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Brain freeze

I think my brain freeze is getting more and more frequent. Probably stared on a screen too long. However, the frequency is when I talked more or when I am out of focus. I worried about something while doing the current task. It is as if my brain split into two, thinking different things while my mouth spurting a mixture of the thoughts. One thing about my condition did get better. Motor skills. Ever since I started playing Nintendo Switch, how I dealt with buttons have improved a little bit. Maybe also from the repetitive action. However, my weakness was still my thoughts splitter. I cannot control it sometimes. It took training to have one troublesome thoughts not to affect your current task.

I can suddenly have problems dealing with remembering what I wanted to ask even though I repeated it for each customer. It ran through and through for like a thousand times and yet sometimes, I brain freeze suddenly. Petrol, Voucher, Card, payment methods. repeat a few thousand times I guess. Yet, I suddenly at a lost for word… Suddenly out of my mind. Probably the noise from the POS or my sudden lost of focus and concentration of what I an doing. Or I have repeated too much time I go haywire. My mind just stopped working and go into a repetitive mode that it didn’t have to think. I was definitely thinking of something else. I wasn’t anticipating something. It felt like that time when I couldn’t utter out a word. It is the worst kind of feeling. I wonder if I could get dementia at such a age. All work and no play. Has it gone to a stage that any repair is deemed useless. 

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