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 I am still usable so they have been kind. Then after using done, they changed face. Just when their kid graduated, this person acted differently. I also reciprocated but still leave room for misunderstanding if there is any. Well, that time only the woman acted that way. Time passed, I still saw her reaction every time somebody like my Aunt or my Dad’s friend mentioned me. So don’t blame me if I gave you that face too. Cause I didn’t do it. I think you imagined that too. 

After all those remarks to undermine me then after taking the advantage of us going back home, to say how much work was done for us to be home. The room I left them was in a fine condition. The room after they use like wreckage here and there. The only thing I never add to the room was curtain rail. Because that is expensive. That time we were saving money to buy the house and pay the loan. Everyone after moving in, can add air cond, add curtain and so on. Is it their own money? or borne from the company? 

Afterwards, I heard that they don’t want me home. Meaning they have power over what they say. They don’t look like victim in anyway. Dad like scared of them rather than the other way round. Like what they say.

Then time passed, suddenly change face again. Very good to you. I only realised because they needed you to sacrifice again. What happened to all those remarks? they said I imagined them. How convenient. You hurt others and then point the finger back to someone who has helped you. You helped me once, I helped not only once. You kept on using the same thing to say you helped me. Anyway, then I reacted to your inconsistency. To your every remark done in the past, I returned them to you. Suddenly I am the bad guy. You are hurting because I am doing it when you are at your lowest and the hardest time in your life. I also remember those times how we were at our lowest and my parents at their lowest. Your remarks, how do you know I am not at my lowest and hardest time of my life? When you hurt others with your pride, you never once think for me. So don’t use your lowest and hardest time of your life against me. Cause you were never that good when your true colours have shown. I gave when I have nothing much but when you have the chance, you trampled on those people who have helped you. If you didn’t, and I imagined it all, good on you, like you have said, you will be blessed. If you did, may your whole family suffer as much as we have suffered. Swear on it that you didn’t. When I come back home and needed you to allow it, then isn’t it obvious of what you have become. You called the game all along. I am not the one who have forgotten to be thankful but you are. Don’t blame people for what they have done when you cannot do the same. Sometimes probably God is the only one who saw everything. You didn’t destroy me. You just let me see who you were and have always been. Only time will tell whether it was just my imagination or you have it in you all those time. In disguise. 

Anything that you dislike, you used the opposite way. To tell your husband and that is everything use your husband against us. Actually, I could have said, I will tell my Dad when I can too. Or my Mum Or the ones you have been badmouthing on. Same same. Probably one thing not even my fault, you wanted to make it my fault. You wanted to blame me but don’t want to lose your crown of being kind. Oh. You don’t want to be the bad person. Somebody has to do it for you. Kind people don’t do that. The thing is, even if you tell your husband also no use. You just use it to blame others.

All that reaction? is because my Mum said she wanted to ask me to be director. I was not around that time. Then you use it on me. Undermine me, find fault in what I do. Then it means, you can go against me just because of things people said. Even point the problem to me and called me the one unstable. Asked my mum to counsel me too. I have met many evil ones and yours were the most evil cause we have been treating you like family but all these while you were only using us for your family. My mum worked til 65 and also she have handled tasks on her own. You done far less than her. You still have 15 more years to go. Even after doing 15 years, you seemed like know nothing much more than my mum. Claiming my mum did nothing. All of what you are using belonged to my mum. Nothing much truly comes from you. Recent years, my mum’s pocket money has been used to pay the company’s bill. This house, was paid after selling other properties. So it means those money were earned long ago and has nothing to do with you. Your rentals, water, electricity and internet comes from company’s fund. Some times my Dad paid for the meals. The furnitures all from company. Even renovation, what have you gave. Nothing. The money you saved while using our resources, where did they go? Both income got 5k at least. Cars belonged to company. 15 years and the years before I never counted. Secondary schools were cheap. BND 20 per month the most. Primary about BND 50-100 per month the most. Only upper secondary and after needed a bit more. Shouldn’t you have the savings for your kids’ university? 

I also know we buy shirts and pants for your kids all those years. Even underwear. Not much but much better than when we were kids. We don’t even have new clothes some years. Textbook also can borrow for secondary school. Most parents spent like 100-200 annually for books and uniform. Some reuse old uniform. Where else can you spend? For your family but not the one you took advantage of? I should have looked at you the same way. I done plenty of dirty works for you. You think it is entitled. A person who is kind, knows how to appreciate. We talked all good things about what you have done but not what you have not done. But if you couldn’t do the same why not we be like you.

You know it is hurtful only when it is done to you. When you did it to others, I saw your smirks. You have plenty of pleasure from it. Probably I imagine it too. Well, if I have imagined it, my bad. If you have truly done it, may what you have done, goes back to you in tenfold. Along with those who have planned it. 

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