Cruelty

 Sometime the world is much kinder to criminals. Kinder people know how to be kind to others inclusive of criminals yet, criminals only have cruelty towards anyone especially the defenceless. It wasn’t always the one who holds a knife, a gun or whatever weapon that determines criminal activity. It was the unseen criminals that bugs life that we are all aware of and lives with it. We know to show what’s not to our real intention or emotion. We are afraid of judgment. Whenever a crime happened, everyone’s focus was on the victim and what the victims should do or should have done. It was the victim’s fault. What the people beside the victims should have done. What about the one who inflicted cruelty to these people? The root cause of the tragedy. Immediately people think about how the victim should forgive the criminal as if that will change everything. The truth is nothing will be changed even after forgiveness. The only one who paid for the crime was always the victim. The cycle goes on and on. Sometimes, I do think death to these criminals were too easy on them. They just walked away… I wished I could send them to hell myself… I don’t mind going to hell if I can send them. As if heaven exist… Why do we not do bad things just because we were afraid of judgment and that we would suffer in hell? Why is it not just simply because we should not hurt another? or inflict cruelty? because it is wrong? even if there is no penalty, we shouldn’t do it. You weren’t wrong until you were caught. 

Yesterday, I didn’t feel anything. It was a surprise because it wasn’t how I imagined that day would be. Over the years, those feelings were long gone. What’s left was never about that bastard anymore but the cruelty left on by this bastard? All I can say is Go to hell. Easy to say. This bastard got a nice life and everyone paid it all then gone forever. Their sons and daughters and descendants, do they pay for your deeds or do they live like you… Do they know your deeds? Are you paying for your deeds at all for all the damages done? Kinder people suffered such painful death but you, I hope you did too. The only thing I am still fuming about was what they put on the newspaper for someone who ruined your family and you happily greet them… all those verses were just irony… all those forgiveness tasted like sharp knife slicing through your heart. The anger that was lost has been reignited. As if the whole world replayed itself like a joke. I cannot hate you and love you at the same time and all you ever did was more hurtful than if you have done nothing. The shower of kindness at the expense of the ones beside you. Was it kindness? As if they die, all deeds were covered. The ones they hurt still gasping for air or those in between. God, are you watching? The wrath, everyone told the victim to put down, what about the ones who caused them? When will you start hating the ones you were born to love? how much will it takes? Nobody sees where the wrath arises from. Even when you spent a lifetime to calm down those wrath and somebody easily took it away again.

Darwin’s theory. Survival of the fittest. A baby was killed because the baby was not strong enough. The baby deserved the die. Either killed by his/her parents or somebody who just want to be the fittest or proves his/her superiority. How is that survival of the fittest? Blame the parents for not taking care of the children or blame the criminal who killed somebody’s else kid? or the kid’s fault for being there at the time. Where did it first started that caused the kid to be killed? If it is about the strongest who lived, the world will always be brutal because someone will always have to die to prove somebody’s worth. The world is sick. Why will armies have to lose their life and spent their lifetime defending their countries if every countries learn to make peace? Either your armies die or your armies don’t? Some didn’t even make it to defense but died training? It is a waste of life and resources because someone has to die… Why not both sides lived?