Wait and God

 I think sometimes it was God’s whispering. I was just stuck there and somehow, I thought of things I never thought. So far, they have hidden quite a lot of things from me. From the beginning and with my temper, I would probably never stayed this long. One thing is money, second thing is once I settled, I don’t like moving even if it was the wrong choice, I believe I have the ability to make right. By God’s grace, I was always one line away from failing. 

I was like waiting for them to give me the hardware, so far, none I have received on time. None were working 100% but the only thing that I chose to believe in is they have tried their best. That way, I can continue. Few days ago while testing my new app, I decided to just go with the board without the required hardware. Turned out, it was no longer needed with the new board. As always, this is how they worked. If I didn’t have work experience, this would be like a no-no for me. However, I always have two books that collect the good and bad. I bad overrun, then it will project me off instantly when danger comes. The earlier version of the board cannot work without the additional hardware. When new board was given to me, I assumed it needs those add-ons. I know what everyone is up to but you know I always believe if you did good, you will get it back. Same for bad. I don’t know why one day I woke up having the urge to just use the board without the add-ons. I just want to get it running but surprisingly, it worked. I was waiting for the static sound but only to hear what I did not hear before. Maybe also because of my settings. I always use back old settings. In the end, it was the old settings and board giving me false result. It was always at the last minute, God speaks. Or was it that verse that rang when I read on facebook?

The danger of the phone is that you do everything with it. Even when I am not using it, I am still using it. It feels empty without my phone. I can be the opposite too but then when I did, guess all the messages I missed. When I don’t, there was none. I was repairing my mum’s wallet so I do my multi-tasking. Never do anything without another non-important stuff. I just let Netflix playing on its own but then I realised, when some shorts were shown, I don’t remember if I have watched them. I roughly know the storyline. It divides my attention and it was like doing two things at the same time wasn’t really saving time. It actually makes the process twice as long and half the quality. Like you don’t fully focus and what you know what just 20-50%. The wallet could have been done in like 2hrs but I spend whole day… I wonder if this is more of a problem than when I don’t spend time like this. I also hate wasting time. yet, it doesn’t really save time.