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体重,放下

I weighed myself after work with my bag pack. My bag is actually 5 kg. The total was actually my weight 3 years ago. I was taking steroid as part of the treatment for my skin allergies. I got an injection too. I was hungry all the time. I guess now the effect has worn out. I am feeling full most of the time and hungry at unexpected time. Imagine that 5 kgs used to be part of me... haha.. that's a lot of things.

I learnt the importance of letting go. Seeing another person holding on to it, I was thinking how can I help. I guess it can't be helped if that was the situation another is facing all the time. I get out of it. I have somehow walked out of it. Sometimes, dancing in the midst of war. It wasn't because I was right for the way I treated things but I found it less stressful than when I used to hold on to things in the past. It doesn't change the situation but it did help me deal with it in a better way. More like, I am treating myself better this way. Holding on to things that will just bring you and everyone else down. This is a lesson learnt. Now, I am trying my best not to blame anyone for the train fault I am in now.

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