Hidden act

 Despite having the internet getting so much information about purchasing habits, what do these people knew about people who were offline?

There are things done offline without leaving a trace. No digital signature. So, not all things taken digitally can take into account of what people did their whole life. The were footprints offline, bad or good.

Now, instead of finding who is guilty, it is about finding who is not guilty at all. 

Dad’s surgery needs to be fast. Sigh. I think the fastest way is still the most traditional way. Thereafter, I can make it happened. There are things I don’t trust about somebody, because I saw things offline. Good or bad.

Is everyone putting an act? Not sure. I am sure there is someone who did. From there, I lost that trust. Truthfully speaking, what agenda or what motive? That’s why I am restless. Yet, I can’t trust myself sometimes. If it was the things that would harm my parents and I don’t see it? That’s the part I am worried. What people would do for money? What people would do for fame? What people who would look down on others would do? I can’t say for sure. I guess all I can do now is do what I can do. If I weren’t a woman probably that will be nice. At least, I don’t need to waste few days in a month for down period. Sigh… I don’t need to consider much for whatever things I would do. 

Do our Allergies make us stay away from things that is harmful? Example, we are allergy to dust. So, we stayed away from dust. Those who don’t, breathe in air full of dust. Hm… Not good for the lungs? Another example, if seafood allergy is a warning for staying away from it? It might cause more issue to people who have them than those who don’t? Instead of letting their body not reacting to allergens m, shouldn’t it be the other way round?

I cannot wait to start a new chapter. It wasn’t on my list but I guess it’s a road that I should pass by for the things that I needed to do. Many ideas in the past came from the least expected place. It was never a professional point of view. Another thing is to clear my mind so that I can get enough for my Dad’s surgery. The wicked mind. I don’t punish people but I hope, if there is a God, you will pay for it. If you are not, you can still go your way. 

When I have nothing, I gave my all. Wouldn’t you think it is a bit extra to worry when I have everything and I wouldn’t give my all. What are we doing? 

If what I saw was indeed the truth, then, the liars… Shit. 

If I can stay away, I would usually did that. People were just too tiring for me. I would rather be surrounded by people who can truly see the beauty of life. Not that they have the best life but their thoughts made the day. Their creativity touches life. Their grins gave the atmosphere the final touch. They don’t take away laughter. They are the ones you felt safe sitting next to. They don’t give you money, they gave you something more. Peace.