I have been following a show. Things that I was thinking somehow coincides with the show. I was wondering if that is a SEO thing and the show depended on that. Simply, probably I was thinking too much?
A thing I've learnt yesterday: two forgetful people can probably repeat their conversation over and over again. haha. Repeat the next time and still ok.
I signed up for a free intro class on SEO for Startups & Beginners. It was 11 - 1pm. I thought I could squeeze it in during class's lunch time. They have been many instances I can't join because of the timing clashes with my class. I used my other computer to connect and just to find out it was US's time... It won't happen until 11pm - 1am... I know there is no free meal in this world. Just curious and it wouldn't hurt. Every time, there is like "no worries, no string attached" and it makes me think there is every string attached to it otherwise you wouldn't say it. haha.
I joined a class's chill session online at about 9:30 pm. I forgotten about the class. I tried to find time to do that so I don't break their conversation by saying goodbye and as time goes by it was 12 plus. Then I checked my mail and saw the reminder. Quickly went to the website, I am watching it now. Luckily I can roll back!
I should just be me instead of trying too hard to fit in. Either way, I am not doing fine. haha. I am at a road block whenever it comes to social media. I could reply a lot of things in my head but probably others will think otherwise. Culture? Language expression? Facial expression? or just me? What I have spoken have different interpretation and it takes someone very similar to understand what I truly mean. It gets very offensive at times and every time I tried to talk, this would come to mind. I was thinking should I say it or not. Anyway, to solve it, I guess the best is to always keep my opinions to myself. If I really wanted to say it, I would just write to myself what I wanted to say. Just to clear it off my mind. If ever that person need it, I could probably fetch it.
We are all living in age of privileges but boxed up life. We don't really reap what we sow. I was privileged in a way that my dad paid for my Uni fees. Our parents worked very hard to assure that. If you think 12 hours were too lengthy, probably most of our parents or grandparents have spent only 3 hours of sleep daily while the rest of the days were either working or looking after their kids. There are so many privileges that we have that our parents or grandparents didn't have. I am privileged to have an education that many women at my parents or grandparents's era don't. I am privileged that I don't have to get married just because I am of age. I am privileged that I have a proper environment for a living with access to water and food. I am privileged to be able to have access to educational materials and resources. I am privileged to have medical access when I am sick (our parents/grandparents would have to just bear with it. Until now, dad still hesitates to see a doctor.). I am privileged just to have a bed to sleep on and the table that I have to write on or the lights to brighten up my room. These all just doesn't fall from the sky. Those time, people started working at a young age. 8? 9? I don't know.
Do you know the number of people who still doesn't have these privileges? Not to say, to not to do a thing and get everything? There are times you might have missed out the privileges that you have until you truly look at it. Will these simple privileges be gone or will I have more?
There was once when I was very young. It was past midnight and I saw Mum wanted to go out. She said she had work to do in the shop (to rush customer's order as everyone was rushing for Hari Raya. It was a season that happened every year. There were times everyone was at the factory till late night.). I said I wanted to follow her to the shop. Mum brought me along to our shop downstairs. It was dark at night and quite scary. Mum asked me to sleep on the foldable sleeping chair as she did her work. I tried not to fall asleep but in the end I did. It was pretty hard to fall asleep as the chair wasn't that nice to sleep on and the light was on. Then after she was done, she woke me up to go back upstairs.
I don't know why but these were just always on my mind. At the time, there were like 7-8 of us living in a two room house. There were times the water pressure's not enough when the people downstairs were using. Sometimes, it was brown. Sometimes, it was so low that we have to go downstairs to shower. The condition was better when I was born (we have a car at least) as I heard it was much worse before I was born. I did my homework (I normally didn't do my homework) on the sofa or the floor or the bed (the best and it was a mattress on the floor). As I get older, we have a table everybody shared and a proper bed frame. At that time, I think it was considered living in a better condition compared to majority of the people. Why money never fall from the skies for both countries that were so rich in oil and resources? The answer is blowing in the wind. Sg without any of those strived far ahead?
Anyway, in the end, we had a better house but that was after I graduated from Uni. I have a room of my own (finally) but lasted for a year only because I moved to Sg afterwards. I was like looking for a suitable Engineering job in Brunei and Miri for a year. I could probably work as a clerk, cashier, or a shrimp farm? I did help my dad and work like a clerk, cashier, carry stuff around, stocking things up and blablabla. Good thing, I don't have to dress myself up. There is like very little position to work as an Engineer. I was giving tuition at night too. I did gave that a thought. That is, to be a tuition teacher but I have an Engineering Degree which we paid and worked so hard for and just to be a tuition teacher? I shouldn't have taken the Degree if I have known the condition. Probably save the money and start a small business or whatever if I can't do a job that I liked.
My main interest, to be an Engineer, was to make toys or improve how things work. The toys was when I was very young. I didn't get to buy toys very often. When I did get one, it broke easily. I told myself, one day, when I grow up, I am going to make toys that is affordable and going to last forever. The present that I received, actually broke because of my younger brother. I have one glass thing that chipped because he played with it. I have one big uno set that was missing or folded because no matter how much you told him, he can't understand.
Anyway, I think I applied to Lego before. haha. Dreams that I have never achieved and let go off (don't judge me). Probably because I got into the wrong course? I should have taken Mechanical or Electrical instead but I have already done that.... Can't go back in time. I missed out chance too. Out of luck or what. I missed out an interview for an Internship at ABB. I was travelling and I got the phone call from them and I couldn't make it at the time specified because I was at another country plus the reception was really really bad. After that, I never get any reply back... I have all the time in the world waiting for your call. You decided to call me the one week I was away... Probably, that's fate.
Ok.... Enough for today. I'll sleep... It is like 3 am..... Still got assignment and other reading stuff piling up.
A thing I've learnt yesterday: two forgetful people can probably repeat their conversation over and over again. haha. Repeat the next time and still ok.
I signed up for a free intro class on SEO for Startups & Beginners. It was 11 - 1pm. I thought I could squeeze it in during class's lunch time. They have been many instances I can't join because of the timing clashes with my class. I used my other computer to connect and just to find out it was US's time... It won't happen until 11pm - 1am... I know there is no free meal in this world. Just curious and it wouldn't hurt. Every time, there is like "no worries, no string attached" and it makes me think there is every string attached to it otherwise you wouldn't say it. haha.
I joined a class's chill session online at about 9:30 pm. I forgotten about the class. I tried to find time to do that so I don't break their conversation by saying goodbye and as time goes by it was 12 plus. Then I checked my mail and saw the reminder. Quickly went to the website, I am watching it now. Luckily I can roll back!
I should just be me instead of trying too hard to fit in. Either way, I am not doing fine. haha. I am at a road block whenever it comes to social media. I could reply a lot of things in my head but probably others will think otherwise. Culture? Language expression? Facial expression? or just me? What I have spoken have different interpretation and it takes someone very similar to understand what I truly mean. It gets very offensive at times and every time I tried to talk, this would come to mind. I was thinking should I say it or not. Anyway, to solve it, I guess the best is to always keep my opinions to myself. If I really wanted to say it, I would just write to myself what I wanted to say. Just to clear it off my mind. If ever that person need it, I could probably fetch it.
We are all living in age of privileges but boxed up life. We don't really reap what we sow. I was privileged in a way that my dad paid for my Uni fees. Our parents worked very hard to assure that. If you think 12 hours were too lengthy, probably most of our parents or grandparents have spent only 3 hours of sleep daily while the rest of the days were either working or looking after their kids. There are so many privileges that we have that our parents or grandparents didn't have. I am privileged to have an education that many women at my parents or grandparents's era don't. I am privileged that I don't have to get married just because I am of age. I am privileged that I have a proper environment for a living with access to water and food. I am privileged to be able to have access to educational materials and resources. I am privileged to have medical access when I am sick (our parents/grandparents would have to just bear with it. Until now, dad still hesitates to see a doctor.). I am privileged just to have a bed to sleep on and the table that I have to write on or the lights to brighten up my room. These all just doesn't fall from the sky. Those time, people started working at a young age. 8? 9? I don't know.
Do you know the number of people who still doesn't have these privileges? Not to say, to not to do a thing and get everything? There are times you might have missed out the privileges that you have until you truly look at it. Will these simple privileges be gone or will I have more?
There was once when I was very young. It was past midnight and I saw Mum wanted to go out. She said she had work to do in the shop (to rush customer's order as everyone was rushing for Hari Raya. It was a season that happened every year. There were times everyone was at the factory till late night.). I said I wanted to follow her to the shop. Mum brought me along to our shop downstairs. It was dark at night and quite scary. Mum asked me to sleep on the foldable sleeping chair as she did her work. I tried not to fall asleep but in the end I did. It was pretty hard to fall asleep as the chair wasn't that nice to sleep on and the light was on. Then after she was done, she woke me up to go back upstairs.
I don't know why but these were just always on my mind. At the time, there were like 7-8 of us living in a two room house. There were times the water pressure's not enough when the people downstairs were using. Sometimes, it was brown. Sometimes, it was so low that we have to go downstairs to shower. The condition was better when I was born (we have a car at least) as I heard it was much worse before I was born. I did my homework (I normally didn't do my homework) on the sofa or the floor or the bed (the best and it was a mattress on the floor). As I get older, we have a table everybody shared and a proper bed frame. At that time, I think it was considered living in a better condition compared to majority of the people. Why money never fall from the skies for both countries that were so rich in oil and resources? The answer is blowing in the wind. Sg without any of those strived far ahead?
Anyway, in the end, we had a better house but that was after I graduated from Uni. I have a room of my own (finally) but lasted for a year only because I moved to Sg afterwards. I was like looking for a suitable Engineering job in Brunei and Miri for a year. I could probably work as a clerk, cashier, or a shrimp farm? I did help my dad and work like a clerk, cashier, carry stuff around, stocking things up and blablabla. Good thing, I don't have to dress myself up. There is like very little position to work as an Engineer. I was giving tuition at night too. I did gave that a thought. That is, to be a tuition teacher but I have an Engineering Degree which we paid and worked so hard for and just to be a tuition teacher? I shouldn't have taken the Degree if I have known the condition. Probably save the money and start a small business or whatever if I can't do a job that I liked.
My main interest, to be an Engineer, was to make toys or improve how things work. The toys was when I was very young. I didn't get to buy toys very often. When I did get one, it broke easily. I told myself, one day, when I grow up, I am going to make toys that is affordable and going to last forever. The present that I received, actually broke because of my younger brother. I have one glass thing that chipped because he played with it. I have one big uno set that was missing or folded because no matter how much you told him, he can't understand.
Anyway, I think I applied to Lego before. haha. Dreams that I have never achieved and let go off (don't judge me). Probably because I got into the wrong course? I should have taken Mechanical or Electrical instead but I have already done that.... Can't go back in time. I missed out chance too. Out of luck or what. I missed out an interview for an Internship at ABB. I was travelling and I got the phone call from them and I couldn't make it at the time specified because I was at another country plus the reception was really really bad. After that, I never get any reply back... I have all the time in the world waiting for your call. You decided to call me the one week I was away... Probably, that's fate.
Ok.... Enough for today. I'll sleep... It is like 3 am..... Still got assignment and other reading stuff piling up.
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