Coffee addiction is real

 I guess having drank 4-5 cup per day was my norm. My heart beat was consistently on the high side. Slightly more maybe I will die from heart attack. My weight also on the high side although blood pressure as per normal. Highest at 96 and lowest at 90 while resting. Normal range is 70-100 at rest. So have a google search. It could be due to a lot of things. But mainly mine was my weight and also I drank coffee which could increase heart rate. If you ask me to see a doc, the doc would ask me how I feel. Then the result would be how I feel and what I think is the cure. Hm… Well, I get my thoughts certified at least right. But most doctor said I am fine even my blood test was abnormal. I had a flu/cough/fever and they asked if I needed MC. That was pre-covid. Not sure if still so but now actually, can go MC without MC as long as ART considered positive based on gov. But then, we still needed proof for MC. Anyway, I would want to but the thing is, ART test, I have been negative. Suay. 7 days MC and I don’t even get to take out of my 14 days. I have been testing everyday for 5 days each time household got positive case. When not well, I tested again. If got suspect, I tested again. I guess when I die, the doc would ask if I should be given a death certificate. Ya. True. I had the right to declare myself as alive even though I am dead. I guess nowadays many does thing as such. Not sure what was the actual practice. Going doc is normally when I needed medication at a cheaper price. 

Back to the coffee story, I only remember yesterday, I tried to drink once in the morning and once in the afternoon. Then yesterday night, I have headache. I went to sleep early but woke up a few times in the middle of the night. The headache comes and go but lighten as I drank my morning coffee. During lunch time, it got worse. I thought I might have Covid. My period was over so it couldn’t be. Cannot think of a reason. Thing was, after I have my lunch coffee, my headache just gone… Then I thought back, I didn’t make even one coffee for tea break. This afternoon tea break, I drank one extra coffee just hope the headache won’t come back. No headache so far… Guess it is really an addiction. I thought I could have gone to the doctor and have 1 week MC without work. Everytime, I saw a Doctor, I was like healthy so Doc always said I looked fine but it felt terrible wherever else especially at work… work-sick. :p Or maybe the clinic or hospital got some kind of god. I used to have asthma attack in the middle of the night. Mum brought me to hospital. Just before I reached, I no longer felt breathless. 

Got my parcel tonight. Ordered weetbix and coconut water since the weather is hot. I guess Global Warming is back when everyone is back. If you harm the environment, the environment will be back for a revenge. Earth is round. The cycle comes back no matter which part of the earth.

I got my carton box allergy starting from my 2nd job. It took me sometimes to figure that out. After allergen removed, I am ok. Anyway, if anyone think Covid is just an afternoon of sneezing, it wouldn’t be such a fatal disease. If sneezing is covid, I probably got it a thousand times. If asthma is covid, I am having covid everyday. If really, I got Covid, I think I will be the kind that will die. I have allergies, I have asthma, my gene wasn’t that good and now my heartbeat was near to abnormal. I can stay away but I probably should just quit my job and stay home forever.

Anyway, why is it dangerous when now everybody can gather and nobody take precaution to keep away from each other. People like sardine during trip to work and back. Does it matter anymore? More like no. It would be good if I die a quick death and not those slow ones. I just carry the box from corridor to storage room. Just in contact for a short while. Quickly wash my hand and after 5-10mins. The rashes subsided but I can still feel the stings. Cannot beat age. 

Another thing as to why I haven’t get Covid, maybe it could be one of my white blood cell type has higher count. It was like that few years ago. Only recently I never took blood test. Probably I still have a few more good years to go or probably it is just a condition I have to live forever with. Maybe good and maybe bad. Could be a blessing and could be a curse. If you damage the environment, it will come back at you. If not you, the next generation. If no kids, you don’t have to worry. You cannot change somebody’s else action but you can choose not to exist in this world when the time comes. Let the evils defeat themselves and suffer their own deeds