Passport

 Still not receiving when I can take my passport… Where did it go? passport making frenzy still up? Sigh.

选择困难症。

Did I make the wrong decision? sigh… I really not sure if this is correct. Anyway, I always regret after I decided… I also regret if I don’t decide. Was thinking of going back home for 3 months instead of few weeks if I don’t renew. I renewed but somehow I felt wronged. If I don’t, I also feel wronged. Why everything needs a decision? Can’t it be happy ending always? All the things I never said was actually more important than what I have said. The call was made when I least expected. Sigh. The opportunity that I was so excited about but had to tell them about not pursuing further. Is that the right choice? hmmmm… The laptop, the wifi, the indecisive specs, the monstrous db, the whole timesheet thing that were all forgotten now came back after the call. That should happen during the call. Let’s just hope it all worked without the need to go through all that again. For another year if it last that long.

Sigh…

but then if too many things to say and in the end, the consequences were yours. The thing about the whole feedback thing, probably just there but not actually these are welcome. If things weren’t solved, they will come back to you in no time and things you can change or cannot change, will still haunts you throughout. You are stuck with things that can be changed but not changed. thing that cannot be changed remained.

Things do change. Some relationships as times go by, will change. Most of the time, it goes from good to bad. Do you have anything that goes from bad to good? Nah, normally, it followed the theory of gravity unless you vacuumed it. That is, put it into a state of nothing.

Will I get my weight loss if Grab or Foodpanda kept on losing or changing my orders. I guess having the food sent to your door is the greatest temptation among all things. You have access to more temptation if they were by foot. If you want to eat something nice, you need to have some work done before getting it. When think about the work that needs to be done to get there, it puts off the thought of eating that food. Or if you really craved for it, you “work” for it. In the end, at least for that, it compensated a bit on the diet.  Now all laws were drawn away. No work done and you get all the foods more frequently. Sometimes just out of boredom and craving. Which, you know is in reach and a few clicks. I bet that’s where all I have spent. I also realised, I used to have  lower salary but then I think I saved more compared to now. CPF took most of it and somehow it has more money than my account despite being just a percentage off my salary. I wonder since I am a contract and outsourced worker, how much of my salary was taken by the agency. Hm… The laws of the world, a perfect mess. Illogical at times. Well, keep the world running.