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Worst nightmare

While I am wide awake, I opened up the code that I have been working on for a bit over a month to check something..... Just now, it's all red..... Next week, I am going to deploy it soon. That's terrifying until the red lines all gone... phew... it just took the program a while to load. I was blank for a while too at that moment thinking this is the end of my career as software engineer after a month and a half of being one...

I wonder if I am good or bad actually on this new job. It feels unreal til this day. 

I kept dreaming of lions and tigers coming into my old house at Miri and the locks or doors or gate were loose and I am not able to get them close, worry they attack anytime soon. Otherwise, it will be a big blue sky with either a moon that's very very big, or a night full of stars or seeing somebody flying in the sky with big wings or parachuting, or the sun set. But, whenever I tried to take a picture, my phone wouldn't work. The camera won't work at all. Strange. Not so use to these dreams and I never had them. Only over the last few months or weeks. I felt a change for me once and I should embrace this change.

I forgot to set my alarm again..... but luckily my sis's alarm woke me and she asked me if I was going to work yesterday......

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