2020

 sigh… Just one globalprotect, just email only… Everytime checking email need to think twice because worst case I have to force shutdown. Better case, I only had to restart. Anyway, is it worth it to close all my code and waste half an hour time restart just to check this one email? when everything is still on fire to be done? I only check before I close.  My laptop freezed again… I thought my mouse got problem. I changed the battery twice and the screen not moving… Then I realized the pad also not sensing anything, my keyboard also not responsive so I force shutdown again…. I can’t stand this already… I felt like it is a waste of my time. Today wfh so I only eat one meal. The rest of the time stuck on my chair with my problems…. shown on 3 screens. Just one printer wasting half the time. Hardware not configured across the south china sea. How to reach there. I can’t do magic. Everytime my laptop hanged or they hanged what can I do. I can’t examine all the stupid thing that so...

  1 Corinthians 13 1 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. I can’t feel it at all. I am losing it. Maybe one day they will just disappear. All that is left was just nothingness.

you finally made a step forward and then something will always hold you back. Every time you took the courage and finally had what you need but it can be taken away any time. I think our family would die from stubbornness and being naive, and brings everyone with it. All for that 40 k paper and then you paid endlessly. All for the lies people put on you to get what they want and you gave them. Everything is all about money and nothing else. 

 I think something is wrong with how I wrote the code. Sometimes I wonder why certain coders would put everything related to the current page to the same file or at least same folder while some put everything separately on different files and different folder, and some put all the functions in a different file altogether. When none would share the file at all. While learning Go, I did two different ways for two different projects. One is to separate by the page and another is separated by functions. The second actually gave me a hard time because I just want to change one page and I had to find each function from different page. The first one makes me feel easier when I need to do correction and everything on the same page actually helped in correcting my mistakes or when I need to add things in or modify things. I would know I would miss anything. Well, maybe different coders have different preferences. I do find the naming of the file is important but somehow, if I put a generic ...

 I got a call asking about something but would get me a 20 dollar voucher. I was thinking do I want the voucher or not? Why not? hm… But at least she didn’t sound like a machine talking to me and accent was ok. What really made me wonder is because most survey question is yes or no. From the way I understand it, may mean a whole lot different answers. So how effective would the survey be. One particular question is about media things. Mostly about different countries. Then one particular one is about the frequency I watched TV, Movie, Listening to music, or whatever. If I really felt I had no time, most probably I don’t watch unless I passed by the living room and what Aunty’s was watching caught my attention. How do I calculate the frequency? If I don’t watch tv at all but I listen to Music most of the time but that wouldn’t mean I watch movie and tv all the time? So survey question sometimes really bugs me. It is like a loophole. Only recently I watched a few show but only once a...

 有一天。。。 老婆婆在一个工厂里工作忙到半条命，想要换工作。所以她就刚好在回家的路上看到Nike鞋工厂在招聘所以就申请了。质量保证部门的检测员。老板说检查完了以后打勾就好了。老婆婆很喜欢这份工作应为太简单了。而且还做的很快。所以大家都给她多一点的鞋子检测。自从老太太加入以后，老板们觉得这个几个月的质量不合格越来越少。 看了每个部门都没什么改变。 然后就来到质量检测部门。 老太太正好把合格的鞋子交出去。没有一个不合格。然后在检测另一批。老板们就看着， 老太太就一个一个的很快的就把鞋子从不合格堆就放到的合格的。 老板问她检测的好快啊。老太太说这份工作太简单了， 她好喜欢。她们说检查完了打勾，每一双鞋都打勾了。 很少没打勾的。 每天就只有几双鞋需要打勾。 比起以前的三条线还简单。

我只是在对与错做了选择。

We got a treat cos somebody strike 4d. We ordered McDonald breakfast and Pizza for Dinner. I also a bit concerned though, cos I felt like my throat felt different today. Could be the little bit of rain that I got for the past two days? or it could be the start of something or I am just going to have a normal flu? Not like the allergy sneeze that I would have though. Today is a bit different 🤔. Shall I be worried?  Sometimes I think certain things were to our advantage. Like if there is no requirement, and it is up to us to decide or comes up with a solution, then it couldn’t be a mistake because there was no correct solution to begin with. Hm. Worst is that there is a solution that doesn’t work and you have to follow it right?  I am worried about this sore throat feeling. Normally it would have gone away after I woke up. We still go to site even though there were close to 900 cases for the past two days. Well, sometimes good and sometimes bad. I don’t care liao, most is Covid...

 is when you log in to a site where you have not login for a while and the password works ^-^ what if, our ancestors actually add ^-^ as a full stop at the end of a sentence? 

 Sometimes I felt like doing some silly stuff to my program but for sanity sake I keep to the original boring track. 

I think a good programmer needs to be good at error catching. I error catch until I almost crazy liao…. Originally wanted to solve one problem, while solving this problem, I found another. Then another and then another… suddenly I forgot the first problem that I was thinking of solving. I go through the code again, ah, I remember. Trace your debug code and it will save u some time than to go through all. One good thing about .NET c#. The line won’t affect production I guess

 7am wake up, 9:30am office, 10:00am laptop can run, 12:00am Lunch, 1:30am back, 6:30pm Dinner, 7:30pm Go home, ~9pm Reached home and shower and everything else, turn on computer, 10:00 Try checking out my code again as some resolution not right. Around 12am sleep but if anything wrong will have to deal with it til 1 or 2 am. If I went to office this morning, I think can tahan til 12 am only. All in all, 3 hrs Travel, 3 hrs Meals, 1 hr waiting my laptop to start and shutdown twice, barely 9 hrs of work… and tired. If at home, 8 am wake up, 9 am work, 11:30am dapao, 12am reached home, 1am Eat lunch dapaoed, 1:15-1:30pm continue working. 6:30pm Dinner or no dinner since not moving. If have the most another 30 mins. Back to work all the way to whatever time and shower when needed and rest 30 mins. Stopped working around 12/1/2am. That’s 13.5 hrs of work if I only consider I worked till 12 and the other two hours considered for next day. If previous night, I stayed home, then I actuall...

 My laptop frozen again after adding one xaml ui change… What a great day. 05:30 pm marked the day of another laptop freeze. Force shutdown and starting now. May the force be with the laptop, u shitty piece of shit. Time to nap again. Hope I saved my notepad… or the correction I’ve made earlier on. If it happened again, I will use the time to either find a new comp or a new job. Whichever comes first. 

 Woke up at 9am. Saw my sis watching tv. Eat breakfast and watched along. 10:30 am put laundry into washing machine. Check the pair of shoes that I didn’t realise to be delivered the day after I bought them. It was the same pair that I bought last month. I like the simplistic design and wearing it was ok except for the first few days. 11am turned on laptop. Was supposed to after eating breakfast. Now nap for 20 mins and see if it has opened up by then. Washing machine probably done by then also. Then I can start up my program. Saw an offer for buying laptop. Shall I? Just that not sure if they are good enough.  People expect you to do things without complaints. After giving me so much hassle why can’t I do it with complaints to compensate my loss. In the end I was the one bottling the stupid thing. Don’t make until like the job has nothing good about them anymore. I like doing beautiful things or good design or good structural flow. It’s a haunted project. A project that goes ...

 Changed this in the morning. I was switching the base to linear and have been using it. Only till now I realised something was off.

有一天在回家的路上，再等火车，然后突然想到一个笑话. 想说回家以后就在记下来。后来回到家以后就什么都忘了。今天才想起可是忘了是什么了。😶

  New earphone. I bought a 6 dollar one before this. Not sure why, it wasn’t working on zoom so I bought another one. Thinking back I think it could also be my shitty laptop issues. Anyway, just buy a better one la, probably the music would sounds much better. As to why I bought a wired one, simply bluetooth is being disabled for company’s laptop.  Why is it Red? em… because the price decided the color. I went to the shop to buy one. They only have blue, green and red at 69 dollars. The people at the shop told me it was 40++ but the price tag said otherwise. Probably they marked up. I went to shopee and find the same brand. Mostly 40++ to 69 dollars. 🙄 Then I found one at 39 but the thing is only red colour left. hm… and left only a few in stock… I really don’t want to I could spend another 10 dollars for another colour? well, not if I only use it for zoom once a month or when I use at home which bothers no one. My phone doesn’t support the headphone jack. Only my laptop does...