Thoughts

 Talking about negative thoughts, I am a master of that. Talking about positive thoughts, I am a master of that too. Maybe I have bipolar disorder. Hm.

About today, something fishy is going on. Two drive-offs and I have always asked someone if they have petrol. So, they did go to my counter. If they did, and denied, does that make the fuel free? So, keys to having free fuel. They know they can get away if they have purchased something else other than paying for the fuel. Not one, but two. I think only for my case but I think there are other cases too. Presume one got away and the others know the tricks. The loopholes. Next time, just pump fuel first. Then go to the counter. Never talk anything about the fuel. Buy something and pay for it then go away.

I believe there are a few motorist saying they have no fuels and some people said they paid at the pump. Well if they get away and cannot be caught, which I am unsure why they are so assured that they don't and the cashier or the pump attendant will be paying for their fuel. Hm. Ain't that great especially. Also, motorist always have their helmet on. Couldn't see face, couldn't see whatever. Sigh. 

Anyway, I kept on paying for this trickster, it will have no end. I might as well find a better paying job. After minus all the loses, it felt like not having a lot. That was a lot less. Although, most week I worked 4-5 days. That is like 4-5 days lesser than the full timer. Should I change to more fix arrangement or flexible arrangement. 4-5 days of flexible arrangement is good but 6 days the flexible became less flexible actually. I have to get back home for 2 weeks. After all these while, if our family has been separated, probably I will have a lot more than I have now. Everyone have to work hard for themselves and their family. My dad could have spent the money on usable stuff and we don't have to suffer so much from the beginning to begin with. He put his assets like a museum collecting dust and waiting for the thieves to steal. Sigh. Mum and Dad shouldn't even be working by their age. Anyway, don't know when things started to go bad luck. We used to have a lot. Like after secondary school, everything changed. What changed? I still have some little lucks but leeches seem to be surrounding Mum and Dad. I cannot be responsible for everything you choose to give away. When one person is putting so much effort, there is no point when politics came in. There is no hope where there is politics I guess.