While I was walking on the way to the MRT and in the MRT, I suddenly thought of a solution to my problem just now. Good or bad. When I reached home, I ate some junk food. Then, throw the rubbish. Took a shower. Turned on the laptop (after following lots of things on the internet on how to improve, stopped pulse secure, Teams, Mails, OneDrive, Cortana and etc from starting during startup). To add on, Stopping Teams and Mails has the greatest effect. Why? the laptop cannot handle too many task. It started one at a time. Not letting you close it also if it hasn't start up everything else. Still queuing. It would get stuck if you add more by clicking close. Then stopped responding until it finished or cleared all the tasks. Sigh. However, trying to stop the startup or not sure why even though I disabled them, Teams, OneDrive, still startup. In addition to that, since I am using the company M365 Office account to use those, it will try to connect and verify my accounts. It failed because I wasn't connected to vpn and kept on trying and trying and warn me until I fixed it. Else the ribbon stayed... Sigh... Why?! This added so much to the task apart from being startup apps. On top of that causing the already slow laptop to almost a freezing laptops. Previously it was antivirus because I disabled it while coding. Well, company policy do not allow me to disable it anymore but so far that is better now. Continue my story, I practiced a song. I login to my vpn. Downloaded a file. Start my vs and shit, wrong program. My habits because that is what I did everyday... The closing of that wrong VS took as much time as it was opening. Loading all the things in the background thread by thread. After it finally closed, I opened the correct ones. Started a bit and realised I don't remember what I wanted to change... Hm... Never mind, I gave myself a new problem though... Hopefully when I woke up in the morning I will remember. Sometimes I thought I have done something to the code. I realised I have done it in my dream...
Recently, I kept on having a dream holding and taking care of baby that I have never seen before. Sometimes, it was my nieces and nephews when they were still babies but some babies I don't remember seeing them before. The last time I dreamt that was because somebody in the family was pregnant. Did I missed out anything?
Doing good to me or using me? Even if you do good to me also didn’t required you to disrespect or undermine me. Ownself so fake said other people fake. Behind talk bad about other people in front smile and praise. Some more about the people who helped them. Couldn’t help look down on them too. I also did good to you so I can undermine you anyhow I like. I merely do what you do to me you already angry. I treated you like a family and respected you but now you lost all the respect so don’t put the fault on me when you break the string first. Some more your character started showing a long long time ago. You didn’t change, you are getting worst. Treat you like gold, you treated me as shit. Once useless, tried to siam as soon as possible. Worst still, putting me as the problem solved all your problems. I also realised why you suddenly unhappy even more than before when I came back. You are worried I would take all that belongs to you. So just prove how greedy you are. I don’t even hav...
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