The selfish one

 The selfish one. Just lie more and more. Use how badly you are hurt while you are hurting others despite them helping you. When people retaliate, oh, how hurtful you have been. I saw that. So far, it is always about them. All these years. About them. When you tried your tricks with me, remember, it was me seeing your true colours. Turn the stories all you want. You know what you have done. Everyone needs to be responsible for them. What about the one who never get any concerns? We don’t get to cry. Only they get to. We are not right to even complain. Only they can. Want to see our room before and after? Want to see the work hours I put in? Want to see how sick I was until I finally quit? No. That is not hurtful. They don’t even think we deserve to spend the money we earned. Talked so much. Stuff you bought far exceeds what I bought. How poor thing that you cannot spend all the money I earned? Oh ya, it is because I get to study for my degree. Oh, I get to move to Singapore to work. So all our fault. I heard all those bad comments from all the way before and I didn’t put in much cause you know I was weak and couldn’t fight back. But remember every word that you said was heard and collecting dust on the shelf. You cannot deny. I know how to be grateful but not for the ungrateful. You just keep on wanting someone to be dragged and be responsible for your troubles. One after another. Do more good deeds before your time comes? 

My parents and my life are limited. I don’t want all my life to be about you. Especially if you have bad intentions for me. Then pretends. If I were the 15 year old you can lie to, probably your act will be perfect but not anymore. Remember when people think back, they will realise what people did back then when they come across more people. Things come back like looking in the mirror. May the one who lied pay for what they lie about. Your lies after lies. Thinking back, we all saved so much for people like you disgust me. Your disrespect, I will remember. I don’t think it was unintentional when more than once.

My parents were the one who gave to me things that I needed. You got the share. If I lied for what I have done, then people wouldn’t know me. You kept on trying to fit me into your stories. When you said something it is fact. I also telling facts? Or just say I go crazy lor. Then it is fine to get away. Remember I have given you the privacy you needed but you kept on putting me like I am a threat. All those years, I could have spent on something better. I just throw all my youth on people like you. Don’t waste my time anymore. Thinking back. It is always your family we wasted time on. It should be my parent’s time to enjoy what they earned from their hard-work. I don’t know when they will be gone. Even when they sick, we never blamed anyone. Just get a flu, then put us all as bad? Or i saw your true colours, that’s why you needed to keep me off? I don’t see anyone who died from Covid blamed their family. 

If you can do to me without thinking for me, why should I? Somemore, I only do the same as you did. I thought that is perfectly fine to hurt people when they are vulnerable. Don’t worry though, I never do such things but recently I found out that letting this people go without consequences, they will keep on trampling you or think your kindness is just dumbness. Respect my parents. If you cannot, don’t use me as the bad person to get you through. I won’t act as the bad person anymore. 

Even without apologies I let you go. For now, no apologies can mend. You caused troubles when I am trying to fix. If people kept on preventing me to solve, it means you do not want it to be solved. You want to keep them in miseries and use that for your own advantage.