After I tidied them up and tada. Today is 01.11.21. Monday. All 1 le. Just realised. I bought a splitter so that my big monitor can share between the two laptops so I can see Laptop 1 screen when I need it. I brought back my extra keyboard from office and the extra mouse. They have to share a fan though. I got my earphone. Really love the sounds. There is a hidden 3rd laptop on the table.
The mouse pad really helps. I am not sure if I want to go back. I really like this setup apart from typing off the wrong keyboard or clicking the wrong mouse. Still need some time to get use to. The vertical one I can make it Horizontal when needed. Actually now don’t regret buying it compared to a full size. I won’t have that flexibility if it is heavy. The screen a bit small to read off but no matter how big it is, can zoom in :) This week I am so happy about them. Everything arrived just on time.
I fixed my stackable cabinet too. I got two empty spaces, so during the weekends, managed to clean up and put things in. My measurements all just nice to fit the space exactly. I was worried it would be too tall but ngam ngam, the space above my wardrobe fits perfectly. The space above my stackable drawers below the window also fits nicely with extra bit of space. What’s the odd! Anyway, it would be even better if the length is longer or shorter. I got some extra spaces on the side. If shorter, I can buy two, if longer I just needed 1! Finally, they all have a proper space. Today’s weather is just fine too. cooling. I had a strange dream yesterday but I forgot what it is about. ;) Normally, I would remember my dream. Probably I am old now and I no longer remember what it was. I always dreamed about numbers but well, I don’t remember anything about it.
Do u believe that if u gain something out of nowhere, then u will lose it somewhere else. If u lost something out of nowhere, then you gain it back somewhere else. I can’t help but believe this. Sometimes when I gained something out of nowhere, I am a bit worried I might lost something else where and maybe one that is more important than what I have gained. Sometimes, I lost things but something turned out of nowhere and better for me.
Listening to Adele’s new song for the whole day. Well, not really. Lady Gaga’s A Million Reasons not bad. I just let it loop and loop between this two. Then Coldplay’s Yellow. For one thing, was never a fan of Lady Gaga but I like how she sang A Million Reasons.
There was once a street musician played guitar and sing. Just ever so plainly. I couldn’t help but listen. The streets, the restaurant that has grown so dark and no one bothered to turned on the lights. We just ate like that on some street in Germany. It was in the evening, we watched the sunlight disappeared. The walkway always cobbled stone. The train tracks on it made it like a toy city. The building as though they came out of a picture or a game scene. Everything was so unreal but it is real.
The musician then came over upon complete and walk across to where we sit and asked for money. I gave him the coins though. Surprised that he did came to ask. I did enjoy the song. It is just so right.
Finally, I have asked about the logins. Actually, they are using something like what we did. I have finally checked my leaves. It was 7 days and I somehow got 0.5 day deducted which I don’t remember. Does it matter? Ever since I started this job, it is all about rushing. Well, most of the jobs. I wonder when will I keep the pace between rushing or just stop when it’s time. Or go as far as I can. It worries me whenever they mentioned most of the things were overdue… long long time ago.
I think I am uncertain. I liked the job but at the same time the jobs were giving me creeps. Like no matter what, I am always running behind. Just creepy. It’s like we are all the ghost that moves around. Something is not right. I will just try to complete what I should. If all requirements were clear, probably there would be less issues that would waste everybody’s time. Now, to complete the kiosk and right my mistake which I lost track for the previous code. Hopefully nothing goes wrong. I have no idea. I just felt creepy and stress while doing the projects.
A negative atmosphere shall brought forth negative outcomes. You have to right many wrongs without making the right wrong along with it. Also, not to make more. I shall let go of the wheel and see where the boat will sail. It's 11 soon. I told the recruiter I am willing to try out the job. Actually got two. One is for our climate using Go lang backend. One is for our current covid situation but I didn’t reply because they are from overseas. Another one, I am supposed to tell him if I were to change job… but I am not sure how to progress from there. I guess after this job complete, they won’t need so many software engineers liao. Especially like keep losing money. Maybe by then I have to look for a job also. Most importantly, I don’t have much progress. I need to start catching up liao. I guess sometimes I was given a chance… but I always let it go by. I think my life depended on the chance that people gave me.
I have thought a lot. I really like doing this but the whole cycle is always lacking something… I don’t know lost where. They are ok with newbies from what I know from the recruiters. Not so sure about job nature. If it is for me, then it shall be for me. If it is not, then it is not. It is a good chance that just flew away and I can still go on without it. Greed and pride, can take a lot away from you. That’s what I saw from the people that I have met. Lessons that I have learnt to let go. I don’t wish to go down that same old road.
I am getting old. Mum and Dad too. I cannot just do whatever I want just like I used to. I do wish their time will never come.
Don’t judge anything though. I think judgment separates people. It will tell u what to think and in the worst way ever. I just felt like I am in an unreal situation and very uncertain too… I can’t get rid of it. Probably I should join the python meeting again. See some women and tell myself women can do it too. :p
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