2020

 First thing to give away was the foot and knees. Ever since I last sprained my knee, now it seems to give way sometimes. Cannot really get hurt I guess, once hurt, the pain will come once in a while. My right foot always get hurts. For the past week, could be a few times I kicked my right foot against something. I was taking my Nintendo Switch off the table to the bed. It slipped out of the casing and then dropped right onto my right foot big toe. Soon, it began to bleed. Hope I didn’t break any bones because it hurt tonnes. Until now, I still felt where it was hit. Lucky that day, I wasn’t working but I hope it gets better when I needed to go the next day. Soon enough, I was called to do OT as someone was sick and cannot make it. To add on to that, I accidentally kicked onto a trolley which was by the entrance to the cashier. On my pinky toe. Argh… My right foot was so prone to injuries. Then few nights ago, I accidentally kicked my pinky toe onto my sis bed post. I just opened t...

 Got time, go and buy things. Pick the job you wanted to do then pretended to do a lot. When I was younger, I was asked to spend less. Sometimes I refused especially when I only spent on drink during meal outing (rare). That's the farthest I go. 1 dollar more or less. A car or Uni. 1 dollar for once in a while was what. Pretended to save a lot but spent so much on other things. Still people wanted to say. Ownself, don't know spend on what. When I went to primary school, dad always gave her 5-10 dollars to buy for us. Most of the time, we only bought 50 cents to 1 dollar stuff. Most money goes to her. When not in the same school anymore, we have 1 dollar each. Mostly saved on me. Books, no need. Toys, no need. Clothes, no need. When got work to do, then I am first choice. Then other siblings can buy their toys, books, MacBook, and even Car. I did nothing. Nobody ever cooked the meals. Nobody ever took over to look after the shop. The one who slept or watching TV or went travelli...

 Got up to have breakfast at a new favourite place. Nice environment and also food tasted like how I used to have them. I am still waiting for my flight back to Sg. We went out to dinner. Dad always asking me to drive fast even when I was at like 120 km/ hrs. My older sister hadn’t even started driving, my Dad asked her to slow down. We went out to buy groceries and on our way back, we saw twilight on our way home. Our house is near the beaches and we took pictures. When we reached home, it seems the twilight was quite near if we go in further the junction. It was a sight I have not seen even though my house was nearby. Me, Mum, Dad and my older sis driving and watching it. I had ice cream. Yam flavour by Kings. Dad was so excited about it and asked me to give him. I said we can wait till we finish dinner. I eat then caused I have already eaten dinner. He said later all gone already. :p This morning, we made spaghetti again. Then I am off to preparing lunch after having breakfast a...

 I brought my parents along with my sister to Miri today to run errands. Then at night when we reached the place, we will sleep on the sofa. My mum took out everything she can find in the room. two to three blankets. pillows. towels. a foldable mattress. Everytime they come out to get something or find something, they would ask us if we have blankets when the sofa was almost stuffed with what they have brought out previously.

 Accepting things as it was. I am just too good at that. I saw how my life will be and I am practically living my life as I wanted it. Everything you did, you ended up feeling regretful and so, all the more any path will lead you there. I have gone through things and seen many things. I have been to lots of places that were not a country, or a location but circumstances or position. I saw through how it will be like and I rather live a better one than living less just because of tradition. How can I make my parents see that being single is actually a good choice and something that is by fate. It is tedious.  My youngest nephew can make his own roti prata. Though it was ready made, he can use the stove. hehe. Then he can iron his own clothes. How time flies that he grew up. He also do his own homework on his own accord. Lending us his room and when I had problem with the car, he quickly came over and helped. I was with him when he was two in a lousy car that had problem when re...