Indecisive

 Is this the life I have been looking for? Nope. Actually that day, when 1 mc and another one urgent leave, I don’t really felt like staying here is worth it. Consider this my christmas gift for my counting down departure.

One night, I went to the supermarket and was pretty late at night and they have begun to bring in the lock-cage. All males doing and probably then I realised why should I chose this just because I wanted to stay away from some people “playing games”. Sometimes, I will be a fool to so all that.

Having this job like, nobody can mc or even die. Touch wood. Nobody can take leave. Me as a part timer, I am super unsure why my time impact them so much. Everytime I felt the urge of leaving, I tried to suppress. Like someone just getting mc or urgent leave casually. Or trying to put me in a difficult situation. Anyway, that wasn’t the trigger. I just don’t know how to tell my sup. Well, actually I already regretted staying because sometimes it made me feel like such a fool because Obviously, they are pulling tricks all year round. Suddenly, I felt like it benefitted them for pulling this trick. Why should I stay and let you enjoy while you don’t appreciate?

Next trigger was that I have been sick the third time this year ever since I started this job. This morning, I woke up with a sore throat… I also got my covid this year. All medical expenses were not covered by company. mc also not covered so now I was thinking, ya, if I got injured at work for all that hardwork or whenever I get sick, I am not covered. I worked half the time and this person kept on beh song. I just let her be behsong but then will just make my work difficult only. if don’t like then ask for a full timer. Anyway, I have not worked in retail before and this really gave me a big lesson. Like everyone can ask me to come to work but when my time, nobody can make it. While somebody can make it, it’s for people to go out smoking first… Mind my own business la… I do my part and if people want to pick on it, I cannot change anything.

This morning when i felt my throat a bit sore, damn, third time. I tested before going to work and it was negative. Phew… else gotta pay for medical bill again… Just not the perks of part timer. Well, now I felt better. Probably just feel tired or just frustrated. lf you are done with your revenge, I don’t need to feel sorry anymore. So, it is probably good. I planned to do stock but not to cover you up everytime while giving people time to slack.

The time they took mc and urgent leave, my foot hurts out of nowhere. Just woke up one day, while I went off to buy breakfast. It is somewhere on the left palm of my left foot so definitely I cannot avoid not putting pressure on it. That day also has quite a number of lockage and somebody “playing games” again. I think if I want to take mc that day would be best to play it back. Well, to think through, I didn’t. Unsure where was my angry self. Probably still got another person I cannot just go. Anyway, then I am thinking if I do all the lifting, would it cause my feet to be worst and somemore, no medical insurance? Of course if my feet get broken I have disability insurance but it just cover some fees only. Somemore getting injured for such a job seemed not worth it. Especially for people who were not even worth it. Some do but not all. Well, rethinking. It seems I should have find a better part time job. hm…