Sleep

Time to close your eyes
So sleep can come around
For when you dream you'll find
All that's lost is found

The place where lost things go

Do you ever lie awake at night

Just between the dark and the morning light

Searching for the things you used to know

Looking for the place where the lost things go

I do hope they are hiding somewhere where they could be found. As if things have never been gone. Like the things I have lost.

Most of the times, they are lost inside my bag.

Once, my mum gave me the tuition fees of $50 to pass to the tuition teacher when I was in primary 4 or 5. I fold it nicely and put it inside my new bag. When I reached, I couldn’t find it. I pulled out everything. Mum thought I spent the money and I ate kway teow.

Months passed by and one day I didn’t remember how but I just think maybe it is inside. It couldn’t just disappear. I remember I really did put it inside the bag. The side of my bag was pretty flat because it was meant for pencils and pen. I took out all the pen and pencil inside. Although, I have done it before that but I think I should again. My hand fits nicely only when I reached in. I feel around and sensed something. Something nicely sticking to the side of that side pocket. I scratched and pulled as it is sticking really tightly to the side. The long lost $50 has been there all these while. I have eaten kway teow for nothing.

I told my mum. I forgot her reaction though.

A few years ago, I reached home. I couldn’t find my keys. I thought I put it at the office as my office keys and home keys are together. Called my sis to open the door for me late at night. The next day, I reached the office and I couldn’t find my keys at all. I searched the whole office and my bag again and again. Maybe the same incidence. I emptied my bag and I truly couldn’t find it. Everyone was worried and they are about to change the locks at home. Few days later, I decided to check my bag again because it is the only place I used to put them. As a habit, it should be there. Again, I emptied it. The bag was dark, black in color and truly there was nothing. If something shiny, it is definitely visible. Just out of nowhere, I just put my hand in to feel around and I felt a bump at the bottom covered by the bag’s lining. It did felt like keys. After feeling around, I found a hole in the bag lining… The keys have decided to go through it and hides there… The other time when I lost it wasn’t truly because I lost it. Someone brought it to Germany over a visit.😏 That one not my fault. When everyone put it all on me because of that previous incidence of me losing the keys inside my bag. I did look for it in my bag again and again. Searching for holes. I changed my bag after the first incidence already.

Moral of the stories. Buy a good bag. Every now and then, I have expectations for the bags that I bought. It is good if I don’t lose things inside and everything can be easily found though not always. Anyway, mum has the same problem. She used to lost her things and I can always find them from one of her bags. Or the money she hides inside my brother’s toys or under the pot or wherever it was. I think sometimes I have a six sense in finding money. It is as if I felt it. One time while waiting for the lift, I looked at the phone booth. I was in college that time. I felt like something were inside. That feeling is strong. Out of boredom, I reached in to the change slot. There were truly coins inside. :) Out of a few of them, only that one has coins inside. My friend asked me to check the others, probably they all have and just by chance but truly only that one has. I needed the coins that time. 

I found a few dollars on the floor while walking on the streets or under the seats while outside sometimes. 

I think there is a give and take. I lost my ez-link card or I lost a rm 10 dollar while paying at the toll. The wind blew it away and we can’t find it anymore. I guess God just balance it out. When you need it, he gives. When you have it, you give it to someone who may need it. Maybe what has been lost, returned in an unknown way.

If what was lost, was just somewhere waiting for you to be there. Just as easy as the money. Or like the keychain that I thought I have lost. Would they? 

Did a stupid mistakes today. Shouldn’t have gone in but I just think should at least check once in the evening after the check in the morning. I gone in and saw something on the log and after a few records, the video like not running. I signed in to check and find them copying things. Then after a while they started a new session. The first fews were ok and everything seemed fine. I decided to exit. When my cursor is at the exit, suddenly it highlights the exit button of the app and shuts the app. The cursor when it is closed. is at the close button position and I realised when remote in, my cursor can interfere with their clicks. He was planning another thing but just nice my cursor at the close button and he clicked it. 😕 I went in to check the photos he took though. Only a few. Then I received the message about the app crashed 😕 . Just phew, the photos still there. I think video still there but then maybe there is no records :((((((

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