2020

 Audience saw what they see on stage. Behind the scenes, what it would be like. Only the people who were behind that screen will know. Either one, they couldn’t exist without each other. Without the stage, there are no behind the scenes and without stage, there would be no Audience. For a successful show, it is about both. I need to reduce it to everyday scene. At this point, where am I? Am I the audience, back stage or front stage? It could felt like a switch in roles from time to time. Everything is staged. Do you know what happened in between when you fell asleep? Do the people on stage knows that when the audience is asleep? Do you know the back stage people might be asleep? Front stage, everyone will know if you are definitely. Unless, your act was to sleep. You are a tree or bench or a flower. I may not have done everything but I was a part. If I wasn’t, then there is no point for me being there. I think there is a “worry” about me going to toilet too many times, being too ea...

 I think I have Computer addiction. The funny thing was, after I have a shower, I realised I forgot about something that I needed to upload to drive since I couldn’t when I was at work with my hotspot. It failed. File size was too large. I quickly turn on my laptop and after completing, I walked around and realised my headache was gone. I didn’t even have my extra shots of caffeine. Could it be that I never even look at my laptop since yesterday til now. After shower I was thinking if I should sleep instead of doing a little bit of work or studying. I worried I will get worst tomorrow. I don’t really want it to escalate to migraine which is the most terrible feeling in the www - whole wide world. Although, it’s a pain to work but migraine is much worst than that. I am fine now… It could be the laptop screen. The daily dose of blue light maybe. Now I have to drag myself to work. I have to check-in my work and also, I think I needed two versions. After all, I have begun to hate this ...

 Grandpa was a carpenter but I think I didn’t get any of his genes. It took me from 12 pm to 10 pm yesterday and this afternoon to fix only 1 wardrobe that I purchased from Ikea. The instructions were given all over the place and it is only in pictures. Common to all and without a need for translation but hard to understand. Only after I googled it online and found people making the same mistake I did. sigh. I cannot depend on this as the backup job surely. After that, 腰酸背痛还有头痛。 I don’t think everything is passed down through genes. It depends on your surroundings.  Get rid of the wardrobe that grows mould. Just worried other will grow mould if I don’t throw it. I only used the old one for 2 years but the problems created, I don’t mind feeling hurt a little bit to throw it away. Keeping it only cost more money. So far kept on buying dehumidifiers or whatever. The whole thing already can buy an Ikea one. Somemore, Ikea ones no smell. I think mainly because of the heat since the...

 Using iPhone to blog on blogspot is really bad… Hard to type, hard to format and hard to navigate around while typing. Constantly, creating space or ignoring space after typing. Making it real hard to get back to the same place. Or just simply cannot get back to where you have typed. Sometimes, it will hide away part of the paragraph you are typing… Sometimes can continue to type and sometimes totally can do nothing to bring it back. The cursor would disappear somewhere. You have to guess where it was and iPhone forced you to use the spacebar to navigate the cursor that it is almost impossible to get back by touching where you want it to be even by imagination. Android doesn’t have this issue. 

  Based on Google What should I know. What people think they should know but far from it. I can think of everything in my brain. Ya. That’s what it is for. I am frustrated, annoyed and wonder what am I doing here. something’s amiss. 

  You with the sad eyes Don't be discouraged, oh I realize It's hard to take courage In a world full of people You can lose sight of it all The darkness inside you Can make you feel so small Show me a smile then Don't be unhappy Can't remember when I last saw you laughing This world makes you crazy And you've taken all you can bear Just call me up 'Cause I will always be there And I see your true colors Shining through I see your true colors And that's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colors True colors are beautiful I see your true colors Shining through (true colors) I see your true colors And that's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colors True colors are beautiful (they're beautiful) Like a rainbow Oh oh oh oh oh like a rainbow Ooh can't remember when I last saw you laughing Ooh oh oh oh This world makes you crazy And you've taken all you can bear Just call me up 'Cause I ...

Maybe I should do whatever according to what they gave me. I should follow what is there now, since nobody gave or say anything. Then October needed. Since I needed 1 month excluding the things I needed to do for some other deployment. Starting date today and just show everything exactly as it is. Finish or not. Just leave liao. Not I don't want to finish. hmm ....