2020

 Good customers are too good. Bad customers are just bad. Spend an extra 10 dollars on things I didn’t spend. People giving 5 cents. To me, I don’t want to take what was not mine but I don’t want to give what was mine. What’s yours is yours. Well, there are exceptional case but I really can’t draw the line properly. New experience. Life is so simple but we make it hard. While talking about rental, I checked my account to do the balancing. Certain account comes with interest monthly. I cannot close the old one because that’s where I first started out and everything is linked to it. The new ones were far better though. Dilemma. Thanks to the check, I saw a pending amount and guess what. It was facebook ad. It was something I didn’t sign up for. I seldom use facebook now. Let alone the ad. Probably because it was on my old phone. Also, I didn’t receive OTP and I didn’t received any notification like I normally did when I spent onsite or online. Guess somebody use both my card and my phone

 Tired to be who everyone wants me to be. Some say A and some day B. Today, I felt happy. I got a drink from the customer. :) Although, I don’t really liked milk tea but the gesture itself makes everything good. I drank it. It felt like all hardwork has a reward although not all the time. You always get complain but it was the person who appreciated your work that makes it all more worthwhile. It takes only one wrong to get a complain but no matter how many rights you did, nobody will rate that. It really means the most when somebody took the time to appreciate what you are trying to convey. It was like I know what you are trying to do and I appreciate that and I am telling you that. Some gave me their stamps but I hope they keep that. They are some really good customers that I didn’t want to take advantages just because they are good. We shouldn’t. At times, I felt it was all not worth it and then they showed up good. It brightened up a gloomy day.

 My aunt was the youngest sister of my dad. Actually she is the best among the relatives that we had. When my dad asked for Mopiko, she helped to ask her daughter to buy. When my dad wanted to buy things that he cannot named and she would find all possible things that might be it and even call to ask if that was what my dad wanted. We were looking for a wheelchair for my dad because it was inconvenient for him to walk around with a stick. I think it is bad for his shoulder and arms. I just called to ask if she knew anywhere we can buy. She and her daughters looked all over Miri and tell us all the possible places to buy. Anyway, most place closed for Chinese New Year so we ended up not buying. Although she talked a bit more but she is always the first to help when asked.

 People who don’t say what they mean. Different stories. If it weren’t for these cases, I hadn’t known what it will be. The truth is, I see everything. You only done your job but I have done everything before leaving. If you kept on with your grudges, it will be forever. It took two to clap. I tried to solve things. If you don’t want it and so be it. Best of both world. Time is running out. I don’t want to put all the eggs in one basket. I rather save it to somewhere I know at least it can be a better back up plan. Else, it will be like throwing everything away. Most part I was still thinking the same way. To help. Recent trip just changed everything. The weakness of family bonds. No matter what you do, if people don’t want it to stop, it will never stop. Why do something that cannot be change? If there is so much you don’t want to solve, then just split. Yet, don’t want to? What do people really want? The real problem is still hidden.  Talk about friends. I should have gone out more o

 Today, while at work, a small, old lady put a bread on the counter. It costed 1.70. She place a few coins on the counter but not added up to 1.70. I told her it was 1.70. She asked while still smiling if the price increased, and if it was wrong, since she saw the price label was 1.10. Another colleague said, it is 1.70 and definitely not 1.10. I told her it was 1.70 and she was still smiling, then took the coins she just put down away. As she turned around, I suddenly felt like crying. What should I do then? Shall I gave her the money? Shall I gave her the extra money that other people left? That doesn’t belong to me. A dozen people were lining up in the queue. I was stuck as I watched her back on her way up.  The uncle queuing behind her saw she didn’t buy and maybe overheard us and asked the aunty if she had enough money. He then turned around and asked me how much she is lacking. If not, he will pay the remaining. He asked the aunty to get the bread and just put down what she had.

 Was thinking to change myr today. As I passed by after work, it was 3.30. Decided to go withdraw first. After withdraw, saw the basement money exchanger was 1 SGD to 3.30 MYR. Since it was a same, I was a bit doubtful if I should change there or above. I got other things to shop for too. Like help to look for some pens for work, black polo tee and eggs. All at different places. Egg’s definitely last. With it hard to do things. The money exchanger was on the way back. In the end, I went to look for the pens on 3rd floor and polo on 2nd. I managed to find the pen. Didn’t manage to find my polo tee. Then, I went to the first floor towards the money exchanger. Guess what. The rate increased to 3.305… Just as I thought that it couldn’t be better. I only withdrew half the amount that I actually wanted. Good or bad, I changed. Then went all the way to withdrew the other half for exchange later. I bought the eggs first. Then on my way back exchange the other half. Good. Eggs was somehow a bit

 I guess only during my first job I have gotten out so early. Woke up at 4:30am. Actually woke up a few times because the weather is cold. Now felt like I booked the whole bus. Few people were out. Compared to long long time ago, the bus would be packed like tuna.

 I think being sales assistant gave me more time than being an engineer. I mean I have 8 hours per day. As Engineers, pay double but time also doubled. Then if I did the same, probably saved a lot. I realised, I don’t really have a real home. I checked out something about first home, can get instalment plan with 35 years and then at the end of the instalment I should not be more than 70. I added mine. I will be 71 by the end of it. Even normal people already have one before 35. I realised, why put others first when they will be the first to put you last. 

 Today onwards, doing things for myself only. Why give money to people? then get talked about? hm. Now, pay for what you truly said you do. If don’t have money, don’t have so many kids. If people can say these, need to do the same too. Earn your own. If your kids, should give you money, I gave too early. I am getting back the 10 years that I should have get the money instead of giving. If not given enough, ask some others if they gave you money without asking it back. Why help strangers actually and with someone spreading news so often just to put you in different lights?  Now saving for my own home. I don’t have kids. To live a good life without kids. So, why shall I gave up that freedom for strangers kids. 什么都没做。要做就利用我。利用完了就乱说。

 Lost count of how many days I have worked. Most memorable is my fourth day there. 1 customer paid by all 2 dollars note for 70+ dollars. 1 customer paid by 5 dollars and 2 dollars note for hundreds. On some other day, got people pay me with all coins… I thought there is a maximum that people cannot use. Hm…  On my way to work now. Just write something while I have the time. Somehow, if this will be my retirement job, not bad. Saving up for a house. If you want to spend money, earn it. Will it be too late to get a finance and accounting degree or whatever? It was in my least of interest since young. Worry if I cannot finish even if I want. I have only attended accounting class for 2 weeks in secondary school. That is like 2 - 4 hours. Then I changed class to study add math. 1 semester of Engineering Economics during Uni. That was all… I wonder what people in finance or accounting or economics needed to study.

 I wanted to cook instant ramen. At the same time, I wanted to watch Wakanda Forever, so I watched it while I was waiting for the water to boil before putting in the noodle. I walked back in to check if the water is boiling and it wasn’t. I walked back out to continue watching TV. After like 5 minutes, I walked back in. The water still not boiling. Guess what? I forgot to turn the fire on. I put the water, turned on the fume hood and walked away… Sadded. While working as a cashier, I think it was pretty overwhelming. There were whole bunch of things that I didn’t know. Like types of credit cards or in general, types of cards available in this world that were beyond my touch. I don’t drive in Sg. I have seen credit cards made of metal. Wahhhhh… Would that be better to recycle? Guess so. Not only that. You have all sorts of customers… I am dying. Some totally don’t care and as long as payment go through, then I bought my things, then totally ok. Then I did a lot of wrong stuff with nets