. In the future, when data grows, what will happen. Restructuring of db is too late anyway. May God bless this db. Hope it doesn’t go heaven and mir...

 好不容易少过70的一天。69.7 kg… 我喝了一杯水后的。一杯水0.98g/cm3. Without considering temperature. Assumption: std rtp. So… 250 cm3 refers to about 0.25 kg. 69.5kg. When you try to explain your nonsense to what you want people to think. I lost the weight. It was 72 kg last week. Probably after meal, it will be back to 72. Maybe I ate 2kg of food and drinks. No dinner for me… My target is actually 55. 15kg more. It seems like a faraway place to go. 

 如果我问了你不说，就是说让我自己做决定的意思。

 Having some troubles that disturbed my planning. Spent the night figuring things out. Finally, I had the time to do what I planned to do this week. Supposed to be 3 days more… The day before yesterday, solving my laptop issues almost took the whole day although I just reported 2 hrs… sigh…. Then yesterday, got another issue to solve which brings over to today. After it was settled and I go back to what I was supposed to do… I suddenly finished it …. no way. This is too smooth something must be wrong…. Now back check if I have indeed finish. I have an idea of how I would do but sometimes, I am not really sure how I wrote some code already. I plugged in then it works…. It runs through the whole thing… Ok… Back to checking now… Before going to the next one but at least this part is done. sigh… but hopefully I can finish even earlier… still got the bank thing to test… awful. If I am there probably these thing all done in a day or two.. even faster if I have the accounts… I am in Sg. I...

 Ok. Now I became their terminal tester… I think they are also developing it recently… This might be their first combined receipt terminal. sigh… Seems like for this, it was not only new for us but for them as well. What the hell…. 

那只白马是王子 还是 王子是白马

They didn't delete the D drive but all the work was done on C drive..... That's the thing that I didn't really back up. 🛐

They didn't delete the D drive. Only C drive wiped out. 😭😭😭😭😭这是感动到哭了。

  ….. ARGH 😠 7 years old laptop… 

 They reformat my laptop. Maybe they think too many things. I only need pdf, office, svn, mouse software, visual studio. If crashed, means I install too many things. Ok. I uninstall everything, then eat pizza everyday ah. I only need a laptop that has nothing installed? or when I needed it I install. After use, delete it? then need again, install back. 10 mins passed. Acrobat Reader DC installation still in progress…. I have to reinstall everything… Last time, it took me 2-3 days for this laptop to be fully setup. Visual studio took whole night… I have my decision made… crap. It was stuck at 90% 2:30 til now stuck here. Started installation  since 2:25 pm. Now it is 2:38pm…. Living hell…  20 mins passed. I felt like an idiot. Aaaaaaaaaaaaa. Where’s my TABLE?

 I realised i needed my email for work… Now, I am going to take my laptop back. Since the ghost covid strike, I haven’t collect it back since 2 weeks ago. The most useless laptop ever. Just as I went to the lift, the little birdy dropped by! This time I managed to take a video. Too bad I missed taking the video while it was hovering….  then the butterflies on the pathway to the mrt… Fairy like.

 Do you have to care about somebody’s feeling even though they have been unkind to you? It’s been troubling me. Shall I exploded the truth and don’t care about whatever feeling or shall I just keep it as it is? being neutral when time required, then I do. If it is never required, then I shall let it go. To me. Sometimes, they are always hiding some things. Although quite common in a workplace but to me it felt very awkward or more like I was never a part from the beginning. More like I am on my own although not always. I enjoyed solitude but I do prefer honesty and things being straightforward. Why aren’t they no matter what ages we were in? I am passing that point… Either the whole industries were like that and that explains a lot. Or I am still dreaming of the non-existence environment. If once, I would let go but sometimes, letting go will give a second and never ending chance for that. It seems like it is. Do u give them warning? hm… Or just continue on with my journey? not to ...