2020

 sigh… Just one globalprotect, just email only… Everytime checking email need to think twice because worst case I have to force shutdown. Better case, I only had to restart. Anyway, is it worth it to close all my code and waste half an hour time restart just to check this one email? when everything is still on fire to be done? I only check before I close.  My laptop freezed again… I thought my mouse got problem. I changed the battery twice and the screen not moving… Then I realized the pad also not sensing anything, my keyboard also not responsive so I force shutdown again…. I can’t stand this already… I felt like it is a waste of my time. Today wfh so I only eat one meal. The rest of the time stuck on my chair with my problems…. shown on 3 screens. Just one printer wasting half the time. Hardware not configured across the south china sea. How to reach there. I can’t do magic. Everytime my laptop hanged or they hanged what can I do. I can’t examine all the stupid thing that so...

  1 Corinthians 13 1 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. I can’t feel it at all. I am losing it. Maybe one day they will just disappear. All that is left was just nothingness.

you finally made a step forward and then something will always hold you back. Every time you took the courage and finally had what you need but it can be taken away any time. I think our family would die from stubbornness and being naive, and brings everyone with it. All for that 40 k paper and then you paid endlessly. All for the lies people put on you to get what they want and you gave them. Everything is all about money and nothing else. 

 I think something is wrong with how I wrote the code. Sometimes I wonder why certain coders would put everything related to the current page to the same file or at least same folder while some put everything separately on different files and different folder, and some put all the functions in a different file altogether. When none would share the file at all. While learning Go, I did two different ways for two different projects. One is to separate by the page and another is separated by functions. The second actually gave me a hard time because I just want to change one page and I had to find each function from different page. The first one makes me feel easier when I need to do correction and everything on the same page actually helped in correcting my mistakes or when I need to add things in or modify things. I would know I would miss anything. Well, maybe different coders have different preferences. I do find the naming of the file is important but somehow, if I put a generic ...

 I got a call asking about something but would get me a 20 dollar voucher. I was thinking do I want the voucher or not? Why not? hm… But at least she didn’t sound like a machine talking to me and accent was ok. What really made me wonder is because most survey question is yes or no. From the way I understand it, may mean a whole lot different answers. So how effective would the survey be. One particular question is about media things. Mostly about different countries. Then one particular one is about the frequency I watched TV, Movie, Listening to music, or whatever. If I really felt I had no time, most probably I don’t watch unless I passed by the living room and what Aunty’s was watching caught my attention. How do I calculate the frequency? If I don’t watch tv at all but I listen to Music most of the time but that wouldn’t mean I watch movie and tv all the time? So survey question sometimes really bugs me. It is like a loophole. Only recently I watched a few show but only once a...

 有一天。。。 老婆婆在一个工厂里工作忙到半条命，想要换工作。所以她就刚好在回家的路上看到Nike鞋工厂在招聘所以就申请了。质量保证部门的检测员。老板说检查完了以后打勾就好了。老婆婆很喜欢这份工作应为太简单了。而且还做的很快。所以大家都给她多一点的鞋子检测。自从老太太加入以后，老板们觉得这个几个月的质量不合格越来越少。 看了每个部门都没什么改变。 然后就来到质量检测部门。 老太太正好把合格的鞋子交出去。没有一个不合格。然后在检测另一批。老板们就看着， 老太太就一个一个的很快的就把鞋子从不合格堆就放到的合格的。 老板问她检测的好快啊。老太太说这份工作太简单了， 她好喜欢。她们说检查完了打勾，每一双鞋都打勾了。 很少没打勾的。 每天就只有几双鞋需要打勾。 比起以前的三条线还简单。

我只是在对与错做了选择。