Every time got problem asked me to sacrifice considered kind? What is try their best for you? meaning? when someone tried their best on you and you trampled those kindness, what does that make of you? When you tried your best for others, does it involve any advantage? if yes, that is not kindness. That is a transaction. I don’t see any try their best for you. Can you list out an example? I listed so many. Then you listed boiling water. Look down on my Mum to want to stop working at 65. Come on, what have you really done apart from the 3 meals, even now no need to cook for them, you still cooking leh. All these years my mum’s pocket money gone to the shop too. Make sure you wash your own plates in your old age. Wash your own laundry too. Make sure you keep your place clean. Make sure you don’t faint. If you can say a fake faint, I bet you have been faking it too or faking so many other things. If you did give more, then may God bless you. If you have taken more than you give, may God give you your judgment.
Before I came back, I dreamt of my parents surrounded by something black. My parents kept on coming back with news of something bad each year. I made a prayer to cast out evil. The next day, she felt ill. Quite serious. Not sure if she is the evil or if she has been the evil or she has been possessed or she is involved too or whatever coincidence. After that, no more but I wonder if there were some spells or witchcraft involved. I also found out something else. More scientific reasoning plus God showing me. Mum also alert. Probably also a plan to prevent further harm. Better now than when all have been harmed.
One day, lies will be everywhere but for me, it is with a clear mind and a clear conscience. Remember that when death comes, all shall pass but the moment before death was the most frightening. We are chasing after something that will contribute to it. That something is easier. There will be no mercy. Remember your deeds.
If you use illness and hardships to hide what you have truly done, you made it to a whole new level. You can be ill treating another person while you were at your best, and then you make people guilty with your illness and hardships and all those ill treatments were necessary. Instead of admitting, you shift the blame to me. Same as before. Then you are not even sorry. I am your dustbin all these while. Rubbish all thrown to me while you gathered everything else. Please remember, you are not the only one who has parents and life. Not everyone needs to revolve around you. Stop being entitled as you have always been. If all those entitlement made you big headed, then work on it. You are not the only one whose pride needs to be protected. Everyone has one. If you cannot and want it all to yourself as always, then that’s it. My choice is good. I knew you know how to make use of things to your advantage. I guess that is always how you have done it. You seemed to see it through everyone but, how do you know nobody sees yours through.
There is no truth. Only what you portray to others all these years. I know the hole I am digging into. The evilness in someone, can never be cleanse until repentance. No rules, all are free to make choices. It is obvious. What I know what you have done before I am back, and after, were obvious. It doesn’t fit your stories. Deny all you can, then there is none to say. For now, if you cannot understand my Mum, I don’t need to understand you. If you want to experience her life, like how you imposed your on me, please go ahead. Don’t take anything from the house to demonstrate that you can do better. My parents started with nothing. May your kids scold you back when you scold them. May your kids hit you back when you hit them. May your kids don’t let you into their house or your car after raising them. May your kids say you are just faking your sickness. May your kids made snide remarks when you are going to your check up. May your kids ask you to pay for everything they need and for their grandkids too. May your kids lied more to you. May your kids called you names too. May your kids blame you if nothing good happened to them. May your kids take your money and give to their in-laws. May your kids only visit their in-laws and treated them well but not to their own parents. Tell lies. Threatened. Only when there is advantage from you then they will yield. Many more to list. All those good things you have done, may they do it back to you. Deeds were gathered slowly. Bad or Good. While I am gathering the good one and I am returning the bad one. The stories whether true or not, the only one who cannot cheat was the one who did it. Also the one to carry the weight of all tales, is the one responsible for receiving the judgment.
Every time things happened to you, you can be rude. Remember you what you have done. It has nothing to do with sickness. You just use it to get away with your behaviour. Before that, you have already started. Even while having sickness, you have been malicious. You use sickness to avoid accountability. Also don’t think I don’t see what you have done behind my back. That is the reason I know you are more traitorous and more insidious. I wonder all these years you stayed home to take care of parents or let parents take care of you. The things my parents done for you are far more than you list. You have to keep on digging to find it.
You only use sickness and hardship after your failed attempt to undermine me over and over again. Before and after same. What is wickedness? When nobody harmed you, you decided to harm others based on your understanding, ego and insecurity. You are not that different. Both. Somehow, I found so many things to determine what you are incapable of. So many things that my Mum who do nothing knew but you don’t know. I bet if we all haven’t been a cushion between you and my Mum, we just see the ending sooner. Not until everyone moved out, everything falls. Remember, I used back what you used on me. I learnt a lot. Everyone needs accountability, that doesn’t exclude you. You have not change. Picking on my cooking huh. Cause you worry I started cooking. Your comments, your betrayals. Don’t act innocent. Put all those aside, it was still your problems. Never mine to begin with. You don’t even want me back earlier on. Meaning you are hiding. Worry what you have done being exposed. I never let my parents washed their own dish. I also know that even before your sickness, they have washed their own. My dad the one throwing rubbish. He is the one giving money to ask worker to throw. He is the one buying petrol. He is the one paying your rents for 25 years. Your whole family electric bill, water bill and internet bill. Your tables for tuition come from the company. Your cabinets and shelves too. Have you been responsible for it for your kids? Even providing food only already said so much. How much money have you taken too? Maybe ask your accountant sister to calculate for you. Things you have hide. All benefits you more than anyone else. If you can deny us home meaning what you are all along. Wolf in sheep skin only. Everybody has to pretend to be wolf for you so you can continue to be sheep.
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