2020

is just wicked.

 … I haven’t reply. Today at least I managed to clear up the wires connecting 2 laptops, 2 monitors and 2 keyboards. Kept my other two away because really have no place to work. The other laptop is required though. Need it for Microsoft office. I didn’t purchase that cause I won’t need it for programming but report wise I will use the old laptop. Saving things to svn, I will transfer to the old laptop before submitting. Anyway, still a lot of wasting time but a whole lot better although I still got lots of set up to do gradually. A bit reluctant but I have to. I decided to keep the Nintendo Switch. First ever game console in my life. I will spend on laptop because I need it to learn and surf the net. I am buying something that will spend my money and wouldn’t help me to earn anything. At least, for once in my life, I want to do something like this. I just got it while I was in a meeting… Everytime. Delivery guy just like to deliver whenever I have a meeting…  I happened to tur...

 If somebody offered a 2 to 3 times salary higher than your current job and also changing temporary to permanent staff, will you apply for it. Anyway, there is no certainty that you will get it cos there is always other applicants who people might more probably choose. Then like all others after interviewing two to three rounds… then you didn’t get it. Although I did learn from it, it doesn’t make sense to me. I could learn much more if I don’t keep learning interview questions… I could make use of the time to make and remake and perfecting a website, a tool, an app or whatever.  The truth is, the salary is pretty high compared to what I have now. They are using golang, a language that I have learnt a year ago… doing new technology (this is interesting). BUT More worried about job scope. It could be a job that has never ending meetings or endless emails? The perks of my current job is that I don’t have so many meetings, mainly doing coding and testing. The saddest part is unkn...

 When you don’t really look at whatsapp, there is always incoming message but none was for me. When you really was looking at it, it is like out of service. This afternoon after sending out a message and I waited for awhile. The whatsapp was totally silence. No message at all since 4pm… I looked at it on my laptop and phone, no message at all. It went on until like 5:30pm, I went to take my dinner. I ate 3 chicken wings Aunty cooked this afternoon. I only ate 2 for lunch since there is rice and other things. I eat until 6:10pm, still no message! Then should out of nowhere the notification started flooding in around 6:30pm….????? I think either my wifi got problem, my singtel got problem, my iphone got problem or whatsapp itself got problem… I was using wifi though… sigh… As always, when there is message for me, I wasn’t looking at my phone. When there is, either O was too occupied to reply or I didn’t see the message.  An hour has passed and conversation has been going on. My ...

 the thing runs without error catching for like more than a decade. it is a wonder. When it did, it was made purposefully. To use one catch to catch any null using the exception instead of handling. Level unknown. kudos. Anyway, learning through failure… I wonder what the person was thinking. When this do this, when that also do this… funniest thing is, I don’t dare to change that code by letting it just be “do this” which is irregardless of any condition. That’s the hardest thing when the code was a handover. 

  明天  今天开张大吉大利。 天大地大 明天好好开始。在还没有疯掉之前。我的任务还没有完成。寻找的答案远在天边 不在眼前。希望答案就像是天下的雨一样。从天上掉下来。如果是钱那会比答案更好。 面子有的时候很愚蠢。它可以消灭任何事和物。也不愿意失去面子。 人类永远就会毁灭在自己手上。心甘情愿的毁灭。 为了好多事做好的准备。却还是会害怕。 One good lesson in coding. Don’t ever use dispatcher begin invoke all the time. Especially when there is only one task. When you added more task or feature, the previous dispatcher is going to kill you. When you already had it, the only thing is to add more forever for any new addition. Then pray hard. 

 是超能力。I was doing something on sql. After a while I was off to do something. After a while, whatsapp. After a while, talk to somebody. Then telegram, then email, then whatever. Just that one sec, I deleted the whole rows in sql…. lucky thing was, it wasn’t production data…. and only that particular ID… was supposed to add additional check. If not don’t delete and if yes delete but before I truly realise what I wrote, muscle memory pressed F5………….. Although the internet has been very convenient, we become attached to it. You got work group, family group and friends group and other spam group. If everytime you heard 🛎, then it is like you have to stare at ur phone the moment you were awake til you sleep…. you cannot work actually. All you have to do is to keep messaging nonstop… but without it there is no way to communicate. with it there is no way for you to work especially you need the time to think without interruption. Can’t there be a balance somewhere… 

 A lot of financial advisor finds me now. I wonder what financial advice I need though. The solution is not to spend? If I really want to spend, then I have to spend ma… If I don’t want to spend, then I will save. Correct? Every time I told myself to stop work at 11am and don’t go back the old road. Every time I checked my time after I get into the stealth zone which is easily achieved at night, It’s past 12 or 1… Since I missed the time, I just continued till I achieved some completion. I just did what I don’t usually did by splitting function into smaller functions… Hope that’s clear but I put myself in a trap. For me to change something, I have to go to different functions. I missed out some. As always, 计划赶不上变化。变化赶不上老板的一句话。以前的同事说的。Just nice, before that, my code flows in one function. The changes I had was pretty minimal without affecting other function. And also other function wasn’t using it too so far the changes don’t draw my blood and tears. Addition is always fast. The lon...

 The vs just need a few seconds to load… The sql also. Start up and shutdown also. I launched them all at the same time.. How much time have I been wasting…. it is like 5 to 10 times faster! I felt like my laptop wasn’t cheap while considering the switch that I got without taking 150 dollars discount. 2399… well, i actually can choose the space between 16GB / 32GB but IF i choose 32GB will only have 512GB SSD. 16GB I got 1TB storage. It was not partitioned so I have c drive only…. Was a bit worried but someone my code worked without using D drive so I am still fine otherwise I am wasting the money for work only. Imagine 16GB is this fast, I wonder if I got the 32GB, I will be flying off to space already. The person say don’t overkill. Nope. If I am going to have multiple applications, I rather overkill. I never know when I will want it to develop something else without wasting my time on every single click and key typed. If you have such laptop to begin with, it is like I go from h...

 I tried to improve my very first few c# code and try catching a few more error til 5:30 am this morning. Bad habit. I am going to nap a bit until 7:20 pm. But walking here and there, drink and lingered in the living room a while, I think it is bettter to nap til 7:30 pm. I looked at the clock that I set earlier on. I set it to 7:20am.. What’s worst is I set it for weekends… just the ui itself drive me crazy. I preferred android clock. 

 My memory 404. There was a thing that the customer asked during the uat two times. Eventually I came up with a solution using stored prod. I said can remove when the time come. In the end, during deployment, actually change by me is not allowed. I read through the stored prod, it seems to be alright. I cannot find that one sentence that i need to remove liao…. too long ago… How come they don’t know I cannot change it…. 

The adapter to the laptop is heavier than the laptop itself. BUT the laptop is excitingly super duper fast. One click and I don’t even have to wait for a reaction. Every click is like instant! Every move is like so smooth but I do felt like it is a bit bumpy. Other times, it was silky smooth. I installed just ssms and visual studio for the half a day using the company’s laptop. I used like less than one hour to install both. 1 computer slow, 2 internet slow. I completed the installation at home though. Left with all the vpn thing. The installation is in the old laptop which I don’t want to open because opening it is like 20 mins thing. maybe tmr. The laptop just makes me felt afresh. I should have bought it earlier on.  Anyway, I was still in a dilemma. I want a good laptop. I fulfilled that myself now. I do want a more permanent job and less of a secondary Engineer. Best is to develop directly with no limits. Otherwise have to find leeways to do the job. With test limitations were...

  My new kid. I am thinking what to buy but so far this is the only fast thing I saw but one thing is, it is really heavy… which was a last minute realisation when we took it back. Almost the same weight as my MacBook. Not sure which one is heavier. Hope it does the work though.  I was looking at Acer Swift but in the end turns up at Lenovo Legion. Why? they said got free gift and 150 off. Then during payment they said if 150 off and free gift can only choose one only. Sad. Anyway, I still took the Nintendo switch instead of 150 dollars off. I got McAfee for 3 years for 1 dollar though :) The seller is good and think everything to my advantage so I agreed to buy… Another thing that drove me there was my company’s laptop. I can only do one thing at the time. Even when building I have to wait… I cannot do anything else with the laptop… when need to check other things even with Chrome or whatever, it’s took forever to churn out something. Excel file too forever to open too. Today...

都不知道自己做了什么。这几天很烦。烦死了。Just had a few deployment… feels like the end of the world. I felt like shit. Felt like what I am doing is shit and wasting the whole year to this stupid shit. Why can’t this be like a game, all I have to do is never to choose this job in the first place. Then I never had to deal with this login shit. Surprisingly, to find that in the code there are certain conditions seemed to be a requirement in the past but seems like current user doesn’t have any clue about it. While editing the code, I was thinking if I should remove or not. I did remove but put back just in case people who knows find them disappearing. Maybe they will cheers. All I did was to add in between the lines. Sometimes, if I don’t remove, people asked me why it worked that way. Hasn’t it been working that way for the past 15 years? I only doing the code for 2 months… If I knew, I think I can go for high paying job like something that is tripled my salary now. It put a big dark doubt about what I had ...

 I cut my own hair last week again. With all the cases going on and I thought that’s the best. I am working from home so who’s going to bother how my hair looks like.  Meanwhile, our used to be little nephew now 17 years old was helping his grandfather, father and brother a haircut. He has indeed grown into a responsible young man. I still can’t believe how little he used to be and we used to carry him around. Hope he grew up fine without much bad influences and hope nobody would take his kindness and used it up against him. We were lucky to have such fine kids around the house despite everything that has been going on. At the other end of the sea, my little niece who used to be big, haha, just kidding. She is always responsible and not acting like her age. She is considerate. She is hardworking. She worked part time while doing internship and uni. Hope she is fine and holding up ok. Sometimes in life, you gotta do more to learn more and although not everyone has to go through...

 The glasses that I bought like last August was broken again. They are really glasses. It costed like 600++. The most expensive glasses that I have ever owned but also the fastest to break. The nose piece broke two times. Now the temple just snapped when I was rubbing my eyes. It was suppose to be a flexible frame and no matter how you squeeze it should break. BUT it did… I went on Friday morning to get the nose piece / pad arm changed because while I was cleaning it, it broke. Now I have to use back my old glasses which is like what I had 10 years ago. It costed about RM300. Based on currency that time, it is at most SGD 150 - 200. It lasted till now. The last one that I had, I have used it for about 4-5 years but I lost it on a bus because I hanged it in front of my shirt because I was wearing mask. That one was about RM 400-500… It lasted 4 years with even harsher conditions. It drop many times, sit on many times and it still looks ok… Nowadays can’t really look at price to dete...

 I realized I couldn’t zoom and open visual studio together. It makes zoom choppy. As my app grew bigger, I can only load one at a time. There is one that wouldn’t even load if I start it first. All the ui has finally take their revenge on me. My only choice is to open two visual studio at most. Three would sometime crash. Anyway, there are definitely attractive salary everywhere. I was wondering why am I still here. Six months contract has gone. I will be here one year soon. The thing is I so wanted to go but I can’t tell what’s holding me back. Probably because the app was done halfway. hm… The frustration was the hardwares. Spent most of the useless time there configuring here and there. Should have done more research on that. the thing is I am software engineer why do I need to configure hardware ah? I thought just plug in, connect and start sending command… well, too bad. it’s not. Shall I be attracted to higher salary and go now? Thing is, it was not for c# but for Go lang. I...

 Despite the fact I worked on Saturday, I am ok. I am ok to work everyday. But I am not ok, when I worked, most of the time spent on was the effectiveness of the laptop. I spent 1 hr today turning on but still stuck. I opened the program and it just stuck there. Task Manager showing the Mcafee scanning and scanning. Why would I write my own code to destroy my own computer? It asked me to wait. Everytime, loading and unloading. Now, I had to restart. After restart, the login was super duper slow. Yesterday night just spending half an hour to check my email. Wanted to send my timesheet but after loading and loading and still showing not connected… Finally connected but it’s 1am in the morning. I am tired.