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没事

 都不知道是什么事,大家都会说没事的安慰。

好多事都来的太迟了。好多的帮助只要时间过了,等于没有,剩下的只是讽刺。错过就是错过了。遗憾不会别人说了就不会遗憾了。你到哪里它都会在。只有黑暗里你看不到它的影子。活着的就继续在黑暗里才能活着。其实生命早就结束了,光还是暗都无所谓。每个人都会为自己,为别人,冒着掉进黑暗里的可能。当着不让他们也掉进黑暗里。然后为自己掉进黑暗的人 是什么样的人。它会是黑暗里的天使 还是 阳光下的恶魔?还是这世界上从来都没有天使的存在?还是也把大家都拉到黑暗里。这样他们就可以看到你的世界。他们从来都看不到的世界。就算阳光在亮,也照不完所有的黑暗。就算可以离开黑暗到阳光里生活,但过不了的不是黑暗到阳光的世界,是自己的那一关。后悔没有药。阳光下的日子不长 有谁又可以一直在那阳光下微笑着奔跑。而我懂得说再见。偶尔遇见和自己一样的人而感到突然的解放。可是再好的相遇还是会别离。应为它可能只是一场梦。

每一个人都以为人会跟着时间变了。可是会不会只是你从来都没有认识这个人呢?还是等着时间过了,看过的人多了,才能看出一个人的变化。也许他们都带着面具。也许有些人只是丢掉了面具。有时候并不是想留在黑暗里,有时候只是不能原谅自己。也原谅不了别人。我想等到可以放下的那一天,可能是失意了。每件好的事就跟着失意消失了。可是想忘掉的,会一直像影子跟着你。我想是不是跟影子做朋友而不是摆脱它,会不会就更好?只有成为恶魔才不会怕恶魔。不是吗?跟着阿姨看的一个电影里写的。

只有不去感受,就不会痛。等着我的世界消失的那一天。


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