3:00pm start work. Just started counter. Ok. Then going out saying to do lock cage. Ok. He sat outside scrolling his phones. I back to do the price tag and back. 10 mins. Still playing with the phones. Ok. I continued to mine to see how long he can do. Anyway, he when I passed by in another 5 mins, he was gone. Counter long queue. Nowhere to be found. 3:30pm back, he managed to push a lock cage right in front but nothing was done yet. He back to counter because the other cashier wanted to do her pastry. Then after pastry done. He was here and there well, I cannot see what he did since I am doing the pricetag. I also tired to look. Well, he looked at the chiller’s tank but didn’t took it out to pour. When my pda was down, I went to look at it. Good job, almost overflow. I took it out to pour. The hose sometimes even slipped out of the tank. It was like 5:10pm. He went for his break. 6:10pm came back. Then do cashier for a while then duno go where for a while because long queue and nowhere to be found. Customer in front but played with phone. Then not sure why suddenly became hardworking. He moved in all the lock cage. There were like 3. Well, when he moved in, it is really moved in. No topping up. I wondered 3 or 4 days without lock cage what do people have to do when there were 4 people too. I cleared and top up. In addition with price tag plus receiving. for the past few months last year, when I do cashiering, they were two to three people doing lock cage. When I do store, there were two to three people doing cashier. Well, one thing for sure. I should have been gone last month. Shitty people do not deserve help la. I rather they do or they quit. That’s not up to me but not giving them what they don’t deserve were my best treat. I won’t be awful but I can be less thoughtful.
有些事就只能是遗憾。这是一堂课。最难的一堂课。我想我唯一办到的就是当了工程师。剩下的就只能是遗憾。如果少了这一点我想那我就完全是个遗憾。我想走到这一步，并不是我自己一个人能走的。它不是天上掉下来的。是我在井里时看到别人丢给我的一条绳子。我就抓住了它。好久好久。有的时候好想放开却又不放。松了又紧握着。一层一层的用力爬。遇到各种各样的问题，我一直找答案。以前大人都说难题放一边，要先做简单的题目。这样可以拿一些分数。可是我不知道为什么我说不听。我喜欢从第一题做到最后。当我有一题不会做的时候我会很难受。放不开的一直在那题绕着死都不放。如果在考试结束了我还做不到，这个关我过不了。会一直留在心里。非常难受。很难受。 如果我可以在结束前想到答案，就算我好多题都没有答，那一天我还是会很开心的。应为我解决了一个难题。成就感比及格更重要。当然我妈的藤编是躲不过的。我想我是自讨苦吃。长大了我就会在乎分数。很不愿意的都先答我会的。。。虽然是这么做了，可是我很痛苦。。。有时候会习惯的一直先解决觉得比较难的问题。然后一堆很快可以解决的却放一边。。。瓶颈在哪里我就会在哪里。拿着罐头开，死命的敲。就算所有的小事都解决了，这个瓶颈还是过不了。尽然过不了，那些小事就白做了。有的时候那里来的选择。人走的每一段路都会有难题。你跳过了。问题会追着你跑。幸运的可以搭顺风车逃离。不幸运的会被问题追上。勇敢的就去面对问题。我只觉得小时候的勇敢，不怕考试不及格就为了那一题已经没有了。只能靠着只想普普通通的过一关算一关。能躲一关也是一关。 小时候的梦想其实只是长大以后的笑话。只是一点都不好笑。想去的演唱会，想做的事。。。会跟着时间消失。。。就是完成不了的。不是努力就可以的。。。感受也会慢慢的麻木。梦想如果可以真实一点失望就不会那么大。虽然有一些动力但是是不对的动力。有些事也改变不了了。别人以为的小事。如果你经历过，在和我说是小事。我不会报复性的说这只是小事。应为我知道不是。如果我不是以前的我，我不会这么做。应为以前的我也觉得是小事。
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