Solid Understanding

 Liquid understanding, Gas understanding. Differentiate abnormal. I prefer gassy understanding. It can reach where the solid couldn’t. It is contagious.

Anger management. A person who is angry doesn’t understand it. A person who is not doesn’t need it.

Happy management. A person who is happy doesn’t understand it. A person who is not doesn’t need it.

I think the laptop is a curse. Maybe I should burn it. Or should I just crush it before burning it. But I worry it will still come back alive. It indestructible. Throw the ashes into the sea or find a volcano and dump it in. Or send it to NASA and ask them to help me send it to space. Ok. It’s time to sleep. Hope I dream about doing that. At least, it helps to get rid of this nasty feeling of it. When will I ever have a normal job and a normal laptop. It’s abnormal. Truly. Sometimes, I wonder if you need to tell upper management what you need or not. If you tell, it will be too much. If you don’t, then it will be just like that forever. The whole thing doesn’t earn money. It makes me feel like this job is a bit too insecure… I think a bit of lower pay, getting better working tools, small company suddenly sounded heart warming. Sometimes I felt like I am in a hostile situation. Maybe. Recession is coming. Maybe have some backup plan. sometimes being grateful and resentful can end up in the same line. When you know everything that people don’t see.