2020

今看一个都是坑的email, 害我错过站。还两次。。。Harbourfront to Dhoby Ghaut, I missed. Switched at Little India. Little India to Dhoby Ghaut, missed again. I ended up at Chinatown. Then switch and finally I reached Dhoby Ghaut. I was reading this email that is full of clauses that no matter how many times I read, I just don't understand... hm... 我有一种冲动想甘愿不拿薪水了。要明白这个鬼email,让我饿死算了。好麻烦。

While I am wide awake, I opened up the code that I have been working on for a bit over a month to check something..... Just now, it's all red..... Next week, I am going to deploy it soon. That's terrifying until the red lines all gone... phew... it just took the program a while to load. I was blank for a while too at that moment thinking this is the end of my career as software engineer after a month and a half of being one... I wonder if I am good or bad actually on this new job. It feels unreal til this day.  I kept dreaming of lions and tigers coming into my old house at Miri and the locks or doors or gate were loose and I am not able to get them close, worry they attack anytime soon. Otherwise, it will be a big blue sky with either a moon that's very very big, or a night full of stars or seeing somebody flying in the sky with big wings or parachuting, or the sun set. But, whenever I tried to take a picture, my phone wouldn't work. The camera won't work at all. S

陪我度过风风雨雨的卡。什么时候都在。好像是红卡到蓝卡才到金卡。积分换了一个drone和polaroid。可是要送人了。以后就剩电脑陪我。让它飞吧。在我的橱里太孤单。

早上出门，楼下坐着一个妈妈，孩子在玩，爸爸蹲在地上在羽球场的椅子上写作业。  我以前经常被罚，我想应该是我的爸爸不够努力帮我写作业。🤣

有的时候觉得已经理解了。可是每个人的理解范围不同。你的理解可能跟我的完全不一样可是听起来是一样的。把事情做好最重要。其他的我没办法。 前天太冷了。 我不觉得只有21度。感觉18。三更半夜被冷醒。不过不想起来。后来还是太冷了就多穿一件调tee。结果还是很冷。根本睡不好。昨天，我穿了一件Tee然后一件冷衣还有袜子才觉得刚刚好。今天一样冷冷的。还有一些事，还淋雨了。这几天mrt坐我旁边的一直咳嗽。我就一直鼻子敏感。每天三个小时。如果鼻子敏感又咳嗽，就会很可疑。淋雨了如果生病发烧不是更可疑吗。保佑我别给我这个麻烦。

很多时候我听过的歌和电视剧或电影有关。可是我大部分都没有看过。我是先听歌才看电视剧。有些是看了电视剧才听的，不过很少。来自以前听收音机的人。也不是能常听。想听的歌有时候也听不到。我买过的专辑也都不知道去哪里了。被人砸了，被人丢了。很多东西包括人是带不走的，也很容易失去。只有在心里的才是你的。留下的东西不多。我想如果哪一天要走了，我觉得是一种快乐和终于可以解脱的世界。只是是什么时候呢？如果人能像游戏一样有从来的机会，那会有多好。可是那是以前想的。现在的我只希望从来都没有。没有开始就不需要想从来。我想看透的人已经不在这个世上了吧。

I am always caught in a situation which i do not desire. run also cannot, stop also cannot, walk also cannot.... can i fly 🕊️🕊️🕊️ nope

有时候最难过的关是自己那一关。火锅是吃到了。体重怎么办。那就随便吧。现在吃多点沙拉。希望没有选错字。沙拉因该就是沙拉不是莎拉。要不然就salah。沙拉为什么那么贵。菜比肉还有饭贵。

I woke up real late. I think almost every year, I never woke up early to greet the new day but I went to sleep around 4 something so I did greet the year earlier.  Started off with laze around. Eat. Play games. Vote for my favourite artist. On my computer but never get anything done. It rained today and still raining now. The weather is just so cooling that I feel too relax to do anything. I got to open up my sis's computer to take out the swollen battery. That's the second laptop I ever open and it is on the first day of the year. After the accomplishment from last day of last year for the first laptop I ever open, I felt some achievement. Something is being done at least. Maybe I should have done this long long time ago. The feeling of doing it really makes my day. The feeling of coding really gives me that sense too. Why have I never felt this way. The feeling of letting go and embrace the things that is coming my way. The feeling of not having to care what I have to face ev

I decided to fix my laptop battery on the last day of the year. We want to eat steamboat for lunch to celebrate the new year but the queue was long. We ended up eating phostreet and 记得吃。 As I can't take leave to fix my laptop, I bought an electric screwdriver, extractor and drill bit, torque screwdriver, screw kit and battery. I received all of them last month and never had the time until tonight. Guess what, it doesn't work. The dead stripped screw still won't budge a bit. I borrowed an electric battery powered drill to drill the screw to make way for the extractor. Well, for both, the screw material is not hard enough to grip and gave way all the time, instead of unscrewing. I have been on it for 3 hours plus. I decided to force it open, that is no matter what, I need to change it. That one screw, even after I forced open the back cover then use plier to try to unscrew it, it won't budge at all! Then, the head of the screw came off after all the twisted and drilling..