Solid Understanding

Liquid understanding, Gas understanding. Differentiate abnormal. I prefer gassy understanding. It can reach where the solid couldn’t. It is contagious.

Anger management. A person who is angry doesn’t understand it. A person who is not doesn’t need it.

Happy management. A person who is happy doesn’t understand it. A person who is not doesn’t need it.

I think the laptop is a curse. Maybe I should burn it. Or should I just crush it before burning it. But I worry it will still come back alive. It indestructible. Throw the ashes into the sea or find a volcano and dump it in. Or send it to NASA and ask them to help me send it to space. Ok. It’s time to sleep. Hope I dream about doing that. At least, it helps to get rid of this nasty feeling of it. When will I ever have a normal job and a normal laptop. It’s abnormal. Truly. Sometimes, I wonder if you need to tell upper management what you need or not. If you tell, it will be too much. If you don’t, then it will be just like that forever. The whole thing doesn’t earn money. It makes me feel like this job is a bit too insecure… I think a bit of lower pay, getting better working tools, small company suddenly sounded heart warming. Sometimes I felt like I am in a hostile situation. Maybe. Recession is coming. Maybe have some backup plan. sometimes being grateful and resentful can end up in the same line. When you know everything that people don’t see.

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Bank

A bank asked me to apply for their job. I was a bit skeptical whether it was scam. After a few conversations, it seemed legit. They needed my updated resume. I didn’t have. Go back to my old canva, then dragged out the old one. I realised I have a Word document ones after I sent the pdf ones. I should have just used the Word document because it was the latest. Anyway, I don’t have finance background so I might not get it. Based on their requirements, I think there are lots of things I have not yet explored. However, if I can finish my task earlier, maybe I can go for a test or two to see what are the skills that I lacked of. I felt a bit off because I just kept on doing uwp… I also needed to back up against my current job because I felt insecure about it, based on the recent months I was there. I am not sure if they want me there just to solve few issues then once solved then don’t need me anymore. Because every moment I was there, I felt a bit like it. They are also spending quit...

Peculiar

Not sure how I should feel. Good or bad. Mum used to be very good with tech. Well, yesterday, have spent two hours over the phone just to help her log in to my account. In the end, she only managed to download and update her Netflix app on her iPad. iPad actually a bit different from Android so she has lots of difficulty linking App Store is equivalent to Google Play… When I said search, she literally search by her eyes… I cannot help but laugh at myself. Programmer and code did the same. I am not around so I can only do these for her. Sigh… Should have gave her a tutorial during CNY… My screen is back… The touch screen I bought previously so that it is easier for me to do work. The pc that I bought previously is a good investment in the end. Thank God or the manufacturer that both working fine so far.

Nutshell

Sometimes kind of envy people who get paid for doing jobs that weren’t done. Thou shalt not envy. Came these words right after I thought so. God is reminding me what I shall do and what not. Do we always follow? Life is full of surprises and things that never happened by what you wished. Learning is always my motto. Doing what I cannot do is my goal. Else, I am actually not sure what shall I do in life. Looking for that particular company which has the same vision as me and the environment that I wished I have? Looking for that particular job that I can do forever and always my safety net? Looking for people who are like minded and work with them. Not easy. Anyway, yesterday was a deja vu. I had a similar dream and sounds like yesterday. On Wednesday, I kind of remember and then well, it did happened. I just have dreams and then it happened. This is not the first time. The world and our brain are full of mystery and wonder. How do deja vu happened. Like you are arranging your mind...

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