Late or Leave

 To me, actually it doesn’t matter if people come late or people actually leaving. I still do the things that I needed to do. If I cannot, I will leave too. The world will always run without anyone. If it fails, it just fail until another who can make it work will come. Late or not, I am working with the time I felt comfortable with. There are people who are late or they are people who are early. Each has their own task to do but if you didn’t know what task? hmm, too bad. There are people who worked day and night. There are people who went there and probably passing each day peacefully unnoticed as it went by. There are people who went there acting a few shows. There are people stuck with more problems than they should. There are people who just kept on meeting and meeting and meeting from the moment they stepped in and until they left. There are people who were constantly roaming around. There are people who fight with customers and suppliers on a daily basis and probably own colleagues too. There are people who you just don’t know who they are despite passing by you. There are new people probably not knowing what to do. To me, it does not matter what they did. If they did nothing, it is the company’s lost. If they did too much and ran away, it is still the company’s lost. If they did just enough to pass by each day, it is really not my problem also. I am just here to work. I don’t know what’s everyone doing or what they should do but I have my own task to finish. If it cannot get done, then it cannot. Else, ask people who can. If you can, just do. I am early because it gets crowded if I am late. I hate the crowd. I don’t hate people, I just don’t think I have time to mingle around cause it really bugged me if I have to write them in Jira on how much time I spoke to who and who and how many times I went to toilet or the pantry and how many times, the place felt like pasar malam. Just need a few bbq stn and that’s almost it. At times, I am just wondering what did I do just now and wanted to do next after recovering from a chat or suddenly change to do something else. Other times, copying and deploying and transferring datas here and there. Clean up unwanted files. If I can I so hope that I can get my daily dose of music. It can really keep me going a long way without losing focus. Unless I am solving a really difficult problem and I could be awake even though I am asleep. Other times, I am furious just by looking at the design and not strictly checked for mismatch and it is everywhere and certainly add obstruction to coders because they have to think logically and without a doubt, there are code behind and there are lots of other stuff to deal with rather than just barely showing what was drawn. It has more permutations than just A to B and of course, depended on how well the flow is and the intelligence of then user to put checkpoints. Last time, 0.01 digit difference, I had to reapply with new drawings. . How the hell am I going to put the mess into tidy piece of code if it is full of it. Sometime, no matter what way, there are tails sticking out, no matter how I tried to tidy it up. It is ashamed. Designer can copy and paste. Coder cannot. Although they can but that required more than just purely copy and paste. I have design and hardware to deal with. Somemore, most of it were underdeveloped. Time like kept on ticking. Yet, it looked like none matters… 

I mean I wonder what will be the outcome. I am at constant dilemma. Shall I just pluck flower petals or count beans to decide the outcome. Or I will do a scoring system. If the to quit reach the to stay faster, then it is time to quit. Should I put 50? I worried it will be filled too fast. I will fill the to quit box when I have a feeling of the end of the world is near. I will fill the to stay box if I don’t feel the end of the world or just purely, working fine.