2020

 I stabbed my hand before with a scissors. Also same left hand! I just realised when I looked at the scars. I was cutting the strap holding on to my water bottle. It made washing difficult so I just wanted to cut it away but the material was too good. Normally how I used the knife and finally my scissors, it wouldn’t cut through. I guess I grew impatient and one wrong move, it slipped through the bottle and onto my palm. Ow… I think that was when I got my interview for my first software engineering job. I also lost my spec while I have bring home assignments to complete. Then, I got the job… Maybe this time too? Not sure but I just think either these two full time jobs else March would be another part time. I wanted to try baking job. The real type of making desserts cuisine. Since I liked to eat desserts so much and price is rising high, I guess it is always good to learn something then when price rise, I don’t have to buy it. I can make to gift others as well. Then make with less...

 I finished doing my wallet without cutting myself. I got a poke from the needle though but it was alright. Only that one time. The rest I found a way to prevent that. The cutting mat has been very useful and now it’s filled with holes. Today I got my first cut of the year. Fengshui’s problem. I was taking something from the dark corner near the kitchen sink at work. Was opening the carton for umbrella. Someone asked me to take. When I was cashier, I normally took it myself instead of calling someone unless really necessary. I have cut away the tape but the tape side sick to the wall so I pulled it and I couldn’t remember but just felt sharp pain on my left palm. My left hand gave way after the cover flipped open and the knife on the right hand slashed my palm. Sigh, I should have close it before pulling the cover. It failed to open the first time so I slide it out to cut a second time but worry it didn’t open and kept it that way. Should have trust my instinct.  I also think ...

 The difference between a full-timer and part-timer was only 8 days. Let’s say I worked 16 days (at least 4 days per week) and most full-timer worked 24-25 days. 7 rest days. One month got maximum 31 days and so the most days will be 24 days exclusive of OT but I also OT. Sigh… Also, they have MC and AL. So if they took that, the difference would be even lesser…  Anyway, everyday just hope nobody play MC, play tricks or late. I don’t think all the lost things were Aunty’s fault. One can do wrong thing but not every-time then push to her. I do know someone who can do wrong. There was once I sold two cigarettes and the customer of another cashier asked for the same cigarettes. I only sold 2 cigarettes of the same type the whole day. Then that day got lost cigarettes. Sometimes if tricks were harmless, it would be ok. Well actually the tricks they played harmed themselves. For example taking fake MC. Fake as in just get real MC without being sick. When you don’t need it it is fin...

 Some people just want to use your mistake for their own benefits. Else who will foot the bill for the crime. Yet, if this is the only way, a person who steal will always find ways to steal. Watching The Artful Dodger… My wallet was almost done now but it can be served as a wallet even before fully down so I was pretty satisfied. There is still room for improvement. Right now it looked better than I intended with my skills. Sewing wise, I may need to change the technique used else, it just looked ugly on closer look. One last part, I can collect tomorrow. As for the improvement, it can only be done on next wallet.  Mistakes? yup. My magnet button was done on the opposite side… I learnt how to disassemble it. Never rush because it makes a 3 minutes job, 13 minutes. 10 minutes just trying to find the tools and disassemble it without the proper tools. I used screwdriver because we don’t have a pinchers (if that is what it was called). My engraving was done wrong side up…. I didn’...

 Made my own wallet today but still not done yet. Probably just 70% done. I think it’s the poorest workmanship quality… but I am making one for myself and a proof of concept. I have been making paper ones just to get the design right. Still more improvement needed. It was in the middle of the night so I tried to do it quietly so instead of hammering, I pressed it to get holes for sewing… However, that is really really troublesome. I wanted to finish it in one go but it’s 3am… Half finished product. Well, the holes were in perfect places. I am lucky with the measurements that each holes of the sewing matched the dimension if the wallet. I was amazed at my own skills without doing calculations. 

 Going out with Aunty will be like when you said we are going to set off at 3pm, would mean 2pm. I was going to do grocery shopping and Aunty said she can go too. I wanted to avoid the crowd and decided to go out at 3pm. While I was doing other stuff and before 2pm, I can see her dressed up and watching TV. Her bag was on the table. When we said meet at 6pm, she wanted to be there by 5pm. Haha. So next time if I wanted to go out with her, I have to add another hour because she would be an hour earlier. My mum would be the exact opposite though. When we said going out at 3pm, we would probably be out around 5 or 6pm. She would see plants and started taking care of them. Meals not eaten. She would have to shut off all the electricity and locked all the doors. We have many lights and doors at home. She would realized she has tons of things not done when we wanted to go out. Anyway, when it wasn't about work, I would be like her most of the time. Only when I wanted to go out, there see...

 Our security has been like good people cannot pass through and then bad people kept on passing through. Good people cannot remember their password but bad people can easily know your password. Even if good people pass through without any obstacles, they won’t be detrimental to the system however, no matter how much security you have, once a bad person slipped in, you die. Bad person will think all the ways possible to get in. When security check, they will judge first which is already a wrong judgment. Suppose a person looked suspicious, maybe cultural difference or just simply look suspicious but actually means no harm, gets all the attention and finally after all the scrutiny managed to pass through and still get eyes on them. Meanwhile, a bad person that doesn’t look suspicious at all already slipped in, celebrating with a big unknown chaos. Then walked away. The security then think it must be that suspicious person, and looked for him/her. As the security was aiming at the wro...

 I bought the number but I don’t remember why I bought it… 2nd and 3rd prize. I never bought small… else I would have more money for my visual studio license or ios dev account… hmmm… but good thing is, at least to cover the losses. I only buy ibet and lucky I buy ibet else like everytime, not even 1 cent because I forgot to tick ibet. The only thing is I only buy 1 dollar big. 1 dollar small a lot of difference. Still be grateful. At least I got something when I could have got nothing. What are the challenges I always have as a developer? Logins… I was learning ssrs on my own. Following tutorials… None the clearer as always for Microsoft Tutorial. Even follow their tutorial can get errors popping up here and there letting me cracked my head to solve it on my own… I got stuck with the login which I realised was actually quite simple… No matter how hard the code you need to write, it will never be as hard as right click, run as administrator… I couldn’t get it to update because I ha...

 Wanting to make my own wallet, I decided to buy the tools. Well, I managed to get most materials. Normally I would receive a package and also notification. This is the first time I didn’t receive but the status was changed. I have too many so maybe I overlooked. I reported it to Shopee on the 9th of Jan and pretty concerned because last month my sis also has one package of nuts gone missing. She never received but stated delivered by qoo10. She bought it for our mum to bring back for cny. Qoo10 said they needed a month to investigate. I was pretty worried I wouldn’t see my tools again. Just now, a knock on the door brought hope with it. I opened the door to find the guy with my lost package. He sent to the wrong house. Just within one day they managed to find it so pretty well done. Probably the tools also not somebody would like to take. You need the whole lot of other tools along with it to make things work. Finding back lost tools, relieved. My sis one still no answer and somem...

 Still.. Anyway, if you can hire people who come to smoke, eat and playing with the phone and only worked like one hour for people to go take a break, like each person half an hour and sometimes lesser. Then just the last one hour to close up. Then actually 3 people working will do. Especially no lock cage. If got lock cage then 2 people come do 2 hours work. I don’t see price tag being print for the product I put up from the lock cage. Stuff that was empty was still empty. Like whole day nobody do store. So, when someone on store duty not doing work with no lock cage. Wait for me to do the rest of the days no need to do anything. How good.

 3:00pm start work. Just started counter. Ok. Then going out saying to do lock cage. Ok. He sat outside scrolling his phones. I back to do the price tag and back. 10 mins. Still playing with the phones. Ok. I continued to mine to see how long he can do. Anyway, he when I passed by in another 5 mins, he was gone. Counter long queue. Nowhere to be found. 3:30pm back, he managed to push a lock cage right in front but nothing was done yet. He back to counter because the other cashier wanted to do her pastry. Then after pastry done. He was here and there well, I cannot see what he did since I am doing the pricetag. I also tired to look. Well, he looked at the chiller’s tank but didn’t took it out to pour. When my pda was down, I went to look at it. Good job, almost overflow. I took it out to pour. The hose sometimes even slipped out of the tank. It was like 5:10pm. He went for his break. 6:10pm came back. Then do cashier for a while then duno go where for a while because long queue and ...

 Last month draws a conclusion. Absolutely there’s cigarette theft. That is what I wanted to find out. Anyway, it doesn’t matter anymore but I felt hundred percent sure that I have made the wrong move to stay la. They played all year long. Some a bit here and there but I think succumbed to somebody’s else influence. Sigh. Tiring day just thinking about it. Some people you just have fun working. Thinking back, I used to complain how my dad’s factory set up. Everytime you arranged, the next day, it was back to rojak… Mum’s shop was ok. I can arrange all I want. Arranging things just make you feel like tidying up your thoughts. Imagine I used to arrange a whole wall full of 5L Nippon Paints by numbers and types. I have to climb all the way up and took the 5L tin and sometimes 2 cans down. I wondered where all my strength came from. Back then I was skinny though. Now I am fat but I don’t feel the weight as light anymore. Old probably. I liked it face out according to numbers and I can ...

 Left hand was better now. Right hand was progressing but still painful when I stressed it with weight. I must have a bad posture while doing the cleaning. It just get numb when I hold my phone or write something. Even when holding mouse. Typing was ok. I managed to fix my mouse anyway. Tips. Take out the batteries from devices if you are not going to use it. I have extra mouse that I don’t use after I have my ergonomic ones. When I needed it for another laptop, I figured it wouldn’t work because it hasn’t been in use for the past year and the battery was leaking and rusting. Have to open up the thing and clean. It worked anyway and I got the tools. I knew someday I can use it and I wasn’t wrong. It was too expensive to throw away so I never did. I got it before ergonomic mouse. Even though it is an ergonomic mouse but the other one that I have was even more ergonomic. 

  Not totally done but for the moment it worked better. Hard to find a tray this size.   New hobby in progress. Going to make something that I want but nobody has it. The type of wallet that I want. I will do when my hands felt better. Already numb a few days and yesterday after cleaning all the shelfs, my whole arms aches throughout my sleep. Only this morning it got better. Going to take a nap from waking up to feel the arms pain. It is numb and painful at the same time. How?

  I used to disagree… because I can envy people without causing harm. I think envy is a good thing for me so I strived to be better. However, I guess I saw the real meaning now. Disharmony comes from envy. Somebody dislike our pump attendants getting tips. Trying to find fault with them. Remember if the other way round, you will got it too. I do believe they deserved the money. Why? because if you wear safety shoes and stand outside in the hot weather, it was the worst feeling. I wore safety shoes but in a clean room though. Your feet like not yours especially while standing. Sitting down still not bad. I guess that is enough hardwork however, work attitude wise, I don’t really know whether it was done well or not but if customer gave tips, I believed they did well. I trust hardworking people but not the one who can cause harm to others. Everyone deserves better for their hardwork. If you played tricks, you will get karma in the end. There is always a loop and so I avoided as much ...

 Sometimes I just have strange dreams and when I had one, I buy 4d from the number I saw in my dream.  Yesterday, after making thing to tidy up my table and also testing the tools that I just bought to make something feels great but tiring. Managed to make something because the thing that I wanted doesn’t exist in the market. I guess only I would need it. Like a storage tray in a drawer for two laptops. I have 3 so two others needed to be inside the drawer when one in use. My hp laptop is going to be 5 years old I guess. Bought it for my daily use but after the battery go bad, I replaced it. It is still usable but when I updated the system, it became a bit quite dodgy. I guess the hardware weren’t stable from all my opening. I have to disable to in-built keyboard and a bit of difficulty when turning on. Not charging as the replacement battery gone bad too soon. I haven’t been using it since I got the MacBook. One of the screws weren’t good so the cover was loose. This was the ...