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Watched Buffy. Although the effect and vampires were really fake but the acting was really good. Almost feel like I was back to secondary school waiting for 8/9pm which I don’t remember and I would switch to Star World on Astro. Well, not always I get the chance to watch because of everyone fighting for the controller to watch any other thing but what I wanted to watch. I realised, so far, I don’t remember watching any of the episodes in Season 1. It’s already 3 weeks, I only watched until episode 9. At one point, I wanted to fast forward but then there is really none to fast forward. Their script was good I guess. Straightforward and to the point. Wasting no time.


The last part was about nightmare and I realised that was what I was feeling. Everyday, it feels like a nightmare. A walking nightmare. Fears that became true. My nightmare became real. Like the fear to even use my laptop or continue with the current works or not even blending in to the culture or losing my thoughts especially using the wrong data or saved the wrong data or talking with whoever that has judgment right above their head. It was the fear that controls the flow. The only way to wake up is to sleep. You realised being awake is the nightmare. The uncertainties that reveals itself each day. If you never reveal it, then there is no fear.

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