Half truth

 People who don’t say what they mean. Different stories. If it weren’t for these cases, I hadn’t known what it will be. The truth is, I see everything. You only done your job but I have done everything before leaving. If you kept on with your grudges, it will be forever. It took two to clap. I tried to solve things. If you don’t want it and so be it. Best of both world.

Time is running out. I don’t want to put all the eggs in one basket. I rather save it to somewhere I know at least it can be a better back up plan. Else, it will be like throwing everything away. Most part I was still thinking the same way. To help. Recent trip just changed everything. The weakness of family bonds. No matter what you do, if people don’t want it to stop, it will never stop. Why do something that cannot be change? If there is so much you don’t want to solve, then just split. Yet, don’t want to? What do people really want? The real problem is still hidden. 

Talk about friends. I should have gone out more often so I can spend more money with them regardless of what is happening at home. Since people don’t appreciate the money given, then I should not have gave it.

One thing I did know. There is one person who talks more . So much more that it turns everything sour. I only dropped a few words, aha. Then I knew. 

I have been reading Rich Dad Poor Dad. Have seen the book long long time ago but never had the chance to read it. Although the Author himself might be a fraud or scammer of some kind, I still think some parts were true. People will always think other people is the problem. If I am the problem, I remove myself. Why do you still have the problem?

In the end, nobody will pay the bills for you. No matter how much you think others were the problem, so what? It is harder to change then than to change yourself unless you have the influence which is out of the question. If you have, you will never get to this point.

While working as a sales assistant, something about my previous understanding was actually all wrong. Being able to have enough rest, I can somehow withstand more than I actually did. It is a kind of training I guess but hope I don’t make it worst. I think my hands and brain don’t talk. I realised my motor skills were getting worst. I ised to like fixing things but somehow, I can’t coordinate my hands just as much. Guess I have fallen out of practice. I was just practicing one skill though which I think is important. Trying to think myself as the problem and change myself. Everytime I think that some things shouldn’t be done the way it was, I would tell myself just to follow what others have done. Try to change yourself. Not that I really liked that but I think it is a good training to do what others can do and yet at the same time thinking it was not the best way to do things. It is tiring but sometimes, when I did something that was like a challenge, it makes my brain felt a bit alive.

I played game for a reason. To actually train my controlling skills which I think people who played games had. I can grew pretty mindless at times. I guess is from the lack of something. I was mindless quite often these days. Mainly from the distraction of my family. Again and again. No matter how hard you try, I was back to the same place as I was as a kid. Why should you pay for the bills when everyone is taking it? You gave people money and there are people only borrowing it. If you want all the glory, do the work. Don’t only appear to take credit or when you cannot do the work but want others to do it for you. After doing, then do the talk and put others down. The truth is the doubt you put on others head. 

Sigh. A wrong choice. A wrong decision.

That is all. I should really have focus a bit more on finance stuff though.

As for being mindless, I was showering yesterday’s night after coming back from JB. I want to shower my head. I realised I used hair conditioner to wash my hair, I quickly took my shampoo to quickly wash it off. Then I realised I was using the body shampoo instead of my shampoo… Sigh. Then quickly rinse off and finally getting my shampoo right. Sometimes, just thinking of something. Sometimes, not thinking at all. 

There are people who don’t help but give troubles. If they cannot do it, they didn’t want you to do it. Without knowing the consequences. Since, they won’t be held accountable.

Another thing. Knowing what is asset and liabilities. Expense more than asset, was bound to be doomed. Do not spend the money you haven’t earn.