2020

 I brought my nephews to walk around NTU and also IMM to buy shoes and pants. Older nephew always reminded the younger brother on certain things so they don’t really express what they want but go along with whatever we did. They are pretty mature in these kind of things which I don’t think I have when I was their age. However, the older one did buy the shoes that he has been looking for. He can save money but would spent more on the things he liked. It was like he went in and found the shoes straightaway and asked for the size. We waited quite sometimes but the guy never showed up. I really thought the shoes got sold out. The younger brother felt very bored though. Actually, more like I used to. So, I asked him to go find what he wanted. After a while he came back and said there is nothing he wanted. When we all said we will be looking together, only then he decided to look around. I think most of the time the mum bought for them. I never buy with them before and both were no longer ki

 Today, me and my sis babysit our nephews. My bro has been sick so we brought them out to Cow Play Cow Moo. They are good at what they are doing. haha. Scored points  that I cannot score. After we were done, we have to exchange points for stuff cause I wanted to spent it away and probably stop going. I got 32k points from all the cards I collected from the games played. Half of them were expired and no longer able to change…  At the end of the day, 40 dollars. Our total sum is 36599. meaning we score about 4k tickets. I asked them to select gifts within that range. My older nephew 18 this year which we all suspect got gf or maybe confirm got gf already. He found what he wanted to exchange faster. To my surprise, he picked a princess figurine… I thought cars… or some other thing. Haha. Confirm got gf. Absolutely meant for gf. haha. Meanwhile, the 14 year old nephew scooped up a handful of sweets. hahahaha. Confirm no gf yet. He is still the same as he was at 2 years old. He loved sweets

 I hope that’s real click. The mixed feelings of people clicking on my art or more like my humour art felt great. I do wonder if it’s a good thing. Because they click but didn’t buy. Yet, the clicks made me felt good a bit after finally putting action to my first shop.  I registered my business name the day before. 23rd Dec 2022. I register because it’s required even though I am just trying out. Well, I think the name I put is a bit off since it was meant for a test that instead of instantly approve, I was forwarded to Name Referral…. Another thing is about tax which I am still trying to read and understand. My commerce scored zero. Hopefully nobody buys them before it got approved. Might as well be 2023 as I have put so in my Logo. I didn’t use my name and so need to register business name if I am not using my real name. 1 man shop.

  Christmas eve and I guess really saved a lot. Bread and tomato sauce coincides. Both expired today so finishing them. Egg and ham ok. Aunty and Uncle went to church tonight. The best food actually. I guess we have always eat too expensive.

 I was thinking if it was worth it for me to buy Microsoft office for another year. I barely use them. Today, I made I think it was the right decision. Saved me a couple of buck when the feature was there for me to use since like long long time ago. I almost have to purchase adobe photoshop and while adobe photoshop express free edition failed to do the task. Right back then, thank to my old hardworking self that I have explored enough of Microsoft Excel that I recalled the feature that existed long before my working days. Well, since it wasn’t free, guess most creative people just use adobe or other creative tools.  I have to give credits to Microsoft on this point. Another thing. Before photoshop, we used Microsoft Office and Paint to do prototypes. More like for creative works.

 Was trying to think things through. I hate applying for jobs like many people do. Yet, I also hate working culture. Before you enter that culture, you liked the job. After getting the job, you gradually hated your job. Right now, I have no portfolios apart from those bootcamp stuff. I think I won’t be able to share work related projects since it is under NDA. I don’t really have lots of coding background. Fit into cultures when all I care was code. Reading about the job description and the processes actually reminded me of me being in that kind of condition again. That just sounded so much like it. Why people wouldn’t want or why people would want to. I don’t think it is totally management. More like tradition. A kind a toxic tradition. Baseless tradition. Hand me down tradition. Not my fault tradition. Oops tradition. Lazy tradition. Many more if you named them. If everything never changed, meaning, everything that was done to prevent that never turned out to be fruitful. I am not cl

 After trying out some online stores, hm… I think things has been getting more and more advance… outside our country but not sure about how well did our country did. Last I know, it was already good. Probably improved a lot by being 3 years out of it.

 A person who is not willing to confront another person directly is afraid of the other person speaking the truth. A person who think the well being of others is a threat to themselves. Yet, these people just go on.  Best job in the world is probably scammer. I have seen lots of effort asking people and teaching people not to get scammed yet people are still getting scammed. None of the scammers were ever caught. All bank transactions cannot be checked or trace… Even after trace, like paypal, actually saw the proof the seller (scammer) gave. Then proceed as not a scam. Maybe there are more hidden ones. Each easily few thousands. Best job ever. While people have to do so much for their apps and scam awareness and with just one enhancement, scammers get away again. Just like robbing and stealing something from a shop in broad daylight and walk right out with open doors. Then the shopkeeper added cctv, added locks and added security guard. Let other shopkeeper know and did the same. The s

 I have my second booster Pfizer bivalent yesterday morning. It was around 10:00 am.  My number was behind my sister but I got my jab first. I think only allergies on my medical history. In the end, I finished first. The jab wasn’t as painful as the last 3 vaccination. Only this time, I felt the effect. I was well whole morning. Went with my sis and aunty to buy stuff at the supermarket. Got home. Played a few games and did some work. Around 9:30pm, my sis said she felt cold and before that already dizzy. I don’t feel anything that time yet except for the part where they jab, can feel the muscle ache. Still bearable though. I did too much fitness boxing few days ago so my muscles were aching since then. Cannot tell whether it’s the jab or the boxing that caused them.  Then around 10 pm I started to feel sleepy. Then I woke up and saw egg tarts and hotdog bread in the form of pizza. I grabbed 1 tart and 1 piece of bread. I didn’t take any panadol. Then quickly brush my teeth. Chat with

 Tradition. The IT Crowd was actually a fun to watch. Why didn’t I know about this show before. The main theme of the first few episodes. Have you restart your machine? Is the switch on? hahaha That was my star questions! A good start of me being in IT roles. Back then there was not many handphones around. Email worked faster than a telephone call to put out a fire. When I pictured these things back then, sounds kind of familiar. But, back then, we did memorise the phone number of every single person that we know. If not, they are just a phone book away. All these had gone away when we started using handphone. I was in the Uni and needs my somebody to pick me up. I hadn’t have my driving license yet. My phone battery died. Charger at home. Nokia handphone… Most helpless thing on earth and there were nobody too. Quite late in the evening after a project meet up. I went to the cafeteria and saw the public phone. Need coins. Finally gathered enough, but I don’t remember the hp number and

 Provisioning is a word that has gone through a lot. Evolution.  Provide. Provision. Provisioning. Hahahaha. Why can’t I just use Providing? After going through the course material about IT stuffs, guess it was really just the way it was supposed to be. I mean all the stuff we complained about was actually industries practice but not sure if industry practice has categories for different industries. One thing they did mentioned. Old computers are recycled. Not the recycle to another person. It’s the recycle bin. Why people before that bought a new one? The sarcastic laugh but not out loud expression when talking about the organization is not going to keep a 10 year old computer, just soothe my feelings. Anyway, the reason could be that I was only temporary in the first place. Well, the more I get to know, the more I saw the dark side. ⚽️ Sorry for blaming the IT guys who really did their job according to the industry standards. We should actually complain about the person who wrote the

 I was in a state of panic when I accidentally pressed ssms icon which is right beside my folder. In my mind, o, wrong one and I am going to suffer. Then I realised I wasn’t using that work laptop, and was relieved to see the program running and let me close it. All flowing smoothly in just less than a few seconds. 

 Everytime a victim showed up, there is always no way to catch the bad guys or got them guilty. The cops and courts cannot do anything one. Yet, everytime, when the bad guys get killed, the case would become very serious and finding the people who is killing the bad guy. You just don’t see the same efforts given to the actual victim. A serious investigation to make sure the person who killed bad guys get jailed… WHY??? Does all shows reflected this scenario in real life. The bad guys got away and only if you want to catch them or not. Why big crime was so hard to catch but smaller crime get big attentions? Are we protecting the good people or bad ones? Anyway, maybe for the sake of the show… But knowing some bad guys existed in real life, I cannot help praise the writer or director for depicting close to reality persona. No exaggeration. I did rolled my eyes when the nutcracker soldier opened the bridge gate.

 Remember what made Sg successful. Use it in real application. Higher possibility of success? 1. Anti-corruption - human by all means corrupt in certain ways. With corruption, everyone suffers. Poor education, poor living conditions, and poor health. 2. Education - instil knowledge. To bring a swarm of armies who contributed to make a thriving atmosphere. A thought of their own. Wisdom.  3. Diversity - it is a double edged sword. Why did it occured in the first place? Would it be better without? This is the balancing part. 4. Empathy - Without that, nobody cares if you lived in a drain or under a bridge. Nobody would care if you are in danger. Nobody would care if you are poorly educated. 5. Security - A place of living without security. All would be robbed away. All would make the place a living hell for each other. There is no peace. 6. Healthcare - If ever you need to visit, you wished to be in safe hands. 7. Hardworking - If everyone gives it all to make this a better place, it wou

 After I was done with 3x3 Magic Cube. Aunty took out uncle’s 5x5 Magic Cube. hahaha

 One friend gifted a cup, then I opened up the other gift, I got a coaster. Hahahahaha. I was wondering if they have planned them but doesn’t seem like so. If there is a teaspoon from the other friend, it’s the perfect set! It is actually perfect. Ate the blueberry Christmas bun as dessert. Coffee and dessert. Me buying candle… and hand sanitiser. Light the candle and sanitise hand and then eat. Romantic and clean. Good combination. 

  I have not solved one in my life. Finally, today, I solved 1 following youtube videos… Phew… Do I want to do it again. Hm… Should I? My mum used to try to solve it while looking after the shop. We used to have 1. It went unsolved for quite some time. Maybe years. I have no memory of mum ever solving it but close. Those time, we never have youtube yet.

 I lost 4-5 kgs after quitting my job for a week. From 74-75 kg, for the past few days, I weighed myself and the lowest was 69.8 and highest was 71.2. hm.. what does that say?

 Hm… Done shredding my papers. Good that I bought the manual shredder from Muji. Makes the process faster compared to my last job which took about a week or two and wasn’t even done. I have to gradually shred them. Of course, the one in the office got shredding machine so that sped up a lot at work. Now, left with my books. Rearrange my cabinet and finally, my tables. Have to find time go Cow Play Cow Moo or Timezone to exchange cards for points. The ones that I collected, I guess it was no longer that important to me. Hm… It does but all things in the world will come to pass that there are no more space for the past. I have to make way for what is coming next. I will not apply for a job but hoping to work more on a project that has been on my mind for so long. Then if startup is where I will need to start to do things that I long wanted to do probably start now because I am no longer young. Hope in 1 year time, I can make something fruitful. Before I get busy like a maniac, spent some

 Yesterday’s night Uncle broke a glass cover. I helped clean up and Aunty said she cook beef stew for me (for all) because I helped clean up. Hahaha. Then maybe next Saturday ask Uncle to break another one. I can have beef stew again. hehehehe

 So last day wasn’t as scary. Hehehe. I dare not say goodbye to my big big boss so I quickly run away after passing my pass to our admin. Phew… When exiting, I met another person who also doing exit clearance. We were looking for the security guard. There are 3 possible locations and the hunt for her ended at the 3rd location which is the last location. hehehehehe. I got a treat at Saizeriya today. Night time my sis wanted to eat Saizeriya too hahahaha. Then long queue so we ended up eating Takagi Ramen. Devil lips ramen… I cannot finish that. Super spicy…. 

 Almost become a thief this morning. I walked in to 7-11. Thought to grab something fast for snack to put on the table. I only saw nuts. Not many things to buy. My hand already have a plastic bag to bring the choc my sis helped me bought to bring to work. Supposed to go out with her but something came up. I subconsciously put the nuts into the plastic bag. Then browse the shelves to see what other things to buy. After a few second, I realised, I haven’t pay for it that it should not be mixed with the things in my plastic bag… wahhhhhh. Good that I realised that before going out else, I robbed 7-11 in broad daylight. On the way out, I did see more chocs. 

 Last trip going to work. At least, it is almost proper this time. Probably things done wrong or things done right have its own course. The finale is here. 

 With time, everything shall be forgotten. People just told me to let go. Ya, I did. The trouble only comes after I let go. Maybe it was just me. Anyway… Just printed my timesheet, delete almost the whole world from the laptop… No going back to the old code so actually deleting stuff doesn’t affect me but the people who need to refer to it later on. After done, by right shouldn’t even need it but the changes was so frequent, I guess they will need. Well, at least latest version was given. The one before the changes were checked in before any change. However, bugs found after the change won’t be there so… hm… It’s a headache. I don’t want to see the code. It is agonising to see them. I didn’t even check what happened to the last code I wrote.  I forgot to charge my phone… So now have to charge it a bit before I sleep. Blog a bit. Anger clear off but then I dunno what else can I do. Sigh… However, after deleting the code, it feels like clearing the clouds above my head. Weekends need to

 Slow… remembered something… then all my plan shifted…

 I realised I was the one who wrote the email. ahahaha. but nobody give a shit earlier on. :(

 Still got 3 hrs to eat this… It is 9pm now. Expiry today, tmr cannot eat… Just had my shower… My dinner. Let me have coffee with it. Suppose to have it for breakfast but did not. Before I go for my last few sprint of work.

 People are showing where they have travelled. I am showing where they have travelled… 👩🏻‍💻 🐼 I have changed my flight back to Brunei to an earlier date.  When I first book earlier this year, it was less than 500. Now the price has gone up to about 750. Have to top up about 350 for the change… That was like another round trip. Since last minute, round trips was between 700-1000 for December and around January. Some days no flight. Glad that I can still change. Next is to worry about where to sleep when I am back. hahaha.  Rushing to finish up the things I have for now. Almost got it cleared… Now left svn to conquer and some copy paste things…. Argh…. I lost track of time. I thought today is Saturday… 😭 It’s Sunday…. Good times gone fast.

 I don’t want to do work but I have work to do… 

 Before I go conquering the lousy laptop, I will have to eat breakfast. Done putting the clothes into the washing machine. Turn on laptop. Let it be, let it run. 3 more days. Hope I don’t even have to use it on the 4th day. But will turn it on just in case. Monday was the day of the test. This one more critical actually…. because it’s on the road…. in the middle of nowhere…. sigh… 

 It was so cloudy. Everytime, it’s either raining or no sun at all. If I am a guy, probably I have never seen this message before. Hahahahaha. I do know guys who do laundry. Hope you are not offended. Only to those who don’t. A picture speaks a thousand words. Different people different meaning too. Did I took this picture anytime but not today? Did I photoshopped it? Was the whole sky filled with clouds? Nope. I just took the cloudy part. Aunty can be a great supervisor. Well-organised shelves and fridge. Close to zero expiry products can be found in it (that’s what she always ensure and that’s totally opposite from my mum, hahaha - most things are expired when you want to eat). She is 74. My mum is 73. They both can use handphone to whatsapp and take pictures. She can send pictures through whatsapp too. Yesterday she paused the show she was watching to make sure I go throw the rubbish. Wait for me to come back before locking the door. When I came back, the tv somehow at a different s

 If there is another universe, and the opposite was happening. There is no in between. I am not the one stuck with this laptop. Nope. I think there is more to things. Is it self destruction? Nah… 

 Sigh. For all the extra time I spent on this laptop, I realised I am not willing to spend more time on it. For all the things I skipped and I shouldn’t skip anymore. I think done this and that, is more than enough for what has been going on. I knew about the laptop and the subsequent events. 一开始的事。 Now, just this last piece to figure out. The slower it gets, the worst things become. The less I want to do. I won’t leave a bad review for whatever it was but I want to leave a memory of it on my blog.  All I can do is fix as much as possible and to transfer everything to someone else. At least, less bug for them to fix. The rest, it is what it is as with the tools and information provided. I gave more details too. 我的人就做到这样了。Credit also given so you can do whatever you want also. I will take back my extra weekends and nights spent. The most I can do is go there when there is problem. Otherwise, I will be continuing my studies which I skipped for the past month to rush things out. I just sa

 Now I see you is more scary or Now you see me. 

 The more mistake… After I thought I solved the problem, well another pop up…. 😭

 Super Duper. Once upon a time, I always said super duper good. Actually, it could mean not good at all if you lookup for the meaning of Duper. 

 I don’t remember when was the last time I slept for only 2 hours. I think it was last year. I can’t actually sleep when I went to bed but fell asleep in the train. I think my tummy prevented me from having a good sleep. It felt like a foreign object. Maybe will take the time to cut down my weight else everytime Dad called, he will have to ask me to cut down my weight. 

 Honesty is what I treasure. That’s why, even if I don’t enjoy doing the task, I agreed to do it. I knew what they were doing. Just take it as my gift of going. I realised, there are actually things that I am good at. That will be my focus now. At least I am not the one talking. If not now, when? If God is watching, He shall be the Judge of all, it was never my turn for that. I am not watching because it is really none of my business. Journey next will be tougher or maybe more interesting. There is a time for everything. Where everything will go? hm… 

 Process A took 10s Process B took 1s Process C took 100s We have 2 mins which is 120s to complete all the processes. We gave 100s to Process A Gave 20s to Process B Gave 0s to Process C The irony was, without Process C, other processes were redundant.  Hahahahaha Can you make a cake without any ingredients? You can prepare all the tools. But the main ingredients were the essence of the process. Without proper tools, probably you can still make it. 100s to buy the ingredients, 20s to prepare the tools. 0s for the cake. If you need to cry, can start now. This is where the song came in. You can add in some musical instruments here too. You looked up into the sky and sang. Imagine there’s no heaven. It’s easy if you try. No hell below us. Above us only sky. The end.

 I thought I solved the question fast. The fast here means the solution runs faster. Actually, there is a solution out there that is a tiny bit much faster and cleaner. So not satisfying. Secret of success. Secret to success. It is a secret. If you knew it, it wasn’t a secret anymore. It is a lie. 🐲

 While on the way back from Orchard, after having a brunch there for Uncle’s birthday, when it was almost our stop, Aunty and Uncle awaken from their nap. Yes. Nap on the train. Aunty asked Uncle if she snored just now. Uncle said yes and very loud like Orrrhhh Orhhhhh. Hahaha. I didn’t hear a thing.

 Breaking news. The news is breaking. We need to fix it….

 Barely 😴 last night. When I reached home, I took out my pen to open the door. hmm… drunk I remember an instance when we were going out one morning to shopping. While waiting for bus, we saw an Uncle lying on the floor beside a tree. With blood flowing out of his mouth and on the floor. We all thought he vomited blood but actually it was red wine. Quickly, many people come and help. A funny incident. hehehe. Uncle was fine. He was drunk and woke up after a guy sat him up from the floor trying to wake him.  If that was me, probably real blood. 

 The memory for this program was far too long ago…. Anyway. Crappy.

 My program needed sometimes to load so I am blogging. Blog about what? hm… Almost 1 more week!!!! Time flies so slow. 

 今天突然想起以前买的茶杯。是真的泡茶的茶杯。因为想换去喝茶。不喝咖啡。买了一堆茶叶还有专门泡茶的茶杯。我买了两个加起来80块。一个可以放在办公室。一个在家。结果当天拿回家的时候，应为有包装bubble wrap。 所以杯底不平。拿出来放桌上时然后松开了手要拿第二个杯的时候，就在我还没来得及反应，第一个杯就掉到地上了。这时你听见我心碎的声音吗？还是新的。一天都没用。。。后来就再也不买太贵的杯了。另一个就用到现在。阿姨说那是80块的杯的时候，我的心又碎一次。然后我就会回答是40块。阿姨只记得80块。东西超过100块我就会嫌贵了。除非有免费的礼物。:)

  Today, Aunty cooked beef potato curry. Just now I walked home. Around the same time where I passed a block, somebody was practicing violin. Some weekends morning, I can hear people practicing piano. Then there is a ringing sound sometimes coming from downstairs which I used to think was the ice cream seller. In the end, one day I passed a block and on the 3rd floor, I saw a lady holding a bell and keep on ringing it. hahahahah. so it wasn’t ice cream in the first place. 

Maybe that is why I never get first prize. If I got it then I can mc 1 wk. Then last week working… I will only have to go 3 days. hehehehe.  Uncle and Aunty went to buy the new expensive guitar. It was so smooth and light! But I actually liked the sound of his 80 dollar guitar which he modified himself. Uncle can play by ear but I can only play by looking at guitar tab.    I got things to do so I cannot play along for too long. Sigh.

 I really hate the Timer…. Sigh…

 Algorithm and data structure would be useful with big data. I somehow understand why now. sigh…. Counting down. I don’t know how many days left because it will be here soon. For now, I have made the right decision. Being here is the left decision. Things will be as it is as if I was never here.

 hahaha. Felt like the bowling bowl going down the drain. Much worst than I have done previously. Do people get better at algorithm and data structure after working for 2 years. I wonder in real life, do we ever use them. Especially for higher level programming language. Although I would enjoy solving problems but hm I think I needed a refresher time with Go. Next is cloud. As for algorithm and data structure maybe will keep it as a hobby. It somehow let me think more than I usually did. 😋The mascot is a Gopher. Lots for me to catch up.

 More hidden things revealed. I realised it was really foolish of me… 

 If after two years and I am still not good enough. It is considered a bad thing… I have try to start my engine with Go. The convenience of the code is a little bit too uncommon for me but I think I will work more with it. Well, too many things but just to say. Thinking back, there is really nothing. Too many things that you cannot put into words and that feels like nothing but it is everything. Gibberish. So, I shall move forward.

 It was quite often that I saw people using Window+R then cmd to open cmd prompt. Actually just Window, cmd will do. Using the search function. Comparing, I don’t have to type R right. So 1 btn less. What was the motive behind? hmmm… 

 I prefer Go over Python. Go logo is cuter. Python is a reptile. It means you will definitely survive with Go :)

 I am beginning to think all those time, my questions or answers never even reach the intended person or C  previously.  or the answer doesn’t match.

 The pieces that were not given. The pieces have been taken. The pieces that were not found. The pieces were everywhere. I picked them up and there it was. I have already made up my mind that week. Was feeling bad because I turned down the interview earlier on last minute few months ago and wasn’t having high hope this time. In the end I extended my contract too since it is there and I don’t have to go through all the interview again. Side thoughts. If we picked up the harder way probably we will get better things that were far beyond. The truth is I wasn’t sure if I should leave yet the answer was perfectly clear. That day was just the decision day and just right after I said I will submit my resignation, I received the invitation. It is AI coincidence or the normal ones. Hm. I really hate to leave things unfinished but it became like hellish. Anyway, there are always things that cannot be resolved, hence, that is why there are people who will divorce each other. They may find another

 The Hello World has become a GoodBye World for me. Sigh… 

 Engineer - the one who work while everyone is working. The one who also work while everyone is not working. 

 Last Sunday, Aunty and Uncle came back from Church. They started singing at home that night. Uncle played the guitar. Aunty practiced singing the song. At times Uncle would give suggestions and then Aunty would try to follow and then finally ignored the suggestions. Hahaha. I was ironing my clothes so I just laugh quietly at them. Some songs I have never heard before. There is this one song they sang so nicely together. I wanted to record it down but when I get to the room and took my phone out, they have done singing that song. Well, I did took the next song and still nice. It is hard to find even a friend to do so but they have each other til old age and have a common interest. It just felt like a wonderful moment for me to be in that kind of atmosphere. No matter how bad the day was, a song can change everything. I just enjoyed ironing while listening.

 Yes. 

 Lets put away everything. I needed to start focusing on what I have to do now.. Right now is to do as much as I can to get out of the tunnel. I think slow laptop will kill brain cells. Maybe that was the cause of the dizziness all along.

 Hm. In the end, as aspected. Soon, I will be gone. Be careful of traps by the unbeknownst. You will always meet someone in your life that will change your view. That the view here was grey. The series of unfortunate events. The World Is Quiet Here. In real. As always, left out part that is crucial. 

 Character matters. 

 Found some instant noodle. Dried Kimchi Ramen. Already ate it for dinner 3 days straight. This is even better because of real kimchi… Hope my hair not going to drop more…  It has real kimchi in it. These few days I have been really drowsy. Even felt dizzy while lying down. It has been a while since I last had this. Hm… Slept til 9 am and while watching tv, it made me felt sleepy. Went back to sleep after lunch… Woke up around 3.30 pm cause of my laundry was outside and it is going to rain. I have to take it in. Join sis watch another Korean show on tv… Then dinner… I was thinking if I should work today.  I broke the rib that hold the nose pad of my glass. Haven’t got time to get it fixed. The quick fix is using a blue tack that is white colour. Today tried using the glue that I got to fix my phone to see if that will hold it down. If really cannot, then have to find time to go to the shop to get new frame. Waste of time but no choice. 

 I think my nose wants to be home. While at home, a lady rang our doorbell and said our house was selected for some questionnaires. In the end, I got a 20 dollars ntuc voucher for answering the questions. At first a bit skeptical because out of nowhere. Only 2 out of a block were selected randomly but I think also because we were the one opening the door. Aunty and Uncle went out to look for a guitar. Only me at home. Maybe my nose was predicting the future. I smelled money maybe.  Under table cycling. Can do work and cycle at the same time. With the fan, feels like I am really cycling.

 I was ok. Then I started having runny nose out of nowhere. Normally I would still work until my nose feels ok. Someday it is more sensitive. I better go wfh else I ended up being a disease spreader or see the doc if I am still sneezing la so I can get mc and not having to work. No such luck. The runny nose subsided as I reached home. Do an ART. Negative. Best is to have so if this is considered 1 month notice, I don’t have to go to work for 5 days? or 7 days… Nobody bothered about it anymore anyway. I just want to quickly end this… Question. If today I sneezed but next day ok. Do I still go out even after I tested negative? or stay home wait till I get positive? What if I started sneezing again? With or without sneezing, I tested negative. Maybe I should find more test kits until I found the one giving me positive but it doesn’t matter right? most important is the result given by the certified clinic. Right now I have three different ones. 2 already gave me negative. Maybe I will try

 Right now is to stay away. Just so if people pull stunt. Dunno what they will do. The only thing is to get far far away. 

 昨天梦到了地理考试。梦见自己醒来了可是发现题目一体也没有写。而且时间都快到了。考场又像我以前的小学课室。可是我坐在的不是学校的桌椅。是我现在睡的床。看着时间就要到了。我赶快的写。可是时间总比我走得快。老师就要来收了。然后还没有考完， 我开始玩游戏。那是其中考题之一。是几十颗很大很大的糖果，软糖和巧克力。手上也有，要将手上的糖果丢出去然后将前面的形成一行就会有分数。我就一直玩然后就醒了。

 Even resignation also need so much effort.

 再好的戏都会有结局。谜题解开了发现的是什么？怀疑了很久，一件件的拆开，可能不会喜欢可是至少要知道凶手是谁。也不奇怪是谁。 还是辞职了。有点想明天直接不用上班。其实早在第一个项目就该辞职了。原本想说又一个两年。还差十天打破了魔咒。两年我想是一个魔咒。就算没有离开，公司换名字。要不然就做不了两年。 不过其实是我突然有好多事想去做。命就一条。要浪费也是应该让我自己去浪费吧。大家也可以安心的度过。如果可以可能回家一趟。最开心的是一个月后就再也看不到关于这份工作的事了。I can finally say goodbye to the laptop. :) 毕竟是它给了我勇气给了我生气推了我最后一把。刚好又是这个程序。要不然不会拖到今天。拖拖拉拉，想走又不是，不走又不是。都是天注定的吧。刚好所有的一切都发生在今天。Maybe it was a sign from God and I took the rope.  This morning, just trying to connect vpn already restart my laptop once. Then build the application. It died three times. Closed all the logs I was referring to. The build failed a few times until the only application running was the two apps. It became ok. I looked at the time, it was almost 11am… That’s when I realised nothing useful have been done for the past 2 hours. Shall I kept on wasting time or shall I just move on to do the things I wanted to do. It could be far better than waiting and debugging an app to run. I missed out a lot. I think I better quit to catch up on what I wa

 但是忙不起来。想现在就放弃了。我打开了电脑。打开VS。等它开好我已经累了。然后想log一些东西。本来是今天要log好。结果。。。已经快10点了。一个build就跑了3-5分钟。在build另一个，应为太久了还有我肚子痛就跑厕所。回来后不但没有build好，反而还被自动停止。Sigh。一直想看的log，好像需要10 年一样。我累了。就把电脑关了。都快11点了。什么也没做。。。 早知道直接睡还更好。😶

 Don’t make noise. Don’t communicate was the correct way. Just leave everything as it was and probably it will be better. At least don’t let the improvement make matter worst. Shouldn’t have done the first project or the eventual ones. Actually I dug my own grave to begin with. 😮‍💨 Time wasted… Were all software fields like this? hm… or just here… I think I understand why people leave without negotiation because if it can be solved, it would be a long long time ago right? 😮‍💨 How do we judge doing more or doing less? 😮‍💨 Finally I managed to get a good response… Score 1 point today for this one. Do walk in front of me. I may need a guide. Do walk behind me. I may need a support. Do walk beside me. Just be my friend. A twist. Sometimes, we may know more, we lead. Sometimes, we may know less, we follow. Sometimes, we needed not just these. We needed someone who would understand. At times, we have none of this and you have to split personalities.

Here is MacBook screenshot shortcut keys. Here is Logitech G604 shortcut keys setting. Top buttons: Copy, Paste, Next Tab. Bottom buttons: Screenshot full, Screenshot selected area, Spotlight. There are two more buttons which I would set for Windows: Task Manager (To kill task) and Show Desktop.   The ergonomic mouse that I have do not have these buttons (only two extras so I go for Copy and Paste).   Perks: No need to remember any shortcuts for different OS and let my left thumb do some work.   I tried not to put destructive functions like cut or delete because I might suddenly delete a file too easily. Another is not to set different function for different OS. You might not remember what you have set. Standardisation is the way.  Different people worked different way with their computers, I think can set it to functions that you used more often. Like start command line, open new folder, open new tab (Google stuff) and so on. I lazy open Windows to show their shortcut keys and

Practice making the perfect mistake. :) I can't learn all the shortcut keys but if anyone wants, actually we can extend our keyboard buttons. That with just one click we can do all the common shortcuts that we want. For instance, instead of using Ctrl-C and Ctrl-V, I replaced it with the 2 buttons on my mouse. Ctrl on windows and Cmd on MacBook. The keys were not always in the same place which I have a hard time because my Ctrl key was the second key from the left on my company laptop but the first on my own laptop while MacBook was the fourth from the left. When I pressed the wrong key was the worst and do the wrong action was the worst. The mouse was the best. My other mouse have 6 programmable buttons. Everything is 1 click away. So it is good to consider the mouse. If the mouse won't work, then find the extendable keys. Just a few extra buttons from the current keyboards but I haven't bought it yet. :) Right now I have no extra space but I don't really need it for

Aunty would cook special dinner and she would do after she asked if I would ot or not. Today's Wintermelon soup with dumpling. One of the lucky day to get to eat. Anyway, I would ot at home. After the meal, hope I won't be so drowsy while doing. I am behind my plan... Was suppose to take some coding course after the IT but these two weeks were totally jumbled up... I have to do full during weekends to catch up last week....

I just remember an instance while queuing at 7-11. The queue was long. While nearing the cashier, a guy entered through the door and cut in front of me. Well, I did't say anything. Not sure if he was crazy but I definitely won't win if I have to fight him. Sometimes, I do think I might win but I am tired to handle these things. Just let it be. The funny thing was, he asked the cashier lots of question and eventually pay for the thing he bought. When the cashier finds him his change, he said he gave him new notes, so he wants new coins. ? all over our heads. That's what I would do when I was a kid but I always wanted the new coins no matter what notes I gave. If I went to the shop, I will definitely use the old coin first but that's before I learnt coin collection. Funny to see this on a full grown man. He went off and while the cashier was scanning all my items, the guy came back and said just now he gave him 2 ten dollars. The thing was less than ten dollars. The cashi

While I was walking on the way to the MRT and in the MRT, I suddenly thought of a solution to my problem just now. Good or bad. When I reached home, I ate some junk food. Then, throw the rubbish. Took a shower. Turned on the laptop (after following lots of things on the internet on how to improve, stopped pulse secure, Teams, Mails, OneDrive, Cortana and etc from starting during startup). To add on, Stopping Teams and Mails has the greatest effect. Why? the laptop cannot handle too many task. It started one at a time. Not letting you close it also if it hasn't start up everything else. Still queuing. It would get stuck if you add more by clicking close. Then stopped responding until it finished or cleared all the tasks. Sigh. However, trying to stop the startup or not sure why even though I disabled them, Teams, OneDrive, still startup. In addition to that, since I am using the company M365 Office account to use those, it will try to connect and verify my accounts. It failed becaus

Won't be trying to prove myself having covid or not by having covid. I do think the vaccination worked well on me. Maybe the 3 shots were too close to each other that it is almost like covid. Or I still try to stay away from people. Well, I don't have much time to care about that. This code is like hmm... Sometimes I was wondering what the hell was I thinking when I wrote it. Nobody can pull out their heart and let them see figuratively. Right or wrong actually means nothing. Do or don't means nothing much. Just follow your instinct despite that may not be the instinct of anyone else. Anyway, it means nothing too. There is no entity found. All I can say is what Nike's said. Just do it. No matter what, there will always be impedance or obstacles or fires or mountains or whatever thrown on our path. Sometimes I would think death maybe better than these.

Maybe they can make one keyboard model that typed and sounded like the old typewriter. Sometimes feels like jamming the keyboard to drown out the sounds of everything. The typewriter has that effect and I can hit all the keys as hard as I can. Used to use that in Dad office to do the account on pre-printed paper forms. No excel, no words. A bit missing those days. Well, soon it became electronic typewriter which didn't sound as much fun but they actually had the sound except for the silent keys. I like silent keys too. A bit hard to find...

Relatable. Couldn't agree more. But pajamas will do too if you don't need to meet the sunlight.

I can don't eat dinner just to buy keyboard or laptop. One thing that prevents me from buying iWatch or iPad. Either one of them, I might not use it or probably stayed on the shelf. Now I tried to use my macbook pro. Scared I spoilt it if I don't use it. I spent more but it must be worth it. There was once upon a time. I saw a cheap cable. It doesn't really fit my phone. Thereafter, the original cable has problem charging it... It spoilt the port. Not really cheap or expensive. There are people who sell cheap things more expensive so the reviews count a bit. Or the trustworthiness of the shop. Sometimes, they would sell expensive things cheap. That's another story. Normally refurbish or because of cosmetic defect. Especially on sale, they can sell even cheaper than normal while not affecting their performance. One iWatch or iPad or luxury handbags, I can buy dozens of keyboards and mouses. I can switch them for fun. I don't know why I liked keyboards and mouses. Th

跌破眼镜literally. Went to work early morning yesterday. Thought can do more work. In the end, while picking up a thing that fell, my spec frame edge hit the table. Not my head and it cracked. Phew.. I thought the whole frame cracked because I suddenly lost sight. Find ways to fix it and it was time for work... In the end colleagues helped to find tape to hold it at least. I was hoping the last that I broke was the right side and this time was the left. The spares should be able to match now. Lucky thing was the guy who repaired the right side said "why don't I keep the left side too, You never know when you will need it. Since you already paid for it too." Yesterday was the day. I managed to fix it half blinded. The spec broke at exactly the same place last time. Now I have no more spare. Good thing about quality. I will always go back because they fixed the nose pads. It breaks so easily. They always fixed it for free. I told them it is easily broken. It is just a convent

I am not sure what this company wants. Sigh. 

In the end, I realised the computer that I code the app with doesn't have the same issue as the shit... If different pc build it, it works differently.... It will work just as the current pc that you are building with will work. Transferred to another, it followed that pc that you have build with. Ah.... Bad news. I have to add some code to handle what the shit doesn't handle. Anyway, if use this shit not even sure if I have the time to sleep. Other sleep while waiting lor. 2 cores, one run api, one run app. I can do what. Plug in my fingers? 

Hammer is all I need.

is strong.

There are things that money cannot buy. For example, your sanity. After one day of using the shit... sigh...

Totally not motivated to clear the rest of the work... Argh... Maybe some pizzahut will do the tricks... When can we have a better environment of work? When I work, I really just want to work... I wanted to see what's it like outside too.

I was watching The Series of Unfortunate Events. Facial recognition of Count Olaf. Hahahahahaha. I wonder if one day, if the computer doesn't recognise me, then I am not myself anymore. How convenient. As in, if I am a criminal, the computer doesn't recognise me, then I am not a criminal. If I have done nothing wrong, somehow I looked like the criminal, I am a criminal. How convenient. To be recognised as a criminal is bad. To be recognised as not a criminal, well, what a good plan for criminal to escape. Is it a good plan for security at all. Fingerprint can get damaged but it cannot be replicated. Not sure how many but while still in Uni, there are people thinking about body temperature as a means of detecting printed materials from a human thumb. It is brilliant but then you just put the printed materials over your thumbs? A criminal can do all sorts of stuff. Actually, they are the best people to hire. Why? they can do all sort of stuff. Why scan face? Actually why not scan

While eating McD, I was writing about work and the problem that I have after leaving work. I think McD has the power that I needed. Everytime I went there, while waiting for my food, I found solutions to my problem. While I have been sitting there thinking and trying out all the solutions by StackOverFlow but still doesn't work. I know I should put work aside when I am not in front of computer but actually I realised the best solution comes when I am not sitting in front of a computer. I do another search to confirm. I found the answer on the first results. Not the bug or whatever but just how the framework worked as it is. Hm. Well, but still have to write something try it out in my code for the fix. I haven't really got much time to read the book. Google is way faster. I think without Google, maybe I should really quit my job liao. Bug fixes were the best. Common errors, thanks to the contributers for putting them on the net for others who faced the same issues. I wonder wh

I got it all working already, then one of the ui not updating error message on first check... Sigh... The problem with using library is the amount of unknowns written. The same form on another flow actually worked... Same code but work on one form but not the other. Felt bad... I can see the red box but not the message... Sigh, shouldn't have edit the template. Done till 3am yesterday... Just for the ui... The shitty ui. The thing that I regretted the most was to use the UI lib instead of writing my own. At least I can figure out where my code went wrong... Now not even sure what is blocking the message from showing. Previously I did The news were out... No personal laptop. I have to use the shit laptop. Anyway, will do so once I completed the whole thing. Else, not even sure can do the touchup on time or not. See if it can run my lite app that is so heavy now. That will be my last liao. I don't want to use this laptop. So many issues given to me. Should I be moved. sigh...

Sigh. Words or not. Conflict of interest. Everybody different channel. Just like the radio. Sometimes Chinese, then English, or listening to both at the same time. Tuning the knob that always overshot. A lot of people are looking for job. I am tired. I have seen the posibilities... I have seen a person within 3 hrs making a pokemon app when I first joined a coding event. Even following was hard. I am looking forward to that but somehow... I am still no where near. Should I???

I seriously suspect my weighing machine recognised me. The moment I stepped on it, it was always 72.2 kg. 20 sit-ups day and night, well, sometimes day only, has felt like no effect. In addition to that, I only ate McD like once or twice a week instead of everyday. Good news was my Tab S2 is still working. I managed to remove the sticky surface coaint from the back case. The original non-slip coating has disintegrated over time and felt sticky without the cover. I spent sometimes on weekend to scrap the sticky surface off. It did came off and now it is still not sticky :) I used a plastic fork to do that. How wonderful was the fork and I always got cut by it was not a coincidence. It means that it is a good fork apart from being sharp. Material used should really be considered more thoroughly. After scrapping, I used rubber eraser and dettol alcohol spray to clean it. The fork was really the greatest help.

In the end, what people don't understand is the same thing that we don't understand. Well, it was actually the words that we used. The remarks that we have made unknowingly that maybe a great demotivation or worst, to avoid. If there is no praise or rewards for all the things done, it's ok. There is always salary to compensate that but if this compensation worth less than all the work done. Nobody will think it is worth staying at all. Appreciation can means many things. Accusation can means many things too. If you bring things to court, at the very least, both parties speak. Outside the court, it is all jungle. It is full of unknown.

It is 11:25pm. The car alarm has been ringing for like the past 5 mins... and it sounded like a century. The whole world can hear but not the owner. Maybe the owner knows. Just so if it is ringing, it means his car was not stolen. It was there ringing as always. It seemed to be from the block literally 1 football field away. How I know it was 1 football field away? Because there is a football field right outside my windows. Close to 10 mins.... The world economy is affected... Well, I was in 3 jobs whereby they were still hiring when everyone was firing. Hm... Sigh... I like the new UI for this blogspot while typing. It seemed like they have updated it. It wasn't so smooth previously. I did face some issue previously but in the end I used my Pixel phone to write. Sigh... Not sure if they fixed the upload photos issue or not. Maybe now they are focusing on iPhone as well which previously they were not. Free stuff. Considering the stuff I bought for my work... Sounded pathetic. I

All the past effort of optimising it has gone down the drain. Waste of my time and effort. I guess more or less it will be like this in the future. Sigh. I broke the cycle to add more. Now like a spider shitty web. The code also shitty. I was thinking to improve it more rather than break it and let it become worst than previous. Sigh... Just let it be..

Maybe should ask dad when will he start his farming or when will he be able to solve his current problems. Maybe he was right all these while. BUT well should be long long time ago

 The library version that I used when I first started was quite outdated. Only about a year had passed since I last updated it. To use one of the UI, there is a binding error with the older version. There is somehow two ways to solve it. Edit the current old version as a feature that will do what the new version does. That involved quite many things to edit. Sigh. Sometimes, writing your own is faster than editing the errors of others. Second way is to update the current version. That might have solved some errors but might overthrow other UI that I have already added or edited or tweaked. I did the latter and that’s what happened. All the errors that never comes up before using this version popped up… My background different colour and some UI running loose. Anyway, the updated version also have some errors… Sigh… I used the older version but then after sometimes of editing the code and some were c#7.3 code and there were quite a lot of unnecessary UI features to edit to begin with. T

 It was another Thursday. Another Thursday with things happening. Forensic skill, it all happened on a Thursday. Something that people done on Thursday must be pretty wrong. Also, it’s in the morning.  I don’t learn one thing then implement to all. You still have to assess what was learnt was applicable to the situation. Multi threading or concurrency have to be used carefully. If not handled properly, it is worst than using single thread. Gate definitely should not. It is used to assess the criteria of each person going in. If we use multithreading, meaning, before this process of validation finished, you proceed to validate another. When both occurred together, which one has gone through and which one has not. Do both of them enter or which is the correct person to enter or reject? Anyway, AV or Windows were also written by human, why nobody suspect their bugs? Like after installing AV, the pc that has been running for a year crashed. High cpu and ram usage. Also, can AV run with low

  There is food. Got fresh grind chilli too. After eating, felt lazy… sigh… got things to complete. Actually I should make a habit of getting off at 6 pm. Finished eating around 8 pm. Shower and everything. 8.30 pm. Then I will have about 2.5 hours to 11pm. That’s just nice if I want to add things to my program. Change smaller things just need a bit of time. Edit or Add, I need a timeframe of 2 to 3 hrs. If I got home an hour late, I will only have 1 to 2 hrs. Not really enough. If I got quiz to finish, I have even less… I think half an hour make a big difference…