2020

The worst thing about doing things as design somehow drives me crazy. I saw a page that is hideous and so I chop chop and done. Not until I saw the next page, I felt like grabbing the designers and throw them out of planet earth. I have to repeat the same information over and over again for the convenience of the user but why need so when it has been done before. It is not an editor and it is not a newspaper or notebook… The information is emailed and printed. At the end of the flow, I have a dozen of objects and a dozen of table processing all the information. I chopped a dozen of trees and the last page, I have to repeat again. Having a big data structure was crazy enough. The UI…. crazy enough too. I have to redo the struct or edit the struct to meet what was needed on that last page… Sigh… The requirement is getting larger so is the data. Sometimes, I guess we need to reject to keep the data healthy. Else, it is going to accumulate more and more to compensate for the none linear re...

 Guess a lot has been going on and I have been missing out. It used to feel bad but then now it feels as if it was a common thing to miss out that you don’t actually crave for it anymore. I guess the most that I have been missing out was my life. Where have it been missing is the question why. What am I chasing after? no longer the same as it was. Should I find out or not?

Wah. I have a degree in Dishwashing. I am the person who has 20 years of experience in Dishwashing. I can't wait to put my skills to it. My weakness is I don't like Dishwashing, I liked the money 💰💰💰. Finally, the skill has some money that comes with it. I have been doing it for free. 😁 Big news! If I didn't renew my contract, I would have applied. Maybe I don't have a degree. I have a Master in Dishwashing. 8 hrs of work is just nice.  

Watch Buffy, The Vampire Slayer. Just completed season 5 after fast forwarding through most of the scene. Season 1 always the best. The rest of the Season is just to survive. The second one I think was much better was Season 5 where both Buffy and Willow became much stronger. Some parts were still funny for other seasons. Aunty kept asking me when will I start working again since I have been hogging her tv. Sometimes, when I am done waiting, I will just do things myself. Or I don't do at all. Well, depends on what should I do. If that's the bottleneck preventing the next step, then I would. If I still have stuff to take care of, I wouldn't. Doing the same old thing for too long feels like when the world has changed, I am just done change to the world that was before the change.  After working for 2 days from a week of resting and watch all the things I never watched, reaching home at night makes me feel sleepy. I am tired already. I need another holiday 😔. Well, the app I ...

 😭😭😭😭😭 Tomorrow start work again… sad

 Sigh.

 Still not receiving when I can take my passport… Where did it go? passport making frenzy still up? Sigh. 选择困难症。 Did I make the wrong decision? sigh… I really not sure if this is correct. Anyway, I always regret after I decided… I also regret if I don’t decide. Was thinking of going back home for 3 months instead of few weeks if I don’t renew. I renewed but somehow I felt wronged. If I don’t, I also feel wronged. Why everything needs a decision? Can’t it be happy ending always? All the things I never said was actually more important than what I have said. The call was made when I least expected. Sigh. The opportunity that I was so excited about but had to tell them about not pursuing further. Is that the right choice? hmmmm… The laptop, the wifi, the indecisive specs, the monstrous db, the whole timesheet thing that were all forgotten now came back after the call. That should happen during the call. Let’s just hope it all worked without the need to go through all that again. For an...