2020

 I lost 4-5 kgs after quitting my job for a week. From 74-75 kg, for the past few days, I weighed myself and the lowest was 69.8 and highest was 71.2. hm.. what does that say?

 Hm… Done shredding my papers. Good that I bought the manual shredder from Muji. Makes the process faster compared to my last job which took about a week or two and wasn’t even done. I have to gradually shred them. Of course, the one in the office got shredding machine so that sped up a lot at work. Now, left with my books. Rearrange my cabinet and finally, my tables. Have to find time go Cow Play Cow Moo or Timezone to exchange cards for points. The ones that I collected, I guess it was no longer that important to me. Hm… It does but all things in the world will come to pass that there are no more space for the past. I have to make way for what is coming next. I will not apply for a job but hoping to work more on a project that has been on my mind for so long. Then if startup is where I will need to start to do things that I long wanted to do probably start now because I am no longer young. Hope in 1 year time, I can make something fruitful. Before I get busy like a maniac, spent ...

 Yesterday’s night Uncle broke a glass cover. I helped clean up and Aunty said she cook beef stew for me (for all) because I helped clean up. Hahaha. Then maybe next Saturday ask Uncle to break another one. I can have beef stew again. hehehehe

 So last day wasn’t as scary. Hehehe. I dare not say goodbye to my big big boss so I quickly run away after passing my pass to our admin. Phew… When exiting, I met another person who also doing exit clearance. We were looking for the security guard. There are 3 possible locations and the hunt for her ended at the 3rd location which is the last location. hehehehehe. I got a treat at Saizeriya today. Night time my sis wanted to eat Saizeriya too hahahaha. Then long queue so we ended up eating Takagi Ramen. Devil lips ramen… I cannot finish that. Super spicy…. 

 Almost become a thief this morning. I walked in to 7-11. Thought to grab something fast for snack to put on the table. I only saw nuts. Not many things to buy. My hand already have a plastic bag to bring the choc my sis helped me bought to bring to work. Supposed to go out with her but something came up. I subconsciously put the nuts into the plastic bag. Then browse the shelves to see what other things to buy. After a few second, I realised, I haven’t pay for it that it should not be mixed with the things in my plastic bag… wahhhhhh. Good that I realised that before going out else, I robbed 7-11 in broad daylight. On the way out, I did see more chocs. 

 Last trip going to work. At least, it is almost proper this time. Probably things done wrong or things done right have its own course. The finale is here. 

 With time, everything shall be forgotten. People just told me to let go. Ya, I did. The trouble only comes after I let go. Maybe it was just me. Anyway… Just printed my timesheet, delete almost the whole world from the laptop… No going back to the old code so actually deleting stuff doesn’t affect me but the people who need to refer to it later on. After done, by right shouldn’t even need it but the changes was so frequent, I guess they will need. Well, at least latest version was given. The one before the changes were checked in before any change. However, bugs found after the change won’t be there so… hm… It’s a headache. I don’t want to see the code. It is agonising to see them. I didn’t even check what happened to the last code I wrote.  I forgot to charge my phone… So now have to charge it a bit before I sleep. Blog a bit. Anger clear off but then I dunno what else can I do. Sigh… However, after deleting the code, it feels like clearing the clouds above my head. Weekends...

 Slow… remembered something… then all my plan shifted…

 I realised I was the one who wrote the email. ahahaha. but nobody give a shit earlier on. :(

 Still got 3 hrs to eat this… It is 9pm now. Expiry today, tmr cannot eat… Just had my shower… My dinner. Let me have coffee with it. Suppose to have it for breakfast but did not. Before I go for my last few sprint of work.

 People are showing where they have travelled. I am showing where they have travelled… 👩🏻‍💻 🐼 I have changed my flight back to Brunei to an earlier date.  When I first book earlier this year, it was less than 500. Now the price has gone up to about 750. Have to top up about 350 for the change… That was like another round trip. Since last minute, round trips was between 700-1000 for December and around January. Some days no flight. Glad that I can still change. Next is to worry about where to sleep when I am back. hahaha.  Rushing to finish up the things I have for now. Almost got it cleared… Now left svn to conquer and some copy paste things…. Argh…. I lost track of time. I thought today is Saturday… 😭 It’s Sunday…. Good times gone fast.

 I don’t want to do work but I have work to do… 

 Before I go conquering the lousy laptop, I will have to eat breakfast. Done putting the clothes into the washing machine. Turn on laptop. Let it be, let it run. 3 more days. Hope I don’t even have to use it on the 4th day. But will turn it on just in case. Monday was the day of the test. This one more critical actually…. because it’s on the road…. in the middle of nowhere…. sigh… 

 It was so cloudy. Everytime, it’s either raining or no sun at all. If I am a guy, probably I have never seen this message before. Hahahahaha. I do know guys who do laundry. Hope you are not offended. Only to those who don’t. A picture speaks a thousand words. Different people different meaning too. Did I took this picture anytime but not today? Did I photoshopped it? Was the whole sky filled with clouds? Nope. I just took the cloudy part. Aunty can be a great supervisor. Well-organised shelves and fridge. Close to zero expiry products can be found in it (that’s what she always ensure and that’s totally opposite from my mum, hahaha - most things are expired when you want to eat). She is 74. My mum is 73. They both can use handphone to whatsapp and take pictures. She can send pictures through whatsapp too. Yesterday she paused the show she was watching to make sure I go throw the rubbish. Wait for me to come back before locking the door. When I came back, the tv somehow at a differe...

 If there is another universe, and the opposite was happening. There is no in between. I am not the one stuck with this laptop. Nope. I think there is more to things. Is it self destruction? Nah… 

 Sigh. For all the extra time I spent on this laptop, I realised I am not willing to spend more time on it. For all the things I skipped and I shouldn’t skip anymore. I think done this and that, is more than enough for what has been going on. I knew about the laptop and the subsequent events. 一开始的事。 Now, just this last piece to figure out. The slower it gets, the worst things become. The less I want to do. I won’t leave a bad review for whatever it was but I want to leave a memory of it on my blog.  All I can do is fix as much as possible and to transfer everything to someone else. At least, less bug for them to fix. The rest, it is what it is as with the tools and information provided. I gave more details too. 我的人就做到这样了。Credit also given so you can do whatever you want also. I will take back my extra weekends and nights spent. The most I can do is go there when there is problem. Otherwise, I will be continuing my studies which I skipped for the past month to rush things out. ...

 Now I see you is more scary or Now you see me. 

 The more mistake… After I thought I solved the problem, well another pop up…. 😭

 Super Duper. Once upon a time, I always said super duper good. Actually, it could mean not good at all if you lookup for the meaning of Duper. 

 I don’t remember when was the last time I slept for only 2 hours. I think it was last year. I can’t actually sleep when I went to bed but fell asleep in the train. I think my tummy prevented me from having a good sleep. It felt like a foreign object. Maybe will take the time to cut down my weight else everytime Dad called, he will have to ask me to cut down my weight. 

 Honesty is what I treasure. That’s why, even if I don’t enjoy doing the task, I agreed to do it. I knew what they were doing. Just take it as my gift of going. I realised, there are actually things that I am good at. That will be my focus now. At least I am not the one talking. If not now, when? If God is watching, He shall be the Judge of all, it was never my turn for that. I am not watching because it is really none of my business. Journey next will be tougher or maybe more interesting. There is a time for everything. Where everything will go? hm… 

 Process A took 10s Process B took 1s Process C took 100s We have 2 mins which is 120s to complete all the processes. We gave 100s to Process A Gave 20s to Process B Gave 0s to Process C The irony was, without Process C, other processes were redundant.  Hahahahaha Can you make a cake without any ingredients? You can prepare all the tools. But the main ingredients were the essence of the process. Without proper tools, probably you can still make it. 100s to buy the ingredients, 20s to prepare the tools. 0s for the cake. If you need to cry, can start now. This is where the song came in. You can add in some musical instruments here too. You looked up into the sky and sang. Imagine there’s no heaven. It’s easy if you try. No hell below us. Above us only sky. The end.

 I thought I solved the question fast. The fast here means the solution runs faster. Actually, there is a solution out there that is a tiny bit much faster and cleaner. So not satisfying. Secret of success. Secret to success. It is a secret. If you knew it, it wasn’t a secret anymore. It is a lie. 🐲

 While on the way back from Orchard, after having a brunch there for Uncle’s birthday, when it was almost our stop, Aunty and Uncle awaken from their nap. Yes. Nap on the train. Aunty asked Uncle if she snored just now. Uncle said yes and very loud like Orrrhhh Orhhhhh. Hahaha. I didn’t hear a thing.

 Breaking news. The news is breaking. We need to fix it….

 Barely 😴 last night. When I reached home, I took out my pen to open the door. hmm… drunk I remember an instance when we were going out one morning to shopping. While waiting for bus, we saw an Uncle lying on the floor beside a tree. With blood flowing out of his mouth and on the floor. We all thought he vomited blood but actually it was red wine. Quickly, many people come and help. A funny incident. hehehe. Uncle was fine. He was drunk and woke up after a guy sat him up from the floor trying to wake him.  If that was me, probably real blood. 

 The memory for this program was far too long ago…. Anyway. Crappy.

 My program needed sometimes to load so I am blogging. Blog about what? hm… Almost 1 more week!!!! Time flies so slow. 

 今天突然想起以前买的茶杯。是真的泡茶的茶杯。因为想换去喝茶。不喝咖啡。买了一堆茶叶还有专门泡茶的茶杯。我买了两个加起来80块。一个可以放在办公室。一个在家。结果当天拿回家的时候，应为有包装bubble wrap。 所以杯底不平。拿出来放桌上时然后松开了手要拿第二个杯的时候，就在我还没来得及反应，第一个杯就掉到地上了。这时你听见我心碎的声音吗？还是新的。一天都没用。。。后来就再也不买太贵的杯了。另一个就用到现在。阿姨说那是80块的杯的时候，我的心又碎一次。然后我就会回答是40块。阿姨只记得80块。东西超过100块我就会嫌贵了。除非有免费的礼物。:)

  Today, Aunty cooked beef potato curry. Just now I walked home. Around the same time where I passed a block, somebody was practicing violin. Some weekends morning, I can hear people practicing piano. Then there is a ringing sound sometimes coming from downstairs which I used to think was the ice cream seller. In the end, one day I passed a block and on the 3rd floor, I saw a lady holding a bell and keep on ringing it. hahahahah. so it wasn’t ice cream in the first place.